Lyrics from Mandy Moore's "Cry"(c)
Chapter One: I'll always Remember…
It was as though the sky had sensed the sorrow that bewildered that very day, creating an utmost dreary atmosphere. Dark heavy clouds covered the sky as raindrops hurled from the above and plummeted on the ground.
I'll always remember, it was late afternoon,
It lasted forever, and ended so soon…
A crowd of people were gathered in a group on the field, more specifically, a graveyard. A funeral. There were only about 20 people there at the funeral, most of the people left once it had begun to rain, and returned back to the church were the ceremony was held earlier that day.
You were all by yourself, staring up at a dark grey sky,
I was changed…
A young woman sat in one of the front row chairs facing the minister who was standing on a miniature stage in front of her. Behind the minister was a large, redwood coffin Surrounded with flowers, cranes attached to the bottom corners on each side of the coffin.
Beneath the coffin was a hole, a rectangular shaped gap in the ground to where the coffin would soon be lowered. A tear traveled down the girl's cheek, leaving behind a trail of water where it had run down, it then fell off her chin, and blended with the raindrops on her black sweater. Her long, black hair whipped her face as the wind blew through it, concealing her tearful auburn eyes from whoever may be watching.
In places no one would find, all your feelings so deep inside…
A few more tears ran down her face as she watched the only man she ever loved, the only person who really felt for her the way she did them, being lowered into the ground.
Suddenly it became real to her. He was gone, dead, diseased, failed from existence. Right then and there, was the first time she'd admitted that reality to herself.
She knew the truth, her mind knew it, but her heart pushed the idea away, didn't want to believe it. A part of her still hoped that he would come walking through the doors, run up to her, and hold her in his arms once again, and she would forget about this whole fiasco.
It was then that I realized, that forever was in your eyes,
The moment I saw you Cry…
They were supposed to live happily ever after, a house, kids, the whole nine yards. But no, he was gone, and she didn't even get a chance to tell him how much she loved him, how much she cared for him, she wanted to thank him, and say goodbye.
Holding back tears, she didn't even notice that the minister had begun his speech; the coffin had been completely lowered in the ground, she was so lost in thought. It was only when the people around her began to stand up and march back to the church did she come back to her senses.
It was late in September, and I'd seen you before,
You were always the cold one, but I was never that sure…
She got to her feet as well, taking on last glance back at the coffin before striding back towards the church with the other people. After everyone had left, she wandered the empty church between the benches on either side of the room.
The clucking of her shoes hitting the tiled floor as she walked echoed in the large room. Her eyes wandered the church from the roof, down the wall, and across the floor, examining the delicate artwork.
You were all by yourself, staring up at a dark grey sky,
I was changed…
Still glaring at the room, she slid in a gap between the benches and sat down on it. She felt so alone, she was alone, but it was a different feeling from its original meaning. She felt isolated and cut off from the rest of the world, so abandoned.
'No, think positive' she told herself, another voice spoke up inside her 'Positive! Positive? What could possibly be positive about this! Hmmmmm?' Another voice began to talk 'I still have my friends; they'll always be here for me, even if I have been ignoring them for the past few days…. I hope Alexia isn't mad at me for snapping at her the other day. I've just been a little on edge lately.'
Xxx Flashback xxX
"LEAVE! GO NOW!!"
"But Joy, I'm just trying to help you."
"LEAVE ME ALONE!!! JUST GO!"
Xxx End xxX
She let out a huge sigh 'I need some fresh air' she told herself as she walked out of the church, towards the hill where the burial had taken place earlier that day. She was reluctant to go back, but she knew she had to, she wanted to.
I wanted to hold you,
I wanted to make it go away…
Where the minister and the coffin where that morning, there was only a headstone sticking out of the ground, flowers and freshly dug-up soil lay in front of the rock.
It still continued to rain, but she didn't care, at that point, she didn't care about anything, life was beginning to seem pointless.
She dropped to her knees in front of the tombstone. She could feel her knees becoming wet, the mud soaking through her pants, but again, she didn't care.
I wanted to know you,
I wanted to make your everything, all right…
Picking up the large arrangement of flowers, she took in their fresh aroma before lifting the tag at the side to read. It was signed by all of her friends.
She placed the flowers back down before she laid sight on the tombstone in front of her. Her eyes filled with tears as she red his name aloud to herself, while running her fingertips over his name on the stone. It was smooth marble, but had a distinctive coldness to it that made her shudder slightly.
She felt something poke her from inside her pocket. She retrieved the object from it and glared confusingly at it. What she held before her was a small navy blue box.
I'll always remember…
It was late afternoon…