Edward left months ago. The pain is still there after this much time. It doesn't subside like you'd think it would. Whoever said, 'time will heal any wound' never felt this emptiness in their lives. His departure crushed my heart. It still had me sobbing and gasping for air whenever someone so much as mentioned his name. I knew that I would never feel this immeasurable love for anyone except Edward. The way my heart would thump unevenly with one glance or touch from him. The ease and bliss I would feel when I was wrapped in his strong protecting arms. The adoring look I received from him that would make me forget every single worry. He was gone. And so were those many strong reactions I had. Now I would never feel whole. He took so much more than he thought when he left. He took who I really was. The future we might have had. All the love I could possibly have for anyone. He left me empty and broken.

I know many people would hate the person that caused them pain, but that would never be the case. I will always love him. There is no doubt about that.

I slowly wiped the tears falling from my eyes. His words had cut me deep. I wouldn't let anyone see how deep though. "Bella I don't want you to come with me." He spoke the words slowly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was really saying…"You…don't…want me?" I tried out the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order. "No."… Falling to my knees on the damp brown earth, I clutched the small box as sobs shook my body and left my mouth.

This ache was unbearable. I would never feel remorseful for coming to this small rainy town of Forks, for it had given me so much happiness and love. The short time I had with Edward was never going to be enough, but if it were all I could have I would treasure it always.

I gasped for air as more tears streamed across my face and opened the wooden box in my shaking hands filled with everything Edward. The CD he had made for me. The many pictures I had taken days before he left…

Edward… I didn't hold back now I let out all the tears and grief I had felt for so long. I could hear my loud strangled cries echo throughout the vast empty woods.

I stood up unsteadily, grasping the box in my arms. I took a step forward toward the sound of waves. The cool frigid air nipped at my nose and cheeks leaving my hair flowing wildly behind me. I let out a breath and walked toward the edge. Below me I could see the waves crashing down upon the jagged sides of the cliff.

More salty tears dropped down onto my hands. One more step and all this pain would be gone. I picked up the lid of the box and dropped it on the ground. "Edward," I sighed. My eyes watering again. I took a deep breath and threw everything into the cool Washington air. The pictures fluttered in the air around me. His face surrounding me. A small smile lingered on my lips as I took the last step over the edge. "I love you," I whispered before plunging into the welcoming darkness.