Me: Just read it, I'm not kidding around, I'm dead serious about this next piece.
This is a response, my response to this 'Free' by Robindanewsie and another one, 'Bullies' by SofieBitterfly. Read those first, or don't. They are basically centered arougn the fact that Dick Grayson is bullied in school. In 'Free', Dick commits suicide, in 'Bullies', he almost does, but not quite.
There are no words. Actually, maybe there are. *Please, take note of the fact that I am typing this slowly and sadly.* To some extent, I've felt the same way as Dick did, 'no one wants me', 'no one cares', 'would they even notice it if I left or died?' And I was younger than he was, 9, 10 years old. I didn't really understand suicide, and I remember hoping that after I went to sleep, I wouldn't wake up. And my parents, my family and friends, they were, are even, good people. But I kept getting in trouble with my dad, who has anger issues, and he would say things he didn't mean, but the words hurt. My sister didn't help either, she was annoying and stuff like that. (I just realised at that puts my dad and my sister in a bad light, my sister oh well. But my dad is a good guy and it wasn't like, verbalyl abusive or anything I was just a very sensitive child and the words weren't even very bad, just the whole 'I'm disappointed in you for doing that' type phrases parents say when you've done something wrong. My dad just yelled them at us instead of talking.) Nonetheless, they never really size anything to, encourage thoughts about dying, they just appeared in my 9/10 year - old brain.
I don't think like that anymore but, it was something I struggled with a few years ago. Thankfully, i was just a kid and it wasn't a serious thing, I didn't understand and I didn't actually do anything. My friends, there is at least someone on there loves you, don't ever think otherwise. The price of your life over the fact that you don't think you are loved isn't a... Fair price. Life is precious, and it's like a hurricane, stormy, unexpected, yet predicted, troubling. But there are end results, happiness, love, family. No matter what, life is worth living because after you are pushed down, you always have the choice of getting back up.
Thank you, remember, you are loved, no one can change that. You may not know me, but, if you feel even the tinniest bit suicidal, which doesn't take much honestly, just a simple 'do they really care?' Could set off suicidal thoughts in a person. So, if you feel like that, please, PM me, or put it in a review, I will listen and I will help. Trust me, I will do everything I can to help you, and you should make sure you have some good friends or family members to help you too.
Remember, I am open for you to talk to, even if it was a few years ago, it's still good to talk about it, it still helps.
Firecracker out.