Chapter 1- Let it all go

It was hitting midnight and Caroline was tending to a pensive and drunk Stefan, he didn't know who else to call after he found out what happened between Elena and Damon, Caroline was the only person that could understand him and with what he was going through, after all Tyler had cheated on her with Rebekah or as Caroline calls her " The Original Bitch", I guess it does kinda' have a ring to it, but no one knew; not even Stefan.

Caroline pulled up into Tyler's driveway, she wanted to make sure he was ready for tonight, it was the full moon and she never liked the idea of Tyler being alone on a night like this, no matter how much he persisted she stay away, she couldn't because she loved him. She loved him more than anyone she's ever loved. She walked up to the front porch; the door was open 'That's odd' Caroline thought to herself, The Lockwood's have a tight security enforcement making her wonder if there was anything wrong. She walked into the entrance, she looked around. Her eyes caught clothes that trailed up the stairs

she froze. Her heart ceased to beat. She couldn't move but she needed to see what the clothes lead to. Each step she took, she took them gracefully head high to whatever she would find at the top of the stairs. She stumbled upon a pair of red lace knickers, she scoffed at them. As she reached the top of the stairs she was greeted by the panting of Rebekah and Tyler. They were rolling around on the floor and up the walls

"You cannot tell Caroline about this" Tyler found a way to break away from the endless kissing

"Why not? I'd love to see the look on the poor girls face" Rebekah said with such sarcastic pity, they both laughed.

Caroline found it hard to make out a sentence "Tyler...?"

"Shit." he paused for a second

"Care if you don't mind i'm kind of in a compromising position" He was on the verge of well you know..

"Oh my God. Oh my God. OH. MY. GOD. you.. you ugh. You disgust me! You were laughing at me this whole time? You are just a sick, sick bastard, how the fuck could I think you even loved me, I'm never enough am I? Well obviously not otherwise you wouldn't be ROLLING AROUND IN BED WITH THE FUCKING ENEMY! You know what Screw you and have fun screwing her." Her voice began to break, she tried to be strong as much as she could but she couldn't hold it in she began to cry as she ran down the stairs.

"Caroline" Tyler called out her name as she reached the bottom of the stairs

"You have my phone"

Caroline pulled out his phone from her purse, threw it on the floor, Caroline, Tyler and Rebekah all watched as his phone smash into pieces

"Fuck you Tyler, and Rebekah... I'll see you in hell."

She slammed the door behind her, ran into her car and cried, she thought to herself 'Why am i never enough? Why can't I have the happy ending everyone else has? Do i have an invisible sign saying SCREWED UP MESS DO NOT APPROACH, What's wrong with me?...'

No one had said anything; it was complete silence, the barmaid was cleaning the glasses that had been smashed from a bar fight that occurred earlier that night. She decided to break the silence that was pacing around them.

"Stefan, please talk to me" Stefan stared straight into his 9th glass of whiskey and ignored her. Caroline never took her eyes off of him, she somehow felt guilty of his heartbreak, she though to herself, if she hadn't said anything about Damon and Elena sleeping together then maybe, just maybe Stefan wouldn't be angry with her.

"Stefan, i'm sorr-" She was cut off by Stefan

"No Caroline, don't apologize It's not your fault that my brother has to be in love with the same girl i'm in love with, it's not your fault that the girl I thought was in love with me, the girl that said she loved ME, is in love with someone else." Caroline stared at the mess that was Stefan, he had let a tear escape from his left eye, she trailed the tear from the second it fell from his eyes to the second it hit the table, her vampire hearing skills meant that when it hit the table it was louder and hurt her more. With that tears began to fill Caroline's eyes, she didn't like seeing Stefan upset, he was important to her, he was her best friend; his sober sponsor. She leaned over the table and took the drink from his hand and replaced it with her hand.

"Look Stefan, this is my fault I shouldn't have told you, I shouldn't have said anything, and it's all my fault, I am so sorry. I am so so sorry. Seeing you like this... it hurts me so much. I know what it's lik-" She was cut off by Stefan again, but this time he wasn't so sincere.

"No you don't CAROLINE" Stefan's voice had risen, raising the lady behind the bars attention but she didn't do anything, Stefan had compelled her to leave the bar open after she had finished her shift. Stefan calmed down, "you don't know what it's like to feel this much pain, to hurt this much, so don't come with that bullcrap fake friend shit Caroline. I've spent years and years living like this trying to not feel, and if i don't feel... If i don't feel Caroline, then I become the thing i'm most afraid of...You have Tyler and your friends, but me... I have no one. Everyone I love is either dead or having sex." She knew he was talking about Lexi and the not so celibate Damon and Elena.

"Actually Stefan.. I do. Tyler cheated on me with the Original whore! I walked in on them going at it this morning. It feels like someone's staked you in the heart a million times, It plays you hard emotionally, it makes you question your very existence, it drains every little inch of hope you have left. No one can make you feel better and deep inside you know that you will never be okay, and that every time you see that one person you feel like your heart is being ripped out over and over again. And every time you look in the mirror all you see will be disappointment because you will be reminded of what that person did to you and how they've changed your life forever. So yeah, I do know what it feels like, maybe mine and Tyler's love wasn't as epic as yours and Elenas and as much as I hate him.. he was- is my first love

Stefan wanted to console her, he felt guilty for shouting at her but he couldn't bring himself to apologize so he just placed his hand upon her knee.

Caroline moved closer to Stefan "Look Stefan, you have me. I won't leave you, i'll be right beside you whenever you're feeling weak, I promise that I won't fall in love with your girl or stake you in the back, you know why?" Stefan stared into her eyes, he saw something in Caroline that he remembered seeing in Lexi "because I am your best friend and I care about you so damn much it hurts. So please, please don't give up on me and I swear to God I won't give upon you Stefan."

That was the thing with Caroline, she would always think about the heart of others before repairing her own, she's that girl that cares too much.

"Caroline, I... I can't, I just can't" tears fell from Stefan's eyes

"NO. Stefan, YOU can. You just have to let go of Elena and Damon. Damon is a dick for a brother and Elena, she's just a bitc-" She stopped herself before she went any further, Elena was her friend- Is her friend she thought to herself. "They made their choices, now it's time for you to make yours" Stefan placed is head into Caroline's arms, she stroked him; like a lost puppy. It soothed them both, it warmed Caroline's heart to know that he was actually breathing and Stefan, knowing that someone cared, someone truly cared.

"Just let go..." Caroline whispered, as they both closed their eyes and meditated to the sweet sound of nothing.

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