This story was suppose to be just one fic but it became to long for that so -_-*...I've split the beginning into five parts and then put the rest in one. Enjoy.
Dedicated to my friend Misty, who enjoys my fics the most!
Loneliness for Christmas
Duo's Part
By: Maria
It's A.C. 197, Christmas is five days away. People on Earth and the colonies are roaming about making sure they have presents for all their loved ones, food for their Christmas banquet, and finishing mailing cards and packages. Children playing with the newly fallen snow and couples enjoying peaceful strolls in their neighborhoods, yes, in the air there's happiness and excitement. But...not everyone was happy, excited or even buy gifts or Christmas cards.
Duo, Heero, Quatre, Trowa, and Wu Fei aren't enjoying the holiday season...
Duo walked down the streets of L2, shoulders slumped down, hands in his pockets and face hidden behind his hat.
"Hn...how can they all be so happy? There's nothing to be happy about or to celebrate. Holidays...brings loneliness and sadness. I just want to get what I was sent for and then go home and sleep away this stupid holiday." Duo watched two children bulid a snowman.
"All my life Christmas was filled with loneliness especially after the incident...at the ch...urch. My only real home and family."
'That's not true! You have another family. A family with Heero, Quatre, Trowa, and Wu Fei!' his conscience yelled.
"That's totally crazy! They aren't my family. Where are they then!? Huh?! Enjoying their own lives, that's where. Being happy...no I'm alone, always have and always will. Can't wait for this holiday to end."
'You should try communicating with them. Then you'll see they're probably just as lonely as you.'
"Will you shut up! One: I'm not lonely...just don't like Christmas too many memories. Two: Heero and Trowa are void of emotions so they wouldn't know what loneliness is if it bit them on the butt! Quatre, well he has twenty-nine sisters to keep him company. Wu Fei...well he could probably go with Heero and Trowa, plus he's with Sally Po working. No time to care about Christmas or a use-to-be Gundam pilot. I even bet Heero's with Relena! Hmph...and finally we were never that close! Not close enough to be friends. Maybe Quatre and me bonded a bit, but the others...yeah right! I was just a tool for the battles we fought just like they were."
'I have to disagree on all three counts. You are lonely, why else would you be talking about it this way. You even said "all my life Christmas has been filled with loneliness".'
"I meant...in the past...not...well...leave me along!"
'They only act as if they have no feelings, to cover their painful past. Keep from hurting, you should know how they feel. You can see it when you five were together. It's there. You yourself put on this mask...this cheerful appearance and you call your self death as well.'
"Ok, so maybe they hide behind masks too and have feelings, but that doesn't mean they want or need me."
'Wrong! You need them and they need you. You guys haven't gotten close. Why else do you hold ALL of them close to your heart? Why do you always look back to the days you were together? Because they're your friends and you care about. Especially Heero, he's very important to you.'
"What! I...I don't love him!"
'Ha! I never said you did. I said he was very important to you. And this proves that you do love him, terms beyond friends.'
"Look you! Shut up! Why am I talking to you! Wait! Why am I talking to myself! I've been walking all this time arguing with myself! That's it I don't want to talk...to you...myself." Duo throws his arms up in defeat.
People who he has passed and around him look at him like he was crazy. Duo put his hands in his pockets again and walks into the store in front of him.
"I don't know why Hilde couldn't have come to get what she wanted instead of sending me. What do I look like, Santa's elves?!"
'Yep!'
"I told you to go away!" Duo walked down one aisle after another getting the four items Hilde asked him to get for her. He groaned when he saw the lines at the register. "Great just what I need. Nothing like standing in line for the next four years. Man*continues mumbling silently*"
'Why is Christmas so busy! Everyday! Every minute! Glad I don't have to buy gifts. Let's see...one...two...three...four...five! Five people in front of me *groans* Why does Hilde need this trash anyways! Some holiday candles, one of her silly romance novels, another pack of Christmas lights, and this silver chain. Hey alright one person left then me!'
"Thank you for shopping at Celeron. Have a Merry Christmas." the cashier turned and looked at Duo. "Hello. How was everything?"
"Hmmm...*mumbles* had to wait half my life..."
"Excuse me?"
"Nice. Fine, got everything." she(cashier) rang up the items and put them in a bag.
"Oh what a nice chain. A gift for your girlfriend?"
"No. I don't have a girlfriend. It's not mine. It's not a gift. I'm not buying gifts."
"Oh...your total is thirty-one forty-five."
"Here you go...it's the exact amount." Duo picks up his bag and begins to leave.
"Have a Merry Christmas!"
"Yeah right. Merry Christmas ho ho ho."
Dedicated to my friend Misty, who enjoys my fics the most!
Loneliness for Christmas
Duo's Part
By: Maria
It's A.C. 197, Christmas is five days away. People on Earth and the colonies are roaming about making sure they have presents for all their loved ones, food for their Christmas banquet, and finishing mailing cards and packages. Children playing with the newly fallen snow and couples enjoying peaceful strolls in their neighborhoods, yes, in the air there's happiness and excitement. But...not everyone was happy, excited or even buy gifts or Christmas cards.
Duo, Heero, Quatre, Trowa, and Wu Fei aren't enjoying the holiday season...
Duo walked down the streets of L2, shoulders slumped down, hands in his pockets and face hidden behind his hat.
"Hn...how can they all be so happy? There's nothing to be happy about or to celebrate. Holidays...brings loneliness and sadness. I just want to get what I was sent for and then go home and sleep away this stupid holiday." Duo watched two children bulid a snowman.
"All my life Christmas was filled with loneliness especially after the incident...at the ch...urch. My only real home and family."
'That's not true! You have another family. A family with Heero, Quatre, Trowa, and Wu Fei!' his conscience yelled.
"That's totally crazy! They aren't my family. Where are they then!? Huh?! Enjoying their own lives, that's where. Being happy...no I'm alone, always have and always will. Can't wait for this holiday to end."
'You should try communicating with them. Then you'll see they're probably just as lonely as you.'
"Will you shut up! One: I'm not lonely...just don't like Christmas too many memories. Two: Heero and Trowa are void of emotions so they wouldn't know what loneliness is if it bit them on the butt! Quatre, well he has twenty-nine sisters to keep him company. Wu Fei...well he could probably go with Heero and Trowa, plus he's with Sally Po working. No time to care about Christmas or a use-to-be Gundam pilot. I even bet Heero's with Relena! Hmph...and finally we were never that close! Not close enough to be friends. Maybe Quatre and me bonded a bit, but the others...yeah right! I was just a tool for the battles we fought just like they were."
'I have to disagree on all three counts. You are lonely, why else would you be talking about it this way. You even said "all my life Christmas has been filled with loneliness".'
"I meant...in the past...not...well...leave me along!"
'They only act as if they have no feelings, to cover their painful past. Keep from hurting, you should know how they feel. You can see it when you five were together. It's there. You yourself put on this mask...this cheerful appearance and you call your self death as well.'
"Ok, so maybe they hide behind masks too and have feelings, but that doesn't mean they want or need me."
'Wrong! You need them and they need you. You guys haven't gotten close. Why else do you hold ALL of them close to your heart? Why do you always look back to the days you were together? Because they're your friends and you care about. Especially Heero, he's very important to you.'
"What! I...I don't love him!"
'Ha! I never said you did. I said he was very important to you. And this proves that you do love him, terms beyond friends.'
"Look you! Shut up! Why am I talking to you! Wait! Why am I talking to myself! I've been walking all this time arguing with myself! That's it I don't want to talk...to you...myself." Duo throws his arms up in defeat.
People who he has passed and around him look at him like he was crazy. Duo put his hands in his pockets again and walks into the store in front of him.
"I don't know why Hilde couldn't have come to get what she wanted instead of sending me. What do I look like, Santa's elves?!"
'Yep!'
"I told you to go away!" Duo walked down one aisle after another getting the four items Hilde asked him to get for her. He groaned when he saw the lines at the register. "Great just what I need. Nothing like standing in line for the next four years. Man*continues mumbling silently*"
'Why is Christmas so busy! Everyday! Every minute! Glad I don't have to buy gifts. Let's see...one...two...three...four...five! Five people in front of me *groans* Why does Hilde need this trash anyways! Some holiday candles, one of her silly romance novels, another pack of Christmas lights, and this silver chain. Hey alright one person left then me!'
"Thank you for shopping at Celeron. Have a Merry Christmas." the cashier turned and looked at Duo. "Hello. How was everything?"
"Hmmm...*mumbles* had to wait half my life..."
"Excuse me?"
"Nice. Fine, got everything." she(cashier) rang up the items and put them in a bag.
"Oh what a nice chain. A gift for your girlfriend?"
"No. I don't have a girlfriend. It's not mine. It's not a gift. I'm not buying gifts."
"Oh...your total is thirty-one forty-five."
"Here you go...it's the exact amount." Duo picks up his bag and begins to leave.
"Have a Merry Christmas!"
"Yeah right. Merry Christmas ho ho ho."