Walking into his room is like going back in time. It feels like nothing has changed, it's like we should be sitting in Carly's room thinking up ideas for I carly, like I should be pulling pranks on him. But then it hits me, it's never going to be the same ever again. He's not here anymore no matter how much I want him to be he's gone and he's never coming back.
"I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house that don't bother me"
All I ever wanted was him, but I just couldnt admit it to anyone let alone couldnt I just get up the nerve and tell him. Now all I can do is wonder. I lay awake at night and just cry wondering what my life would of been like. Would of he loved me back or would of he just laughed in my face. If only i could have just one more day one more minute with him then I could tell him. But that cant happen so all i can do is cry and hope i can make myself stop.
"I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out I'm not afraid to cry ever once in awile"
I put on a happy face pretend that I'm okay. But everyday without him is like a living hell. Waking up every moring expecting to see his face and then rembering.
"Even though going on with you gone still upsets me there are days ever now and again I pretend I'm okay"
I still cant believe its been a year. It seems like just yesterday we were at Carlys thinking up ideas. I'm so sorry that I didnt tell you how i felt that every day I saw you I wanted to grab you and kiss you. That seeing you talk to any other girl killed me inside. I still love you even after all this time. You will alway be the only one that is for me. Freddie Benson I love you with all my heart.
"What hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say and watchin'
you walk away and never knowin'
what could have been and not seein'
that loving you is what I was tryin' to do"