Izzie was tired after a long day at Seattle Grace but she was not going to let that get the better of her. She was going out tonight with the newly single Christina and the almost single Meredith and they were going to hit the town. It had been a difficult few months for the three young surgeons and as they entered their first year as residents they all felt that their personal lives were going on a downward spiral, fast.

Meredith and Derek had experienced a traumatic couple of years with their relationship and even though Derek had professed that Meredith was the love of his life actions were speaking louder then words. He had made it clear that he found her shutting off to him too difficult and he could not live like that and Meredith felt he was not taking into account what had happened to her since she joined Seattle Grace. In fact the main support she felt had always been from Izzie and Christina who had never asked anything of her but had always been there for her in times of need.

Then there was Christina. She had not had the losses the other two had had of late but she had many issues of her own all of which had accumulated in her being stood up at the alter. Needless to say Christina had put on a brave face for anyone that asked her how she was in that annoying way people do when you have been through something horrific and don't want to talk about it with complete strangers! But the support she had received from both Meredith and Izzie had been what helped through those dark moments.

Izzie had also experienced some of the toughest times she had ever known and that was coming from a girl whose childhood rivalled any Jackson family

member. She had met the love of her life and he had been taken from her. She fell in love with her best friends, and that had all ended in tears and she had discovered that the biological daughter she often thought of and dreamt of meeting was severely sick. But once again it had been Meredith and Christina who had helped her. She had kept everything to herself initially and not told anyone about George or the situation with her daughter until one night at Joe's about a week after the wedding that never happened.

Two weeks ago

"I have no idea where he is or what he's doing. All I know is he left me and the bastard did not even have the balls to call and tell me what the hell is going on in that stupid head of his!" Christina ranted after she downed another shot of tequila. In times like these it was the only substance that even hit the edges.

"You have to get on with life Christina. I know how you feel, loosing the person you love…"

"What do you know Barbie? The guy you loved died, he never chose to leave you." Christina snapped at Izzie.

"I wasn't talking about Denny." Izzie said quietly, knowing that now was the time to come clean to Meredith and Christina about what had been happening over the last few months. Both girls looked at the pretty blonde.

"What do you mean you were not talking about Denny? Who else is there?" Meredith asked softly. She knew that there was stuff going on with Izzie but she had decided not to push her and wait for Izzie to talk about it in her own time.

"So much has happened in the last few months that I haven't told you guys about and I'm really sorry but I just wouldn't have known what to say." Izzie started and both Christina and Meredith listened intently.

"It all happened a couple of months ago. George and I got really drunk after he had this fight with Callie. She had told him that the reason I hated her was because I wanted George. At the time I laughed at the idea but that did not stop George and I having sex that night."

"WHAT!?!" Exclaimed both Meredith and Christina and in the process Meredith managed to drop her drink. She looked down at the floor and then looked back up at Izzie.

"Screw that, carry on!" She said and Izzie smiled.

"Well George and I had sex although he could not remember it the next day. But when it all came back to him he told me it was a mistake and we could never tell anybody about it. But after that my feelings changed and I started to look at George differently. We both tried to stay away from each other but then…then…" Izzie trailed off when she knew that actually her biggest secret was about to be revealed and she was not sure she was ready.

"What is it Izzie?" Meredith said softly having seen here friends change in demeanour. Izzie looked into Meredith's eyes and then looked at Christina and knew it was time for them to know the whole truth.

"There is a lot you guys don't know about me and I am sure there is a lot I don't know about you. That day, when George and I were in the middle of this weird situation, my 11 year old daughter came to the hospital." Izzie said slowly and both girls looked at her, shocked. They did not speak knowing this was not something you interrupt.

"I had Hannah when I was 16 and I knew when I saw that baby that I wanted more for her. I was on my own, the father wanted nothing to do with her and my mother was convinced she would be fine being raised in the trailer. But I wanted her to have every chance and everything that I never had. I met this couple and they really wanted a baby and I knew they were going to love her and so I handed her over. The night I had her, I held her for hours because I knew this was going to be my only chance and the day I left her my heart broke and I was never quite the same after that. But I got on with life...as you do." She smiled and the girls looked on at her, sad that Izzie had been through that at such a young age.

"As time went by I occaisionally got a letter or a picture of Hannah but after a while that stopped, up until a few weeks ago. Hannah's parents found me because she has Lukemia and they needed me to do a bone marrow biopsy which of coarse I did. George was there for me the whole time, even though I did not ask him to be. And he was the one who told me to go and see my daughter, even though she was not ready to meet me. I saw her through the glass and she was just the most beautiful thing I had ever seen." Izzie said and she could feel the tears build up in the corner of her eyes.

"I told George I loved him on the day of the wedding and then I was informed by Callie that they had agreed to try for a baby – so that told me." She said, trying not to get too emotional in a public place. The other two looked at her shocked.

"Why didn't you tell us any of this?" Meredith asked.

"You both had your own shit going on and I just thought that it really was not the time to lay all my crap on you." She said.

"Well that's stupid Barbie. I may be a mean bitch but you and whiney next to me are my best friends and boy did I need you over the past few weeks. So next time something happens, don't be a moron and come to us for help." Christina said in a way only she could but it made Izzie smile.

"Thanks guys." She said.

"Any time Barbie!" Chrstina replied and they all smiled and had a toast.

It was on that night that the three girls decided they needed to do something different. So they had decided that they were going to go out dancing and forget about hospitals, ex loves and weddings that were meant to take place. So Izzie knew that she would need all her energy for the night ahead.

She had got the perfect outfit for the night – a little black dress that showed off all the features that were often surpressed under her scrubs and she also had a killer pair of heals. She was going to have fun tonight, let loose and forget what had turned out to be one of the worst years of her life but also, strangely one of her best years.

Part 2

The three girls arrived at the club and as soon as the bouncer saw them (especially Izzie) he let them straight through the doors, no queing needed! The instantly found a table and ordered a load of drinks and shots for good measure.