my heart broke writing this. it is in memory of a pet of mine. god bless turty. we miss you buddy.

i do not own CKND. I also do not own the song.

enjoy.

chapter one: time of dying.

'It will be fine numbuh three. I can handle myself alone.'

'Are you sure, numbuh 4?'

'Yea. I'll be fine dear.'

'Alright. I'll meet you back here.'

I was so wrong. Please forgive me kuki. I'm still looking. I won't give up! I keep yelling but you wont answer. Please. I can't lose you!

The building started to shake. Numbuh three was trapped in a small room. She was trying to get out. Before she could get to the handle there was a loud BOOM. Then, everything went black.

on the ground i lay.

She tried to push the rubble off of her. She was too weak. All she could do was lay there.

motionless in pain.

She started to think about the team. To be more specific, numbuh 4. Her good times with him. She smiled a bit.

i can see my life flashing before my eyes.

Kuki let tears run down her face. She knew this was it. The person she loved would never know how she felt.

did i fall asleep?

Her eyes were fluttering at this point. Each breath getting shallower. She longed for him to find her.

is this all a dream?

Her poor little body couldn't take it. Her eyes fluttered shut. Her breathing eventually stopped.

wake me up! i'm living a nightmare.

everything was gone.

"NUMBUH 3!", wallabee called out.

She wouldn't answer. After hours of searching, he brokedown. He feared his assumption may be true. She might be gone. He grabbed his gear and headed for the treehouse. Maybe they could help him.

"numbuh 3 is missing? after an explosion?", numbuh 1 said trying to remain calm.

At this point, everyone assumed the girl was dead. No one dared to say what was on their mind. numbuh five had left crying. numbuh 2 was in too much shock to say anything. numbuh 1 tried his hardest not to say anything he knew as fact at this point. numbuh 4 was broken.

"i'll have headquarters send out a search party", nigel sighed as he left the room.

Numbuh 4 spent the night in her room. He felt close to her there. He looked at her plushies. Hugged them a few times.

"oh kuki...i'm so sorry i never told you i loved you.", he cried.

a week went by, kuki's body had been found in the rubble. This broke sector V. Fights, Lies, Blame, and finally the breakup of the group. Abigail had moved away and was reassigned. Hoagie had ended up leaving the kids next door all together. nigel started a new sector V. wallabee never left his room.

wallabee eventually had enough. He ended up here. Laying on the bathroom floor a razor in hand. blood all over his brand new orange sweater. he was 12 now. too old to be in the kids next door. nigel and abigail had retired as well and ended up together. wallabee was never happy anymore. all of sector v had died a little, but he took the most damage. he would come home and look at the stuffed animals in a box labeled 'kuki'. then, he would cry for a little while. using the bears as comfort. after, if he didn't feel better , which he usually didn't, he would cut. losing blood never compared to losing kuki. this became ritual over the years.

he was completely broken.

'i will not die. i'm waiting for you'

a part of him always wished kuki was alive. though, he knew otherwise.

'i feel alive when you're beside me.'

he felt so dead. so, why not end his pain?

'i will not die. i'm waiting for you'

he end up leaving the idea of suicide. he felt like kuki would have hated that idea.

'in my time of dying.'

he went to bed wanting to wake up from this awful nightmare he called life. sadly, he knew this all real.