Well here we
go, a sad depressing (And badly written) Slayers poem! ^^;; Dun worry, I don't normally
write tragic death things, so this'll prolly be me last! Anyways, enjoy, and be nice! ^_^;;
Always Smiling
Always smiling always
cheerful
Why was I always so
furious to see it?
What was it about you
that sparked such hatred?
Why did I act so much
like one of you?
Why could you make me
cry?
I never thought one
day it would all end
Leaving one question
on my quivering lips
I asked the gods why
And I'm still
waiting for an answer
Why…?
I would scream to the
raging skies
And the only one who
answered was the wind
This bloody day, I
can still see the change
I see a hero, not
filth
And I asked yet
again, why?
Why had I not seen it
before?
Why had you not shown
me this part of yourself?
Why had we both been
foolish?
Damn that contemptible
smirk!
I grew to loathe it
Loathe you…
Why oh why were we
both so blind?
I won't let
myself cry
I won't!
But everything can
stop now!
All my pain, the
suffering, denial maybe
It can end and my
life can be lived to the fullest!
But why won't
it?
You're gone,
and there's nothing left to do
But mourn and move on
But as much as I will
it to
None of this pain
This anger
All my unanswered
questions
They won't
leave me alone
Just like you…
I know I killed you
Though this dark day
I hold you in my arms
I kneel in your blood
I beg you to stay
And yet…
You left me
You left everyone…
You disappoint us
again, just like always
Damn it all!
Damn the cruel beast
that took you
Damn you for saving
all of us
You never cared before…
I didn't care
until it was too late
Why the hell should
you have cared then?
I can still see it…
The golden arrow of
light that pierced your flesh
I can still see your
body falling to earth
Falling from grace
Falling from the
place you could only dream about
The crimson spray a
streak against the gray sky
Your scream of pain
And then silence…
I scream your name
I reach out to you
And you open your
eyes one last time for me
I was careless…
Always smiling and
always meticulous
All your plans were
always perfect!
It must have been
your intention to die
You loved to torment
me so
What better way to do
it than make me suffer like this?
You couldn't
have possibly gone awry…
You were infallible!
Nothing and no one could
touch you!
Makes me wonder why
you did it…
You got your final
revenge
Is that really what
you wanted?
To leave the world
and leave others in pain?
No…
You can't draw
your pleasures from that anymore
So why were you
smiling at the end?
Sometimes I think it
wasn't you
It couldn't
have been…
Not the arrogant callous
person I'd grown so accustomed to maiming
Not him!
He would never
sacrifice his own life!
Not his kind!
I couldn't have
been wrong about him!
But then, I return to
that place
Forever stained with
memories of blood
And I know…
I was wrong and your
smile is gone…
Forever…
Even as I hold you
Dying
Your eyes
Once full of mischief
In their last moments
somber
Serious
But I didn't know…
Just grin at me
please
Call me names!
Insult me!
Make me cry!
I cry tears of sorrow
for you
And I don't
even know why…
I can't stand
looking at you like this!
Oh gods make it stop!
This isn't happening…
You tell me something
I never wanted to hear
Now I wish I could
hear just once more
But all I ever hear
is the wind
I refuse to believe
this is true!
My white robes are
scarlet
Red like an evil
miasma
But you should not be
bleeding!
This red fluid of
life that looks so malevolent on the cold ground
It should not be on
my hands…
Taking someone from
me I never knew I had
I hold you closer to
hear your dying words
And run my hands
through your hair
I never took the time to realize how beautiful you are…
You tell me you'll
always be watching
Ever always annoying
I tell you not to
leave
And you merely laugh
But the crimson
streaks down your pale cheek
And you know your
time grows short…
I never knew what you
were like
All I saw was the
monster
All I saw was
slaughter at your hand
Why was I blind to
beauty?
You simply smile once
more
And close your eyes
I feel your life
leaving your battered body slowly
The others with magic
try to help
But we both know it is
futile
You ask if I would mind
seeing you again
And I can only feel
the unwanted searing of tears
And everyone wonders
why I'm crying so hard…
I tell you there will
never be a need for again
You reply with
infinity
A love that not even
death can deter
I ask the gods if
this could be true
You respond with a
rhyme
Sore wa himitsu desu
And with a final
breath
Your life force is
gone
And so is my love…
And yet
Looking upon your
still features
Frozen in death
From wherever it is
you are waiting for me
You will always be irritating
Always beautiful
And I will remember
you
Always smiling
My namagomi…