Blood Tears and Roses

.Introduction.

Bleeding out profusely in a dark and cold abandoned alley all alone with the heavens pounding down on you, may seem a tad bit depressing. Well I actually find it quite peaceful. I have resigned to my fate and the searing hot pain in my chest and side has lessened to nearly an overwhelming numbness. Though that may be due to my drifting conscience.

I don't want to die, but knowing I'll finally be reunited with my parents and little sister after all this time makes it bearable. I just wish I could see my angel's warm smile and run my fingers through those beautiful silver like tresses one last time.

I have no regrets though. He made me stronger. If it weren't for him, I would have been dead a long time ago. Sure, I may be lying here dying and soaking in a pool of my own crimson liquid, but at least it was on my own terms. That monster may have delivered the final blow, but at least I didn't make it easy for him. At least I put up a good fight.

I did it, I've won! I'm sure Im not making any sense right now, maybe Im out of my mind now due to the loss of so much blood, but this feels like the greatest victory of all. Most wouldn't imagine death as a win for anything, but then when people refer to life as a game, some say you never win. But then if you look at it like a board game, when you get to the end that usually means you win the game. Well the finish spot in life is death, and games, as well as life, are meant to be fun and enjoyable, though you should take your time and extend the game for as long as possible.

Random pieces of memory are scattering through my head. Memories that were non-important and long forgotten until now. Getting chocolate ice cream on my favorite Hello Kitty T-shirt when mommy took me to the park every sunday when I was five. Picking the sand out from between my toes at the beach with mommy when I was nine, then throwing a fit when I got them dirty again right when it was time to leave.

I am no doubt losing my mind now. For the last few remaining seconds of my life I see my beautiful angel smiling down on me from above. I try to smile back but I don't have control anymore. His face starts to fade away from my vision but I know he's still there as he bends down to lift me into his warm strong arms. Then before total darkness envelopes me and I leave this world for the next, I feel the slightest brush of warm feather like lips brush against mine.

Then he whispers ever so softly into my ear, "Im sorry".

Chapter one

"There are darknesses in life and there are lights, and you are one of the lights, the light of all lights."

No no no no no! This is all wrong. Why did I end up here? How? This can't be happening. I just died. Wasn't that enough? I thought I was the light that could change this horrible place.

He lied to me! I can't believe I trusted him. He told me he was supposed to be naturally evil but he wanted to change all that. This shouldn't be a bad place. I shouldn't be here. I don't deserve to be here. What did I do wrong? Did I not die the right way?

I swear I'll kill him if I ever get the chance. Oh yeah, I can't kill him. Well then I'll find a way to throw his butt in here someday and make him pay for the rest of eternity! I went from the agonizing pain of being stabbed in the heart and gut one minute, to a numbing, freezing cold the next, and now my flesh is literally burning.