Hey! Well another fic. It probably sux like the last one. But w/e…first chapter up. Don't expect me to upload the next chapter soon. 2 much homework. (damn school) I know christmas has passed but I don't care I just need it to start around Christmas to have every thing make sense and so it'll be explained better. Well hope you like it (ya rite I know you won't). well just read.

Disclaimer: damn I hate these…well I don't own any of the characters…blah blah blah…you know the drill.

CONFUSED FEELINGS

~Matt~

I can still remember the time she left. The last and only kiss we shared. I cried that day…the first time I cried for a long time. I still call her and she still calls me. We're still good friends…but only that, friends. We'll never be anything more. It's not that I don't want to be cuz damn I so want to be more than friends. But It wouldn't work out…we live so far apart…it's so not fair. I care about her so much I dunno it's weird I've known her for so long and we've been friends but now I don't feel the same way around her…I have a completely different feeling. I just don't think she likes me the same way…

~Mimi~

"Hmmm," I sighed and smiled as I looked at a picture of Matt. God I miss him so much. I can still feel his lips on mine from our first kiss the day I left. It's been 6 months. Six long months without Matt. I've always wondered what would've happened if I hadn't left. Would we be together right now? Ya right, we did go out once though but not on a real date, well I didn't think it was. It just felt like we were friends not anything else. I also wonder if I had said yes to the second time he asked me out, where we would be now? I wish I hadn't said no, but I knew it was the right thing to do. I didn't want to ruin the friendship we had. I've always had a crush on him…but only a crush. Since I left I've felt different. I've tried to get over him; damn I've tried so hard. I just can't. My friends tell me not to try to get over him that one day it'll just happen…I just hope it happens soon.

"Mimi, you awake yet honey?" I heard my mom ask.

"Uh…ya I'm just getting ready,"

"Okay, just hurry up or you're gonna be late for school,"

"Okay mom,"

I ran into the shower and got ready. I walked downstairs and got something to eat then rushed out the door. As I walked to school I saw everyone putting up Christmas decorations they all looked happy. Well why wouldn't they be it is Christmas. Well almost. I just wish Matt was here for Christmas. That's my only wish…but ya sure like he'd come.

"Hey Mimi," I heard someone say interrupting my thoughts.

"Oh hey Brittany,"

"What's up?"

"Not much," I replied.

"You thinking?"

"Ya," I answered.

"Matt?"

"Ya…I want him to come for christmas,"

"Did u tell him that?"

"No way would I tell him that…we're only friends if I told him he'd think I like him,"

"Well don't u like him?"

"Ya,"

"So…"

"If he found out I liked him he'd probably act weird around me…I know he doesn't like me,"

"He does like you,"

"How do you know?"

"I just do, well I better get to class talk to you later,"

"Ya, bye"

Damn I hate school.

After school

Just as I got home the phone rang.

"Hello…?"

"Hey Mimi, What's up?" said a familiar voice on the other line.

"Hey Matt, not to much here what about u?"

"Same,"

"So…"

"So…"

"How's everyone over there?

"They're doing good, Tai asked Sora out,"

"Really? I thought he'd never ask her out,"

"I know same, but he did. So what about you?"

"What do you mean?"

"You got a boyfriend?"

"Uh…no, what about you?"

"Nope," yes, he doesn't have a girl friend, "don't have a boyfriend, I prefer girls,"

"You know what I meant," I said laughing.

"No I don't have a girl friend,"

"Really?"

"Ya why do you sound so surprised,"

"I don't know, it's just always seemed like you've gotten a lot of girls,"

"Really? I never thought I did,"

"I always saw you with a ton of girl,"

"Ya but now I don't have one,"

"Exactly that's why I'm surprised, so how's your band…"

"It's doing good, we've gotten a couple of gigs and stuff,"

"Cool,"

"Ya I know,"

"So…"

"Merry Christmas!"

"What? What was that about?"

"I dunno…it's Christmas so I decided to say Merry Christmas,"

"It's not Christmas, there's like a week left,"

"Ya so, it's close enough, a week isn't that long,"

"I can't wait till Christmas!" I exclaimed.

"Why?"

"It's Christmas come on, who wouldn't be excited?"

"I dunno…me maybe,"

"Why aren't you excited?"

"Because it's the first Christmas that…we won't spend together,"

"Oh," I said simply. I know I should've said more but I didn't.

"So…"

"I got to go,"

"Oh okay," he said sadly.

"Bye,"

"Later Mimi," He said then I hung up the phone.

Does he like me? He can't. But then why would he say that. He could of meant it in a friend kinda way but it didn't sound that why. He can't like me I don't want him to like me.

~Matt~

What was that about? Damn I shouldn't have said that. I wonder what she's thinking right now. Damn I wish she felt the same way I do.

"HEY MATT OPEN THE DOOR!" I heard someone say.

"What?"

"MATT OPEN THE DOOR I KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE!"

"HOLD ON, HOLD ON!" I yelled back. "Oh hey Tai," I said when I opened the door.

"I was knocking forever, what were you doing?"

"Nothing,"

"You weren't doing anything and you still didn't hear me knocking?"

"Ya," I said as Tai went into the kitchen in search for something to eat. "Why do you always come here to eat my food?"

"I don't," Tai said with his mouth full of chips. "Hey do you wanna come to a party?"

"Sure, when?"

"Uh…this Friday,"

"Sorry man I can't,"

"Why not? You never miss out on a party,"

"I know, but I gotta miss out on this one. Sorry man I got other plans,"

"Other plans? What could be more important than a party?"

"A lot of stuff," I answered simply.

"Ya but your gonna come to the new years one, right?"

"No, Sorry man can't make that one either,"

"Why not?"

"Like I said I got plans,"

"What are these plans?"

"Just plans,"

"Okay dude whatever but you're gonna be missing out on a lot,"

"No I won't," I said as I smiled.

"So…have you talked to Mimi lately?"

"Ya, today,"

"Cool, what'd she say?"

"Nothing just stuff,"

"You're not telling me anything dude. Seriously what'd she say?"

"Well I told her about you and Sora,"

"That's cool,"

"And she doesn't have a boyfriend,"

"Whoa dude you're in luck then,"

"Nah don't think so, I don't think she likes me,"

"Come on man, sure she does,"

"No doubt it,"

"She used to like you,"

"Ya I know, but I don't think she likes me anymore,"

"How are you so sure?"

"Well today I told her that I wasn't excited about Christmas because it would be the first Christmas that we wouldn't be spending together,"

"And…what'd she say?"

"She said 'Oh' and the she said that she had to go,"

"So that's why you don't think she likes you?"

"Ya but there's also the fact that the last time I asked her out she said no because she didn't want to ruin the friendship we had,"

"So…just because she didn't wanna ruin the friendship doesn't mean she doesn't like you and besides that was a long time ago,"

"Ya…but still it just doesn't feel like she likes me. It feels like she only thinks of me as her good friend,"

"Dude you'll see she really likes you,"

"Ya, whatever man,"

"She does. I gotta go, talk to you later,"

"Ya, later dude," I said as I closed the door.

ya sure, Mimi doesn't like me. Damn I hate being just friends. I just wanna be near her. I wanna feel her lips on mine another time.

Told you it sucked. But I don't care w/e just review plz. Well I'm out. Peace.