A/N: Hey guys. So I've been feeling kindof sad…I guess so I decided to write this just for the heck of it. So here goes nothing
" Why am I even here? Why am I still living? I have no reason to be here. I'm a useless, lazy ass person who's just rude and bitchy and has the mouth of a sailor. So why am I here?" I kept thinking those things as I dug the knife deeper across my wrist. I watched as the blood ran down my arm and into the bathroom sink. Sighing I set the knife down and cleaned the new cuts I gave myself. I walked into my bedroom and got changed. I was supposed to go out with Antonio today. We were going on a double date with my brother and his stupid potato bastard of a boyfriend. But I wasn't going. I won't be going anywhere anymore. Why should I? I dug around in my drawer until I felt what I was looking for.
Antonio's POV
I couldn't wait to see my little tomato. It's been so long and I felt bad for not coming over as often as I should. I was in the back seat of the car. Ludwig was driving and Feli was next to him. Looking out the window I was the scenery change until a familiar house came into view. When the car stopped in the drive I was the first one out. I ran to the door and knocking rapidly. Feli and Ludwig came up shortly after, and Lovino still hadn't opened the door. Getting slightly worried I rang the doorbell. We waited a little longer and still got no answer. " Lovi! We here!" I called out. Again we got no answer. I turned to look at Feli. " You have a key right," I asked hopefully. Nodding he pulled out the key to Lovi's house and opened the door. " Lovi!" both Feli and I called out. Searching the house we found nothing. There was only one place he could be. I ran up the stairs kicing down his door. I froze when I saw the sight before me. " Lovino!"
Feliciano's POV
Luddy and we talking in the front of the car with big brother Antonio is the back with a goofy smile plastered to his face. I smiled, it's been forever since I last saw fratello. I couldn't wait to see him. We were supposed to be going on a double date, I was surprised when fratello agreed. We finally pulled into his driveway. Antonio was the first out. Chuckling I stepped out with Ludwig also getting out. Holding Luddy's hand we walked up to the door. Antonio rng the door bell and we waited. The longer we waited the more worried I got. The was no cursing no nothing show that fratello heard and was coming. Antonio turned and looked at me " You have a key right." Nodding I dug out the key Lovi gave me and opened the door. " Lovi," we called out while searching the house. I was worried. " Where's fratello," I thought to myself. Antonio suddenly ran up the stairs when I remembered we haven't checked his room. " Lovino," we heard Antonio scream out. Immediately I ran up the stairs, Ludwig not far behind. As soon as I stepped into the door way I saw him. Gun pointed to his head he mouthed " I'm sorry," and with a bang I lost him. My friend, my family, my brother. I screamed and cried as I read his note and screamed and cried some more until I just couldn't anymore. I just wish he had told he felt that way.
Lovino's POV
I found what I was looking for. I pulled the smooth, cool gun out of my drawer. It was never used, never had a reason to. But today, today it will finally be used for one purpose and one purpose only. I took it off of safety and placed next to my temple. I heard them, I knew they were there. I left one final note for them, it would be the last thing they had of me. The door was kicked down as I took a deep breath. Antonio stood there screaming out my name, Feliciano wasn't far behind. He finally appeared and saw me. His face was struck with horror and sadness. I mouthed " I'm sorry," closed my eyes and pulled the trigger. I faintly heard them calling out my name. Darkness surrounded me as I greeted death like an old friend.