Fifty First Kisses Chapter 1: I thought I'd lost you, a castle fanfic

And I had an idea for a new FanFiction. I hope you're going to like it. I dunno how often I'm going to update this story, so it will probably be a few days sometimes or a week or two. I really can't say. Don't hate me for it! :)

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OneWriterDetective

[Disclaimer: I do not own Castle, only the idea for this FanFiction.]

Fifty First Kisses

Chapter One - "I thought I'd lost you."

Set sometime around season 4.

He pushed her and she fell. And fell. And fell. Her weapon slid out of her hand. She rang for air when she hit the water, but instead of air, she inhaled water. The water was cold and she felt icy instantly. She coughed to get the water out of her lungs, but the only thing happening was, that she inhaled more water. The next thing she felt was her head hitting a stone and her eyes shutting close.

Three hours earlier...

"A wonderful good morning, Detective Beckett", he said and put the cup of coffee down next to her hand.

"You're late", she replied and grabbed the coffee to take a few sips. She got up and gave him a note with an address. "Let's go."

"On my way", he said and run after her.

"Mr. Walters, NYPD! Open up!", Kate shouted through the closed door. Nothing. "Castle? Stay back", she said, took a few steps back and kicked the door in. She cleared the rooms, very aware that Castle was right behind her. "I told you to stay back", she whispered.

"And let you go in here alone? Are you crazy?"

"No, I'm fine, but you seem a little bit out of place." She put her weapon down. "He's not home. Let's go back to the Precinct. Maybe the boys have found something."

She called the Detectives as soon as she sat down in her car.

"Hi Beckett."

"Hey. Have you found something? He wasn't home."

"We are not sure. We're still checking..."

"Good. We're on our way back." With that, she hung up, started the engine and made her way back to the Precinct.

"We're gonna find him, Beckett."

"I'm not so sure of that now. Damn, I knew something wasn't alright with him! We had him and let him go again and now we can't find him anymore!"

"Whoa, slow down. We will find him. If you don't kill us in that traffic first."

"Shut up and stay silent, Castle."

"But..."

"I said 'shut up', didn't I?"

"Yes, but..."

"Didn't I make myself clear?"

"Sorry." She was angry, he better would not make up crazy theories now or she might kill him right away. He simply watched her drive. God, she was so beautiful when she was driving. Especially when she was in a hurry or angry. He remembered the day she drove his Ferrari exactly. She has been a dram to watch driving his red Ferrari. The way she had played with him in his lift with his mother standing right beside them and how she stole the keys from him. He should have...no, he shouldn't think of that now. Not now. Maybe later. In the evening. Just not now.

At the Precinct...

"Okay, what do you have?", Kate asked as soon as she could see Esposito and Ryan.

"A unit saw him just minutes ago", Ryan said.

"Where?"

"At the docks. We were just about to call you", Esposito explained.

"Great. A minute earlier and I could have stayed in my car. Let's go and hurry up. I want him and I want him now." Without waiting for an answer, she turned around and walked back to the elevator. Castle, Esposito and Ryan right behind her.

Inside the elevator, Kate turned to face Castle. "Castle, I want you to stay in the car. He already killed four people, I don't want you to be number five."

"Don't want you to be number five, either, Beckett."

"Yeah, but I have a weapon. You will stay in the car."

"Fine."

Ryan and Esposito threw a knowing look at each other.

40 Minutes later...

"No Castle. We talked about this earlier."

"I don't care. I won't let you go there alone!"

"You stay in the car Castle and when they get here, tell them I went down to the docks."

"But Beckett..."

"I said 'no', Castle."

He nodded and watched her putting her vest on.

"Watch your back, Beckett."

"I'm a Cop."

"I know...just...don't get hurt."

She nodded and left.

She could see him. He was about 20 meters from her. "Tyler Walters, freeze! NYPD!"

He turned around, saw her and started running again.

"I wouldn't do that, Tyler!"

He didn't stop and carried on running towards the bridge.

"Fuck", she thought and ran after him as fast as she could. Reaching the bridge, she couldn't see him anymore. Where...? She was hit in the stomach. She froze and felt the pain.

"You should t have followed me, Detective Beckett", Tyler said and pushed her from the bridge. She didn't even had the chance to decent herself.

When they came round the corner, he had just pushed Beckett down the bridge. "No", they screamed in union and ran towards Tyler. They grabbed and cuffed him.

"I'll get her", Esposito said and jumped after his boss.

Ryan grabbed his cellphone and called 911.

"This is Detective Kevin Ryan, badge number 43244. We need an ambulance. Now. We're at the docks down the Hudson River."

Esposito searched for her, but he couldn't find her. He dove, but still couldn't find her. The cold water made him feel icy and he felt, that he was getting tired. He couldn't give up now. He couldn't let Beckett die. He had to find her. He took a deep breath and dove underwater again. Finally, he found her, grabbed her arm and pulled her up. Her eyes were closed and she was probably unconscious. He had to get her out of the water as fast as possible.

He held her head high, so that she wouldn't inhale any more water. He swam towards the docks and Ryan helped him to pull her up. They could already hear the sirens.

"No, Beckett, come on. Breath Kate", Esposito said and tried to find her pulse. Nothing. No pulse. "No, Kate, you can't do that to us."

He threw a look at his partner. "Find Castle and get him here. Maybe he..."

"Oh my god, Kate!", they heard Castle scream. Behind him were two guys. Paramedics. "What...what happened?" Castle fell to his knees and grabbed her hand.

"He pushed her from the bridge. Her head hit a stone I think."

Tears fell from his eyes as he cried. "Kate, you can't do this to me. Not again. You have to live, Kate. Don't leave me alone", he sobbed.

"Sir, you have to step aside", one of the Paramedics said.

"I won't leave her side", Castle stated.

"And you don't have to, but we need you to step aside, so we can do our work and rescue her. Please."

He nodded and stepped aside. All he could think about was Kate and that she was nearly dead. Again.

An hour later at the hospital...

They sat in the waiting area. They still hadn't heard anything from Kate. Esposito had called her father and explained to him what had happened. He would be here soon.

"She's going to be alright. It's Beckett", Ryan said suddenly.

"And if not? I shouldn't have let her go there alone. If she's...it's my fault!"

"It's not your fault, Castle and she's going to make it! I didn't pull her up from the water to hear that she didn't make it!", Esposito replied.

"Espo's right. She's strong, Castle. She's going to make it. Hell, she was shot in the chest, Castle, and even that couldn't stop her!"

"I know! And that was my fault, too!"

"Stop fighting!", a voice shouted from the door. The three men saw towards Kate's father.

Rick shook his head and exited the room. He stopped at the end of the floor and rested his forehead and fists against the wall. Tears fell down his cheeks. He punched his fist against the wall, which he immediately regretted. His first hurt badly and he had probably just sprained his wrist. He didn't care. Feeling the pain was better than feeling guilty and useless.

"Feeling any better?", the familiar voice of Jim Beckett asked him.

He shook his head, swept his tears away and turned around. "I'm sorry, Jim. So sorry. I shouldn't have let her go alone...it's my fault..."

"No, it's not your fault. She just wanted you out of danger. She's a strong girl. She'll make it."

"How can you be so sure?"

"Because she's my little girl, Rick."

"But...when she...what if..."

"Don't...just don't do that. Don't put yourself there. I know you care about her, that's pretty obvious. And she cares about you, too. That's why she wanted you to stay in the car. I know her, she would have wanted it this way..."

"No, she...she can't do that to me. She can't leave me. I can't lose her like this, Jim."

Jim put his arms around him. "It's okay. She's not going to leave you. She'll be okay."

"But..."

"No buts."

"Family of Katherine Beckett?", a female voice asked.

Jim turned to the nurse. "Yes, I'm her father. How is my daughter?"

"She's stable now. She's going to be fine. We will have to watch her for at least the next twenty-four hours. You can visit her now. But only one person a time. She's still weak."

"Okay. Thank you", Jim said with a relieved smile. "Rick? May you go and see her first?", he offered.

"No, she's your daughter, you should see her first..."

"I've known her long enough to know, that she'll want to see you. Now go."

Rick hugged him. "Thank you", he whispered.

Jim patted his back. "Go and make my girl happy."

The nurse showed him the way to her room, where she laid in bed and seemed to be asleep. He thanked the nurse and took a deep breath. He watched her from outside of the little room for a few seconds, before her entered the room.

Slowly, he opened the door and went into the room. He closed the door as carefully and he opened it and went to stand beside her bed. He took her hand and caressed it softly. "I thought your leave me alone here, Kate", he said in a low voice and swept away a few tears.

"I wouldn't leave you alone", she said on a raspy voice. It was clearly hard for her to speak.

He looked at her in surprise. He hasn't known she was awake. "Hi."

"Hi."

"I'm happy you made it. How are you feeling?"

"My head hurts like hell. I think my head hit a stone."

"Yeah, it did. You were underwater for at least a minute..."

"Hey, it's okay. I'm still here", she said with a weak smile. She groaned and closed her eyes.

"Shall I call the nurse? I'm sure they have some Tylenol somewhere."

"No, I'm fine."

"But..."

"I said no."

"Fine. No Tylenol then. Shall I go and get your dad? I'm sure he'll want to see you."

"Stay. Please?", she asked.

He nodded and sat down on the chair next to her bed. "I'm really glad you're okay."

"Me too. I thought I wouldn't see you again", she replied.

"I couldn't stand losing you, Kate."

"I couldn't lose you either, Rick."

They smiled at each other. He slowly got up and stepped closer to her bed. He caressed her cheek his his fingers, until she grabbed his hand. She pulled him closer.

"Kiss me, Castle", she said and smiled.

"Are you sure? I mean..."

"Yes, yes I'm sure."

He closed the short distance between their lips and kissed her tenderly. She moaned quietly and pulled him closer. His soft lips felt good, oh so good on hers.

Ringing for air they broke away from each other.

"That felt amazing", she said with a wide smile.

He was still hovering above her. "Yeah, I agree on that."

"Good", she said and pulled him in for another kiss.

"I love you", he whispered against her lips in between two kisses.

"I love you, too", she replied in between some short kisses.

~THE END~

This was the first chapter. What do you think? Please review! :)