Awful
By A.J Turner
Chapter One: Deal With The Devil
This was awful. Not the waking-up-and-realising-your-mum-had-made-oatmeal even-though-your-deadly-allergic-to-oatmeal kind of awful this was probably the worst thing to happen to me. I was in love. And not your regular teen kind of love either I think this was for real.
I had woken up this morning to this horrible realisation after having another dream about her.
She chopped off my hands.
Yes I fell in love with the girl that chopped off my hands in a dream. I needed to talk to someone. Someone who knows how I feel. Unfortunately my supporting cast in the puppet show from hell that is my life are less then satisfactory.
I could talk to my friend but he's a womanising pig. He's never been in love. He's three months younger then me; the only thing he loves is sex. Like normal teenagers.
But I can't be normal, NO; I had to fall in love!
My parents were far to perfect to ask about love. They were meant to be together. You spend five minutes with them and you know that.
They'd tell me that she must love me, how can she not I'm perfect. Or some typical loving parent response.
Maybe my other friend, no he's to shy with these things and the other one wasn't to good either.
I sighed and sat up in my bed.
"James breakfast is ready!" mum called. I got up and quickly changed then hurried down the stairs and into the kitchen.
"Where's Sirius?" mum asked.
"Upstairs" I guessed sitting down next to dad.
Sirius Black, the aforementioned friend with a fondness for sex, had been living with us for about a year. Ever since he ran away after causing a large scene at his home. His parents were very pristine and everything in their world had to be perfect and it was their way or the highway. Sirius chose the highway, as it was simpler then trying to convince everyone around him to listen. They wouldn't have anyway.
Sirius came into the kitchen.
"Don't panic I'm here" he said
"Oh thank the lord" dad said sarcastically. Sirius sat down beside me and looked at me. It wasn't the normal kind of glance either he scooted his chair right over and had his hands on my shoulder with his head resting on them.
"Are you quite comfortable?" I asked
"Yes. And you have awful morning breath" he said
"Thank you. Anything else you wish to point out before I kill you?" I asked.
"Your upset" he said
"Was it my eyes shinning with their stupid unshed tears?" I asked dramatically.
"No. Legilimency of course" Sirius said "All Black family members are equipped with it, along with a strong disposition and the need to be always right"
"Also the need to be really annoying" I said.
"Why are you upset Prongsie? Did you have another dream about Lily?" he asked.
Dad spat his coffee out all over the paper and mum dropped the bowl she was cleaning.
I took a deep breath and didn't look at any one.
"What did she do this time? Eat your eyes? Shoot your neck? Pull out your teeth and make a necklace?" Sirius asked seriously. He still hadn't moved off my shoulder, I sighed.
"She cut off my hands," I said
"Oh that's new. Why?"
"Because I said hello"
"I told you that woman was off" Sirius muttered
"Who is this Lily?" dad asked
"Do you want me to have a talk with her mother?" mum offered.
"No need Marianne" Sirius said, "Lillian Victoria Evans is the charming mudblood" I glared at him. "Sorry, it's the upbringing. Charming muggle-born" he corrected "that our young Jimmy boy is besotted with"
"I am not besotted. She cut off my hands" I said waving my hands in his face for emphasis.
He leaned back into his own seat, finally leaving my space.
"Is that what I think it is?" Sirius asked.
"What?" I asked looking at him. He trapped me with his evil grey eyes, crap now he's in my thoughts. I feel I could have done more to stop this from happening, like not looking at him for instance…
"Oh. Dear. Lord. No!" Sirius said standing up so quickly his chair fell over.
"What?" mum asked glancing around.
"Your son is a sissy," Sirius said pointing at me. "I cannot believe you. You've got so much to live for yet you fall for that floozy"
"She's not a floozy" I said "And I haven't fallen for anyone," I added to my parents.
"It's all right. Love makes a good marriage" dad said
"And a good marriage makes good grandchildren" mum said beaming at me.
I'm going to kill you
I looked directly at Sirius. Read that you smart arse.
"That's not nice," he said.
"Why haven't we met this girl? If your going to marry her shouldn't we have met her?" mum asked
"Oh you will, after she finds out James married her. You'll see her at James's murder trial. She'll be the one in the orange jump-suit" Sirius said nodding.
"You are dead to me," I said
"What on earth did I do?" Sirius asked sounding surprised, which was quite shocking, as he knew perfectly well what he did.
"You know perfectly well what you did," I said.
He opened his mouth then closed it in defeat.
"What's on the agenda for today boys?" mum asked cleverly changing the topic. Well it wasn't very clever she just asked a question but it did change the topic.
"Agenda?" Sirius asked
"Mum the forties called they want their lingo back" I said. Dad hit me over the back of the head
"Don't smart mouth your mother," he ordered.
"So you two doing anything today?" mum asked smiling brightly.
"Going to laze about I suppose" Sirius said
"Why don't you go out? See that Lily girl you were talking about" mum said. I began to laugh while Sirius shook his head.
"Couldn't do that Marianne," he said
"Well as your not doing anything you can both clean the garage" dad said
"Alan I told you to do that" mum said
"Yeah but I'm going golfing"
"No your not"
"I already said yes"
"Well unsay it"
"I don't see why I should, either way the garage is getting cleaned"
"Not the point. I wanted you to do that. It'll teach James a good lesson"
"What would that be?"
"That not even his father can get out of doing chores. Now skip" mum ordered.
Dad sighed, gave me a dirty look, as if this was somehow my fault, and then left the kitchen.
"Why don't you do some homework today?" mum asked
"Remus is sick" Sirius said mum looked at him.
"We never do homework without Remus," I said
"Yeah, whenever we try to he gets really upset" Sirius said.
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"You know I hate doing homework with you guys" Remus whined. This made Sirius burst out laughing while I just rolled my eyes.
Remus Lupin was one of my other friends; he studied a lot and didn't have much confidence in himself. He was rather shy and always modest… very modest.
"But your so smart, we wouldn't know where to begin without you" Sirius said
"I'm not smart, and your not that dumb. The obvious choice is to begin with your name" Remus said
"Of course. It's so obvious now, thanks Moony" Sirius said Remus rolled his eyes and glared at Sirius.
"When's Pete getting back?" I asked
"August twenty-sixth" Remus replied
"And that's how long from now?" I asked
"Two weeks" Remus said
"Man, that's so long. Why would he go to France anyway? French people are gay" Sirius said
"Peter's father is French" Remus said
"No one can tell him I said that. I love French people," Sirius said
"You're an idiot," Remus said
"And you love it" Sirius said hugging Remus.
"Get off me" Remus ordered.
"Stop it!" Remus cried. Sirius and I laughed at how uncomfortable Remus was. He'd never been big on human contact, as if we touched him we'd get infected or something.
Remus was a werewolf and was never comfortable with the fact we still talked to him. I think he was convinced we'd try to burn him at the stake or something, which we hadn't even hinted on doing so I've no idea where he's getting these thoughts.
Sirius let Remus go and he nervously began to scratch his wrist. Sirius just stared at the wrist Remus was scratching.
"So, Remus, have you heard from Lily?" I asked
"Why would you think that I-" he stopped when he saw the look I was giving him.
"Well…" he trailed off scratching his hands.
"Stop scratching its driving me nuts!" Sirius said Remus flexed his fingers instead. Sirius grabbed his hands to hold them still.
"I don't normally bring you up. She gets mad" Remus said trying to scratch again but Sirius held his hands still glaring at them.
"You brought me up didn't you," I said
"No she did, and she doesn't usually, unless you've had a fight. In that case I always take her side just so she doesn't hate me. I mean if she hated me we'd never know anything about her," Remus said staring at Sirius's hands.
"Anyway she asked how you were. She wasn't upset to find out you were still alive which surprised me. Then she asked if you were seeing anyone. I said no, you aren't are you?" he asked still staring at Sirius's hands.
"No" I said
"Ok" he said "then she changed the subject, so I don't know…"
"So she doesn't think I'm that bad. Ok" I said nodding.
"Your not going to be more excited? You were ecstatic when she actually spoke to you of her own free will last year, what's happened?" Remus asked
"Oh he's in love," Sirius said.
Remus looked at me like I was some deformed Doxy-House Elf mutant child, which I'm not just so you all know.
"With who?" Remus asked shocked
"You" I said
"What? That is – no your not" he said realising I was not in love with him.
"It wouldn't matter if I was, love is a partnership thing. The other person would have to love me to make it work and as neither you nor Lily love me it would not work"
"Well what did she say?" Remus asked
"When?" I asked
"When you told her"
"I haven't, I only found out about this awful dilemma last week I can't tell her zilch until I find out what to do about it"
"You could tell her," Remus said
"What would I say?" I asked
"You could suppress it" Sirius said
"Or you could tell her" Remus said
"Pretend it never happened" Sirius said
"Or tell her"
"Act like you're not a pansy"
"Or you can always tell her"
"Moony I think we've already ruled out the telling her thing"
"She's got to know"
"No she does not," I said
"Your right. You're the only one to tell her. But if you don't tell her by next Tuesday I'm doing it" Remus said
"Thanks Remus I knew I could count on you" I said
"Idiot! I shouldn't tell her! She'll get mad you didn't tell her"
"She'll murder me if I did tell her"
"James" Remus said sternly.
"Oh Potter what are you doing at my house?" Sirius asked impersonating Lily.
"I came to confess my undying love for you," I said
"But I hate you" Sirius said in his high-pitched girl tone.
"Yes and I love you, what do you say?"
"How could you be so stupid Potter? We had this nice argumentative rapport and you ruined it by falling in love with me, is there a stupider man anywhere?" he said dramatically "No Lily I'm afraid there is not" he said returning to his normal tone.
"And that was one of the more realistic situations" I said to Remus who had his head in his hands.
"You guys are both so stupid" he groaned.
"I've got it!" Sirius said sitting up straighter.
"Got what?" I asked
"What to do about your sissy-ness" Sirius said
"We're not pushing him off into Candon Valley" Remus said
"No, admittedly not a bad idea but no. You give it three weeks. If she asks about you again you tell her"
"That's not fair she'll definitely ask. 'Hey Remus, James dead yet?' It's like an ordinary conversation starter for her" I said
"Look is it a deal?" Sirius asked sticking out his hand.
"Shake his hand or I'll never talk to you again," Remus said.
"Why? It's-"
"That girl deserves to know!" Remus said I rolled my eyes.
"Deal" I sighed shaking Sirius's hand.
He laughed making me regret my decision.
"I've just agreed with the devil haven't I?" I asked Remus. Remus looked at Sirius who was cackling wildly.
"Yes" he said looking back to me.
"Damn" I sighed.
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Hello wonderful fan fiction readers.
I'm Aurora-Jane and this is my first fan fiction so I'm eagerly awaiting your reviews to see how I did with my first chapter. Tell me your thoughts, really any, even the random ones.
I do hope you enjoyed this chapter and as soon as I figure out how to send cookies over the Internet the first thirty reviews will get one.
Well until next time then, A.J
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