Ok guys so here is my funky new version of The Monster Within. It has been updated the TNaya situation is different and yeah so read. It had been Beta'd so i hopoe its good for you :) Please read and review if you like the changes!
I am a monster, plain and simple. One word can say so much about a person 'monster' is all you need to know about the infamous Edward Cullen. I decided I could leave the comfort and protection of Carlisle and Esme. Boy, was I wrong about that! So if you wish to hear my unforgiving tale then carry on reading, on your life be it.
I need to leave, I thought stubbornly. I just couldn't act on the impulse. Carlisle and Esme's thoughts contained nothing but love and respect towards me. How could I hurt them so by leaving them like this? They knew something was wrong; I hadn't fed for three weeks now. I was getting thirstier and thirstier by the day but I couldn't stand being a 'vegetarian!' I did not appreciate them for curbing my appetite. I wanted human blood now, not just mountain lions and grizzly bears, I wanted more!
I sat on the sofa of our house with these thoughts swarming around in my head when I heard Carlisle enter. I looked at him and gave him a weak smile, he returned one of his own and it just made me feel even guiltier about what I was thinking.
"What is the matter, Edward? You haven't fed for 22 days now. Your control will slip if you leave hunting much longer, you know. Why don't you wish to hunt?"
"I'm confused, Carlisle," was all I answered.
You're hiding something; do you not wish to tell me?
"No," I answered his thought.
Very well, you know where I am if you need me, dear boy. By the way, hunt.
I gave a nod, but I could tell by Carlisle's expression that he wasn't fooled one tiny bit. He sighed, then rose and left the room in one fluid movement.
"Oh, I will hunt, dear Carlisle, just not the way you wish," my whisper echoed through he room as I went to leave it. I walked through the door and stepped out into the evening air. I ran to the forest and headed for town. It took me five minutes and it had started to rain, just my luck. I hid in the trees, waiting for someone to pass me. During that time I decided I would only hunt the guilty: murderers and such. The easy way to find out was to read their minds first. An ear-piercing scream caught me off guard and I followed it to an alleyway. A woman was lying on the floor bleeding and a man was towering above her, a strange gleam in his eyes. These were the signs of a killer. The smell of the blood then overpowered everything, venom rose within every part of me; it took everything I had to not go for the woman.
Go for the man, I chanted in my head. Not the woman, the man! It worked. It must have because I pounced on the man and bit straight into his neck. I was instantly overwhelmed by the onslaught of the wonderful taste of human blood. It filled me with happiness and I felt the strength it gave me.
Once I had finished the human off, I had planned to just leave, but then something happened. The fact was: I couldn't leave; the taste of blood was still around. The woman's blood. Instantly I turned and again bit into the neck of my victim.
No, please, my baby!
The thought pierced right through to my unbeating heart and I had to stop feeding, but it was too late. The damage had been done, I had murdered an innocent. No, two innocents- and one wasn't even born! What creature have I become?
After that I sat in the alleyway for a good half an hour, resenting what I had done. When I couldn't put it off any longer, I rose to my feet and found myself back at the house until eventually I stood right on the doorstep. I was dripping with rain by then, covered in blood and had crimson red eyes. I must look a sight!
The door opened and I saw Carlisle standing in the threshold. To avoid his gaze I looked at the ground and said, "I have come to collect some clothes and then I will be off. I'm truly sorry, Carlisle." I looked up then. Carlisle gasped as he saw the state I was in.
"Oh, Edward, what have you done?"
"Defied you, Carlisle, that is what I have done. Ruined everything you have worked for," I answered truthfully.
"Come in," was all he replied.
I went to my room, found a bag and threw some belongings into it. I was back at the doorstep within two minutes. Carlisle was naturally by the door too.
"Go, Edward, take as long as you need and remember that there is always a place in our home for you." I nodded briefly and took a step out the door. He put his hand out to stop me.
"How bad was it?" he asked.
"I killed a man, then a woman; the woman was pregnant, Carlisle!" I bellowed. "I am a murderer and don't deserve to be with you anymore."
"That is a lie, Edward," he replied firmly. For the briefest second I thought I saw Carlisle hesitate.
"Do you feel remorse?" he asked me.
"Like you couldn't imagine," I told him and then pulled away and trudged down the gravel pathway, hating the very being I was.