Welcome readers! This is a modern AU told from the PoV of everyone's favorite nobody, Demyx! :D

First of all, this is a collab fic with my good friend... Nichi Nara (fanfiction .net/u/1187943/Nichi_Nara)! She's been doing a good job of keeping me on track and making me write more.

I'm not going to spoil you all with a pairings list or anything like that cause to me, pairings in the fanfiction world are plot points. Enjoy~ Eventual Xig/Dem

Rated T for Language and some suggestive bits. If you don't like reading guy/guy, please click the lovely little back button.

~Dnite07

I sat on the bed that dominated my small dorm while strumming my guitar. Sitting in front of me, my boyfriend of three years studied diligently. Without stopping my playing, I leaned back and focused on the ceiling.

Life was good. Rarely did I ever worry about anything and I knew exactly where I wanted to end up in the future. I was both the lead singer and guitar player in my band that included my two best friends as well as my boyfriend. Despite the fact our group was currently limited to the rare club show; something in the back of my mind never doubted we'd be famous one day.

Yes, life was very good.

"Can you play any softer? I'm trying to concentrate." Zexion, sadly, had a habit of stressing far too much over his exams.

After gently laying my guitar down, I rose from the bed, "Zexion, please…" I moved behind my boyfriend and rubbed his shoulders hoping to ease some of his obvious tension. "You haven't been outside for the past week. Let's just go out for dinner or something fun. We wouldn't even be gone that long."

"Demyx, you know I can't do that. Exams are next week and I'm already behind on my studying." Much to my dismay he pushed me off him and returned to hunching over his book.

"Come on, you've spent every waking hour either going to class or sitting at this desk with your face glued to that book." I returned to his side and playfully tugged at his arm. "A little fun won't kill you."

"Stop it. Stop distracting me." He shrugged me off once again. "You can go out with Saix and Axel. You don't need to spend every moment with me."

"I'm just looking out for your best interest." I sighed. "And I'm not going out with Axel and Saix. I'm dating you. Although, we haven't gone on a date for over a month…" I trailed off with that last thought. The more I thought about it, the more it depressed me.

"Demyx, I know you don't understand how hard the courses I'm taking are and I'm sorry for neglecting you. However, this is my future. If I don't do well on these exams, I'll lose all hope of ever becoming a surgeon. You know how long that's been my dream. It's much more of a priority then you are at the moment." His back remained turned to me.

Something in his comment made me crack. I knew he could be cold and something deep inside me still understood where he was coming from, but that side of my mind just shut off.

"Your future? Is that seriously all you care about? After three years together, I just assumed I was somewhat important to you. All I want from you is maybe an hour or two, but apparently I can't even have that. You can be so fucking selfish sometimes!"

"Just because I care about my future, unlike you, doesn't make me selfish." For the first time in a week he shut his book and turned to face me. "You have no right to criticize my study habits. You don't even have a major chosen. I've tried to convince you to choose one. I'd say that's looking after someone's best interest even more so than convincing them to stop studying. You need to choose a backup plan instead of insisting to be the next huge fucking rock star." His tone was still calm, and that scared me more than anything.

"Since when did this turn into a discussion about me? The problem here is you doing nothing but constantly overworking yourself!"

"That isn't a problem. It simply means I want to do well at something obtainable. When anyone decides to help you make smarter life decisions, you ignore them. Demyx, you have to grow up and stop being a stupid little 80's punk rock wannabe."

"What the hell? Why are you saying these things?"

"Until you get that through your head," pausing, he turned to face me. "I don't think it's a good idea to continue acting like a perfect happy little couple." He stood up and began packing up his books.

My throat was choking up as I fought to hold back tears. "Wh—what? What are you doing? We… we are a happy little couple…We love each other!" He began walking towards the dorm door.

"No Dem, I don't think we do. We'll be happier if we go our separate ways." He pulled his phone out of his pocket and quickly dialed a number. "Hey, Lex… Could you come pick me up? … No, everything's fine… yeah, see you when you get here."

The tears I held back began pouring out of my eyes. "Zexion! Where are you going!" He opened the door and casually walked out. "Come back! Please! Don't leave me!" The door swung shut and my cries remained unanswered. "…please…"

I wanted to chase after him, run, scream, and beg for him to stay. I'd tell him how wrong I was and everything was just a giant misunderstanding. Everything would be alright and back to normal, right?

I would never find out. As Zexion walked out, all I could do was stand there in shock, unable to look away from the door.

Eventually, my legs gave up on me. I staggered to the bed and grabbed a pillow. Shoving my face into it, I screamed muffled curses as it soaked up every salty drop my eyes poured out.

There I remained for an interminable amount of time. Everything was a blur. I was in a daze and drifted off into a deep sleep.

Knock knock knock

The loud banging woke me from my slumber.

"Hey Demyx! Wake up, you're gunna be late to class!" Axel's voice came from the other side of the door. He still wouldn't stop his banging.

Still hazy from the night before, I glanced at the alarm clock beside my lonely bed.

"I know you're in there! If you don't come out in five minutes I'm busting down this door." I really wasn't in the mood to go to class today.

"Axel," I muttered just loud enough for him to hear me. "Just go onto class without me. I don't feel so good." I hoped that would be enough to push him away.

No such luck. "Aww, come on man! Don't make me go into Number Theory alone. You know Mrs. Jane is out to get me."

"Then just skip out, it's not like she cares if you're there or not."

"But then what would I do? Saix has to go to his sacred astronomy class, Larxene's been PMSing lately, sooo that just leaves you. And besides, why would you want to miss Number Theory? Your sexy Zexy is in that class. You must be on your death bed if you'd willingly skip out on an opportunity to see him. By the way, only two more minutes until I'm busting down your door."

A long silence passed. I couldn't risk seeing Zexion. I wouldn't be able to control myself and who knows what I'd do.

"Axel, please just let me stay in…"

"10… 9… 8…"

"It hasn't been two minutes yet."

"Yeah I know, but I'm impatient. 7… 6… 5…" I took this as my cue to finally open the door as I didn't want to have to pay for it to be reattached.

"Happy now?" I growled.

"Whoa, man. You look like a train wreck. What the hell happened last night? Did you and Zexy have one of those crazy drinking parties? I bet you were up all last night. You should have totally invited me. Wait, no. Bad idea. Knowing you two, you were at it like rabbits and I don't think my poor little virgin eyes could take it…"

He continued his jumbled rant. With each assumption he made, my heart felt like it was being shot over and over again. I couldn't take anymore.

"Zexion broke up with me."

Axel's hyper ranting broke and his face shifted into disbelief. Nothing was said between us for several moments. I stood and looked at the ground as the information soaked in for both Axel and myself.

"I… I was just was trying to get him to relax a little, he can be so uptight sometimes, and the next thing I know, we were fighting and he just walked out on me..." The information just raced out of my mouth faster than I thought was possible. Once I was done, my eyes watered and my throat clenched up just as they had last night.

I felt an arm wrap around my shoulders. "Dem, I'm really sorry." I leaned into Axel's embrace and he continued to console me as I cried on his shoulder.

Axel has been there for me since middle school. My family had just moved into a new town right before my 8th grade year. I've always been a little odd compared to everyone and before that year I never really cared. I was prime material to be singled out and picked on by the bullies of the student body. One kid in particular, Seifer, wouldn't leave me alone. Every day after school, he'd torture me by shoving me into the lockers and call me a fag. After a few months of this treatment, I was pretty bad off mentally. Fortunately, one day Axel and Saix happened to wander down the nearly deserted hallway I was always cornered in. Without any warning, Axel beat the living shit outta Seifer and we were friends ever since. Of course Axel ended up with a suspension and was nearly expelled, so I had Saix looking out for me while he was gone.

"No way in hell we're going to Number Theory now." He let go of me and gave me one of his premium Axel smirks.

"Yeah…" I wiped the remaining tears out of my eyes.

"Instead, we're going to wait for Saix to get of his stupid space class and then we are going on the most epic clubbing adventure of your life. Until then, let's go to the Chinese buffet. Nothing to cure a little heart break like shoving your mouth with all the food you can eat."

Due to the light snow that had started to fall that morning, traffic was hectic in our small college town. It took us longer than expected to reach The Land of Dragons all-you-can-eat buffet.

A short Asian woman greeted us and helped us to a booth. Axel took a seat and hinted for me to go ahead and get food. Meanwhile, he pulled out his phone and dialed in a number.

I walked over to the buffet area and grabbed a warm plate. My normally large appetite had diminished so I simply put a small amount of chow mein on the plate. Deciding I had enough, I headed back to the booth.

Axel had already gotten up to get his meal. Our drinks were placed on the table while I had been up. Instead of digging into my food, I quietly sat at the table waiting for my friend.

"Saix says he'll meet us here in an hour." Axel laid his plate on the table and sat down.

"Seems like we have quite a bit of time to burn, don't we." I glared at my plate of noodles.

"I'll think of something for us to do; I always do." He returned to his plate of spicy chicken.

I nodded and proceeded to start eating. Everything was still in a daze since the previous night. I half expected to hear the random beeping of my alarm clock and wake up in the middle of the night. How I wish that was true.

A sudden wave of nostalgia consumed me. I met Zexion in our junior year of high school. He should have been a sophomore, but he skipped a grade in elementary school. If it wasn't for him sitting next to me in physics, I would have failed that class miserably. After a month of knowing him, I developed a serious crush. It took me a while to realize this because I never had a relationship with anyone before. When senior year was halfway over, I finally got the courage to ask him out. One of happiest days of my life was when he said yes.

I have never slept with anyone else, kissed anyone else, or even told anyone else I loved them.

"Demyx," A hand on my shoulder harshly shook me. "Demyx, you ok?"

Apparently, I had entered a delirious state and was currently sobbing like a madman with my head buried into my arms. Axel's voice yanked me back into consciousness. I nodded. Everyone in the restaurant, including the staff, was staring at me. I grabbed my drink and took a sip. My hands were shaking violently and Axel grabbed the drink so it wouldn't spill over.

"I should've known this was going to be a bad idea. Come on, let's get some fresh air." He put money on the table and calmly led me out.

We sat outside the restaurant on the edge of the sidewalk. Axel pulled out a pack of cigarettes from his jacket pocket.

"Want one?" He held out a tiny white rolled stick in front of me.

"You know I don't smoke." With an empty gaze, I stared out into the parking lot. Never before have I felt this utterly hopeless.

"Yeah that's right, bad for the throat. Can't endanger that voice of yours, can we?" His tone was slightly mocking. From his other pocket, he pulled out a Zippo lighter decorated with a flaming wheel. He took the cigarette he offered me and lit it for himself.

"That and it's a filthy horrible habit, but I guess it's just fitting for some of us." My typical humor started coming back to me.

"Psh, jerk." He lightly shoved my shoulder and returned to mindlessly watch traffic.

"Axel," A deep sigh escaped my lips, "why do you think he left me?"

He seemed a bit shocked by my sudden question. "Dem, do you want me to be honest with you?" He inhaled from the small cancer stick.

I shivered a bit in the cold. "Of course."

Smoke flew from his mouth as he exhaled. "Well, I don't think he was right for you in the first place." I was shocked and opened my mouth to protest, but Axel held a finger up to stop me. "Zexion just seems too heartless for you."

"You don't know him!" I snapped back.

Axel simply rolled his eyes at me. "Whatever, just giving you my honest opinion."

"Yeah, sorry. I'm not in the best mood at the moment."

"No problem, I understand. We've all been there before."

I pulled my legs up to my chest. "But, that doesn't give me an excuse to be an ass."

"True, we can't have you stealing my job." Using me as leverage, he stood up and walked around for a short time. Meanwhile, a silver car with a yellow moon sticker stuck to the windshield drove into the parking lot. "Hey look. Saix is here." The silver vehicle pulled up right next to us and came to a complete stop.

Axel lifted me up and opened the car door for me. While I settled in the back, he sank into the passenger's seat.

"Are you going to be ok Demyx?" Saix turned to face me as he restarted the vehicle.

"Yeah, don't worry about me." I managed a forced grin, but Saix looked concerned.

"I can tell when you're lying." He turned back around and put the car in drive. "So Axel, where are we headed to?"

"Demyx, you like Atlantica don't you?" Axel knew me too well. The underwater themed club was by far one of my favorite places in town. My face was beaming.

"Hell yes! Can we go, Saix, please can we go?" I was literally jumping up and down in the back seat of the car.

"See Saix, it's not hard to make him happy again." The two in the front seat laughed.

"I live to serve." I saw Saix with a bright smile from the car mirror. "To Atlantica we go."

We parked down the street from the club. Unfortunately, Axel and Saix held me back from running as fast as I could to the entrance of the night club.

"Demyx, you're the one with the entry card, so if you leave us, how will we get in?" Axel yanked my hood back. "Pouting won't get you in any faster."

Eventually we reached Sebastian, the club's bouncer, at the door. I flashed him my card and he let us through.

My eyes lit up as I took in the heavy atmosphere of strobe lights and fast beat music. Neon lit fish tanks decorated every wall and bubbles flowed from vents in the ceiling.

As usual, the place was absolutely packed. In front of a large stage, a dense crowd of people moshed on a glowing blue dance floor. Axel and Saix had separated from me but I didn't bother looking for them. Instead, I pushed through the throngs until I reached the mosh pit. From there, I simply moved with the crowd.

As I danced, I took note of the amazing vocalist onstage. Nearly every time I came to this club, the same scarlet haired girl led the performance. Her voice always left me in awe when I heard it. Sometimes she would help me with my vocals if I could catch her after her shows.

An elbow jabbed my gut.

I managed to keep from barfing out my lunch, but I still needed to sit down. After squirming my way off the dance floor, I scouted out the bar and staggered over to it.

"Hey Demyx," The blond bartender greeted me.

My stomach was quickly recovering. "Heya Flounder."

"So, when are we ever gunna get your band to perform here again?" Only a month ago, my band had our first show ever at this very place. It took a lot of work to score that gig, but all the effort had paid off. That was definitely in the top five of my favorite moments ever.

"Why? Did you really like us that much?"

"You guys are amazing! Anyways, Ariel," he gestured towards the stage at the young girl with flowing red hair. "She deserves a break from all the work Ursula makes her does. She's such a beautiful singer, but her voice gets strained after several consecutive weeks. When bands come and play, that's one weekend she gets the night off."

"We'd absolutely love play here again, but I don't think the manager liked us very much." The old squid of a woman made it very clear after our one and only show that she never wanted us there again. The crowd however, had disagreed with her. Sadly, it wasn't up to them where we could play.

"Don't worry. Ursula's just like that to everyone. By the way, need anything to drink?"

"You know I'm not twenty-one yet. I'll just take a glass of water."

"I'm afraid Demyx here might need something a little stronger tonight." Saix came over to the counter and sat in a stool beside me. "Get him anything with alcohol." He pulled out his id from his wallet showing his age.

"What's the occasion?"

"We're down a band member." Saix spoke nonchalantly. However, for the third time that day, my usually happy expression broke. Only then did Saix realize his error.

This was the moment I realized Zexion hadn't just broken my heart. By leaving me, he left my band. Without him, we had no keyboard player. In one simple move, he managed to crush the two things I cared about the most in my life. I was devastated.

"… that bastard…" I muttered and stood up from my stool.

"Demyx, I didn't mean it like that." Saix attempted to console me but I brushed him off. Flounder backed away from us and began serving his other customers.

"How could he do this to me?" Breathing became hard in the cramped building. "He knew this band was the only thing I cared about as much as him!"

Nearly everyone at the bar was staring at me. "Demyx, calm down. I'm sure he didn't mean to hurt you like this."

"Why do you care Saix? Don't try to defend him because I know you and Axel always hated him. I bet you saw this coming from a mile away, didn't you? Why the hell didn't you speak up before now?" In a frantic rage, I screamed at Saix, unable to stop myself. A wave of claustrophobia overcame me and I had to get out of that place.

I ran.

Behind me, I could make out the sounds of my two friends arguing. I didn't care. All that mattered to me at the moment was escaping.

A red flash wormed its way in front of me. "Get a hold of yourself Dem." Two hands on my shoulders tried to hold me down. "Just go sit and lay your head down. That'll make you feel better."

I violently shoved Axel out of my way and neared the exit. Upon leaving the building, I noticed the light snow had changed to a drizzle of rain.

I stopped and stared into the sky. The fresh scent of rain relaxed my rabid state and I took a deep breath. As I slowly exhaled, my foggy mind cleared.

Axel and Saix made their way out of the club and observed every move I made.

"Get the car, Saix." Axel cautiously approached me. "Demyx…"

"I'll be fine Axel" I avoided looking into his eyes. "Just give me some time to think things through."

"Hope you don't take too long. We miss the old Demyx. Besides, exams are next week and we don't want you to fail because Zexion didn't have the decency to wait until break."

"Damn" I laughed pathetically. "I forgot all about those."

Saix's silver car drove up next to us and we sat inside.

The drive back to the dorms was uneventful. An uneasy silence followed us back from the club and no one dared to say a word. As Axel and Saix concentrated on the road, I lost myself on my thoughts of Zexion.

After we arrived, my two friends led me to the room I formerly shared. Once again, Axel asked if I would be ok. My answer remained the same. With that, they left me all alone.

As I had done the previous night, I staggered to my bed and cried myself to sleep.

Well I hope you all liked the chapter! oh and by the way, Dnite07 and I now own your souls. Just kidding. Anywho, we love reviews! Tell us what you though of the chapter and it might make us more eager to update. Also if you have any ideas PM either one of us.
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