A/N: So I've decided to write a Allison and Emily story, I hope you like my take on it. there's no -A
Summary: Alli went missing, then was found dead but what if one person still believed she was alive and that turn out to be true; that Allison DiLaurents is still alive. What happens now that shes alive? where has been? what had happened to her?

How could I ever give up on her, it never truly felt like she was gone; in my heart she was still here? I couldn't give up her, I would never give up on her; I need to believe there was still hope. Hope that it wasn't true, that my heart was telling me the truth. She was still here, out there somewhere, scared, alone and thinking no one wants her; but I want her, I need her. I need her so badly, it's crashing me to think she's not here anymore and what they say is the truth. I can't believe it's true because I can still feel her essence.

My name is Emily Fields, I'm 17 years old and I'm in my second to last year of high school. I've had rough time of high school been conflicted about being gay, losing my best friend and the love of the life. In the summer before high school was meant to start, we were going to be freshmen at high school. Myself, Hanna, Spencer, Aria and Allison where all having a party, at Spencer cabin to start off the summer; little did we know it turn out to be the worst day of our lives. Allison DiLaurents, my friend, my best friend and the love of my life went missing. Only to be found a year later buried in the backyard, but I don't believe it; I can't. I know she's alive, I know in my heart she is. Sadly no one believed me but I didn't give up on her, she need someone to believe and that was me.

When Alli went missing, we all drifted away, Aria moved to Iceland, Spencer went all bookworm and Hanna lost weight and is now the 'it' girl; which use to belong to Alli. I lost all of my friends that day, but most of all I lost part of myself. She was gone and I was still stuck here, without her and alone. We all tried to stay close but it just tore us apart, they all decided they need to move on with their lives but I couldn't. You don't give up on the ones you love, no matter what, you do give up. The closes I ever got to moving on was continuing with my school, Alli wouldn't want me to fail but I quit the swim team; I couldn't focus on it and I just didn't care about swimming anymore. I hadn't made anyone new friends how could I without Alli being there to tell me if I could trust them or not. I had grown up a bit since Alli left, I had become stronger my theory was if I could deal with the love of my life being around I could beat anything.

Losing the girls was tough but it was even tougher when I had no one there for me, when I need someone the most. I had to come out, I knew I was gay, even Alli knew before me. I had come out to my parents which was huge, they freaked out and it was really awkward for a while but they soon came to the fact that they just want me to be happy; they also realised me being gay is just a part of me and it makes me happy. I'm not really sure who at school knew, I didn't care, I didn't keep my affection for girls a secret. The hardest thing to deal was that I had no support if thing went badly, I didn't have Aria here to run to if I was upset. I didn't have Hanna to help me with clothes not that I cared but it would still be nice to have a friend. And then I also didn't have Spencer who could help me out when I was falling all my classes, which I am. Yes Alli would want me to do well with school, but I'm not smart and she always on my mind so I can't focus on my homework or in classes; which normally ends with me in detention after school, a lot. I have no idea how I have managed to get through, let alone survive without them around all the time; I think just believing Alli is alive is enough.

I saw Alli standing there tied to the wall looking terrified, screaming out for us, for me. I run so fast over to her but no matter how fast I ran, the picture kept moving backwards. I stopped running to catch my breath; I look up at Alli to see coming out of the shadows behind her was someone dressed in dark clothing with mask over his face. He smirks at me wickedly before playing out a knife from his back pocket. One last look at me before he turned to Alli and start cutting off her clothing, I saw he nipped her with the knife coursing her to scream out in pain and all he did was burst out laughing. I couldn't watch anymore I start running toward her again, wanting to save her, I need to save her and get her far away from here.

I then hear "Emily, Emily!" I feel myself being shaken; I sit up fast scaring my Mum since she didn't know I was going to do that. I'm covered all over in sweat, that felt so really and she looked so alive.

Mum asked "Emily are you okay?"

I look at her and say "Yeah bad nightmare, sorry if I woke you."

Mum smiled sadly and said "It's okay sweetie, I had to be up anyway." I nodded my head in reply before looking at the time seeing it was 6:30am.

I say "I'm going to go shower, get ready for school and then leave."

Mum replied with "Okay, do you need anything or want me to make you anything?"

I replied with "No thanks, I'll be fine."

Mum said "Okay, sorry I have to get going call me anytime if you need to talk."

I replied with "Will do," Mum kissed me on the cheek before walking out of my room. Today marked the second year anniversary of Alli's disappearance and the first for her death. An anniversary like were supposed to celebrate it, I don't know about the others but I don't feel like celebrating; I feel like crying. I don't believe she died; I just believe she's missing and is scared. I stood up from my bed, walking over to my closet that had close which were all way too small for me. I didn't like shopping; only Alli could get me to shop and it just didn't feel right with her not being here. I found a grey tank top, a black hoodie, some underwear and a pair of blue jeans. Picking them all up along with a towel from the hall closet, I carried them into the bathroom and start having my shower.

After having a long hot shower, I had to wash that dream off me. I got out, dressed and brushed my teeth trying not to think about Alli. I put on my socks and sneaker, before packing my back for school. I look at the time to see it was only 7:30am and school doesn't start for another half an hour. I placed my phone and wallet into my pocket before grabbing my bag to head downstairs, where I grabbed my car keys and went out the front door; looking it and getting into my car. I start it up, back out of my driveway and took the longest route to school that I knew of.

Arriving at school 5 minutes before the first bell would ring, I parked my car in the first park I found. I hopped out of my car, locking it and walking into school. As I walked in I saw people amity looked at me, I was hoping they wouldn't but they did; feel uncomfortable I pulled my hoodie up and continue to my locker. When getting to my locker, I span my combination in before pulling it open and looking for my first three class's books. I felt the presents of someone standing near me, I turned around to see someone I haven't seen in two years.

I say "Aria." I heard rumours bring detention that she might be coming back but I wasn't sure what to believe.

Aria replied with "Hey Em, look times no see."

I say "Yeah no kidding," Aria wraps her arms around me while I stand there awkwardly.

She pulls back and asked "What class do you have?"

I replied with "English, you?"

Aria said "Same, do you want to sit together?"

I replied with "Yeah sure, hey no pink where'd the pink go?"

Arai giggled before saying "I felt like it didn't suit me anymore," I nodded my head before turning around and grabbing the rest of my books. I then closed and locked my locker, before leading Aria to our English room; along the way we made small talk. It was crazy to see her after all this time, I wasn't sure what was going to happen whether we would become friend again or if too much time had pass to mend that bridge. We walked into English to find the teacher wasn't here yet, but a few students where already. I took a seat in the back corner and Aria took the seat right next to me. We did a little talking before we saw Hanna and Mona walking in.

I saw Aria's saw drop and she said "Wow Hanna and Mona look good," I make a sound in return.

Aria asked "Hey how come she isn't sitting with us or even came over to say anything?"

I answered with "You think we all just stopped talking to you, we all stopped talking to each other." Aria went to reply but the bell rang just as the remainder of the students came in, along with Spencer and the teacher.

Mr Martins asked "Okay who did their summer reading?" I watch as Aria, Spencer, even Hanna and everyone else in the class raised their hands. Mr Martin looked around and smiled, until he realise my hand wasn't up.

Mr Martins said "Miss Fields why did you not complete the reading?"

I replied with "If I said I didn't get the list would you believe me?" A few of the kids made small laughing sounds, while Aria looked plan shocked at me.

Mr Martins said "No because I know I gave it to, then had one sent home to you. So you know what that means?"

I replied with "I get out of doing it?"

Mr Martin smiled and said "Nice try, I'll see you here for detention this afternoon and for as long as it take you to finish."

I replied with "I look forward to spending time with you." Again some kids laugh, I looked at Aria and she still looked in disbelief. Mr Martins went on to talk about the lesson, while I placed my head on the desk and just relaxed. About 45 minutes later I heard Mr Martin dismiss everyone, I started to pack up and get ready to leave.

I hear Mr Martin say over the chatter "Miss Fields may you please stay back," I sigh and sit back down waiting for everyone to leave. Once the room was cleared, I stood up and walked down to where Mr Martins was standing and waiting.

Mr Martins said "Now Miss Fields, would you like to explain why you didn't finish your summer reading?"

I replied with "I totally forgot Sir, I'm sorry."

Mr Martins said "It's okay, detention until you finish it and spend whatever time you have home catching up. If you want to graduate next year, you need to pick up the slack."

I replied with "Yes Sir," he wrote me a late slip before I left to go my next class which was Maths.

When lunch time finally arrived I was already tired, I thought people would stop the staring but they didn't. I didn't want to go to the cafeteria where everyone could openly stare at me, I head to my normally lunch place. The furthest place from the school I could get without getting in trouble, it was on hill with a huge tree that could be climbed on. I always thought about Alli here, she would have liked sitting here and just being ourselves because we didn't have to pretend. I saw someone small walking over towards me, I squinted a bit to see it was Aria; should have known.

When she gets over here she said "Hey."

I replied with "Hi," I was leaning against the trunk it was really comfy.

Aria said "Cool place up here."

I replied with "Yeah and it's all mine. Okay well it's the school but no one ever comes out here."

Aria asked "Emily, what was that in English?"

I replied with "What do you mean?"

Aria said "Come on you know what I mean, you were never like this before, what changed?"

I smirked and said "What changed? Seriously?"

Aria replied with "Okay dumb question, but you were never like this before."

I say "People change Aria, you've changed, Spencer changed and Hanna's changed. So why can't I change?"

Aria said "Alli-"

I cut off and say "No! Don't you talk about her, not here, not ever."

Aria puts her hands up in surrender and said "Okay, but when my friend Emily Fields comes back tell her I'm looking for."

I replied with "Whatever." Aria stomps her foot before angrily walking off, I didn't care if I had upset her. They weren't there when I need them, so I changed into me or me without Alli and if they didn't like it; it's all there fault. When the bell rang signalling lunch was over, I didn't want go back in but I had to, for her, for Alli.