~The Final Goodbye~
All rights go to Suzanne Collins, who made the lovely Hunger Games! Also The song below is "With Love" by Christina Grimmie
Before I venture into the unknown dangers of the capital, I decided I needed to see Peeta one last time, one last goodbye. My hand wearily clutched the doorknob to his room. Every instinct I had told me to run, that this was a bad idea. My anxiety rises as nervousness threatened to devour my body whole. But still I pushed forward, I had to do this. I weakly opened the door, to see Peeta engulfed in sleep. Even though now he was aloud to roam freely - well with guards of course his arms were still firmly strapped to his bed. I softly and stealthily sat next to him on the corner of his bed. Maybe this would be easier if he was asleep. Without thinking I brushed his gold locks out his eyes and tightly held his hand, luckily this was not enough to stir him from the no doubt nightmares he was having. I whispered quietly so his unconscious body could hear me but not the doctors on the other side of the one sided glass, this was between Peeta and I. "I'm so sorry" I muttered "All of this, all that has happened, all you have endure, for me! for me and I can't even face you! Just whenever you spit those hateful words at me I become angry at the truth behind them and instead of changing myself for the better I lash out at you. I know your in there somewhere and your fighting your way back because that's who you are a fighter, your one wish was to not let anyone change you not snow, not the games and yet he did and that's on my hands, when you been captured I just felt empty like apart of my soul was missing, I'd cry myself to sleep every night and selfishly wish you were here to comfort me. I couldn't understand why I felt this way and why snow would do this to you and why it hurt so much knowing what he was doing to you and finally its struck me. I love you Peeta Mellark" Now tears streaming down my face "And it's worse than a stab in the back to see you in so much pain,in so much confusion, to lose all of who you are, and that's my fault! I'm so sorry. I just want you to know when you remember I'll be waiting, I love you." and with that I began to sing.
"You called me out and taught me tough
With love, with love.
You fought my flaws, my teeth, my claws
With love, with love.
cause every time I'm slipping away from myself,
You're the one that moves me like nobody else.
Cause when I'm down and I'm done,
And I'm coming unplugged
When I'm ready to fall
You're the one always holding me up
With love
Oh no no
Your tongue won't tie, you'll always find
The truth yeah you do
But still you smile despite the lines
I drew for you
Cause every time I'm slipping away from myself,
You're the one that moves me like nobody else.
Cause when I'm down and I'm done,
And I'm coming unplugged
When I'm ready to fall
You're the one always holding me up
With love
Love, Love, Love, Love
Cause when I'm down and I'm done,
And I'm coming unplugged
When I'm ready to fall
You're the one always holding me up
With love
Cause when I'm down and I'm done,
And I'm coming unplugged
When I'm ready to fall
You're the one always holding me up
With love
And with the end of the last verse I searched frantically in my pocket and found the smooth circular object I was looking for. I kissed the pearl one last time giving up my most prized possession the item that calms me in the waking of nightmares, Peeta's presence and essence. I place it in Peeta's hand hoping it can do the same for him, with that I get up to leave. As I reach the door I look back at him one last time, and I swear I see his eyes flicker open filled with love and heavy emotion as if he had been awake the whole time. Or maybe I just imagined it.