What time can't give {Music inspired by for this chapter; Alexandra desplat - the meadow}

Haley looked over at the sleeping sammy who lay beside her her heart raced still as it always did, her eyes glued to the beautifully sculptured 6 something man who was deep in his sleep. She wished with all her heart she didn't feel what she did. But she just did. There was no changing it, not a chance. She propped herself up on her elbow looking at him, twisting slightly she looked at the clock across the room on Sammy's side of the bed. It stated 3;45am – she still just couldn't sleep, she'd been like this for a few month's now. Ever since that night. Where her world she'd managed to create was torn down by what happened. Only simple thing can ruin your entire life. Haley cast her mind back to when she'd first met sammy, she'd been with her sister Quinn down some where in Massachusetts. It was a get away from her life down in a small town called Tree hill after their mum had died. Everything was going fine as she was saying and her and Quinn were getting ready for leave back for Tree Hill, when on the last night Haley's life changed dramatically – In the hotel where they'd been staying weird sign's flew around all night; whispering,talking especially addressing them to Haley trying to tell her she should kill herself in order to save Quinn. Haley had had no idea what had been happening and started to give in to what the 'dark people' were saying as she called them. Haley had taken herself to the roof where they'd told her to go; but upon the roof she found the body of a girl. Around hales age, she was lifeless. Dead, and had been for a very long time. There was no saving her then. But Haley instantly knew something was wrong, but the 'dark people' would not let her go. They kept pushing until He showed up. The light to that very very dark day. Sammy. And his brother Dean. That day they'd saved her. Sammy had always shone above all people she'd ever met. He was special in every way. Just some things he would do would prove there was no other person in the world for her. Like the way he caressed her cheek in his hand when she was upset. Or they way he'd tuck that annoying piece of blonde hair behind her ear; which would fall on her face when she was trying to concentrate. He made her feel warmth, and her smile grew every time his eyes fluttered open. Slowly Haley snapped back in to focus. What was she doing? As much as she tried to justify how much she loved sammy there was still that other thing there. The one she just couldn't get to leave and it made her hurt so much inside. She felt sick...because of her thoughts. They were impure to sammy. But she would NEVER let him find out. There was no way he would ever get inside her head. If he did, she'd curl up and die inside. Which she knew seemed like a pretty good option right now.

As the clock hit four am, Haley rolled her eye's looking at the still sleeping sammy, but her eyes latched on to the shiny object on her side of the bed. Her phone. She knew if she took only three minutes away with that phone she knew what she'd do. She knew she'd do something she regretted. But her eyes were now locked onto the phone unable to be removed, even if sammy woke up right then, she didn't know if she could take her mind away from calling, just the answering machine to hear the voice. She tried promising herself on last time. She kept repeating it, still looking at the phone. As she slowly and almost inaudibly slipped out of the bed, her hand grabbed for the phone as she tip toed out of the bedroom. Slowly down the hall she came to the nursery at the end. Still empty. She wished she could give him what he wanted, but they'd been having difficulty for conceiving a child. She knew it might have been the stress that had caused it, with him being a hunter and Haley soon being the only girl on the road with him and dean. Haley reached the end of the hall as she looked over the large tilted bathroom, turning around she locked the door behind her and turned the light off as she flipped open her phone. She closed her eyes. She knew she was doing wrong, but she just couldn't help it. It was too hard. Too difficult. As she pressed the dial button a long beep rang out several times before it cut off, and an automated voice answered, ''please leave your message after the tone,'' and a long hard tone beeped out in her ear, then there was silence, before she stammered ''Hi...it's Haley,'' she whispered. Slowly she let her mind run free, ''I miss you so much, and I feel so bad for calling you,'' she let a single tear fall down her cheek, ''And I guess it hurts that I have to love two people right. Where are you? You never call these days...'' she chocked on the tears. ''And I'm worrying like hell, and sammy now picks on little things,'' she shook her head. ''I feel like a zombie half the time,'' she leaned against the cold tiles, feeling the slight wetness from the shower she'd taken a few hours back, ''But I guess I should go,''she shut the phone off quickly as her head hit the back of the tiles. ''I just want to forget,'' she cried out but she knew to be quiet. She couldn't have sammy hearing. Slowly with clumsy leg's she pushed off the floor. Pulling herself together. She looked around the dark room. She collected herself before her hand settled on the door handle. She pushed the door open, leading herself into the hall she passed the nursery again and made her way into the nursery again. In the corner lay the rocking, as she pulled the cot's embroidered blanked over her she sat in the rocking chair, looking out of the bay window she looked out into the night from the view of the country side around them. She knew one thing about the life was enjoying the moments.

As the time hit nine am. She felt the sun fall on her face, she was still awake. Still sitting there watching the sun rise had been beautiful. And full of wildlife, she'd seen a fox, a few rabbits and a badger. It had been okay. She felt a little better after watching that. She hadn't heard one murmur from Sammy all night. Which meant he had slept well. Haley brought her legs upon onto the rocking chair, as she brought the blanket up to her shoulders. She'd been thinking all night, but mostly about if she could stay in this house. With sammy right now. She felt as if she was lying to him every second of every day right now. She felt like a liar. She'd promised she'd never become that. Become what her mother had been. Closing her eyes she felt the sleep tiring her eyes. But she would not sleep, she would sleep the whole day otherwise. Haley heard a ruffle from the other room; Sammy was awake. Sammy knew she wasn't there because he'd soon left the room. And within seconds he was in the nursery beside her. ''You keep doing this hales, what's wrong?,'' he begged of her. She didn't answer, but stared ahead as if there were no soul left in her. Sammy leaned his head on her hand as he let out a helpless sigh. ''Please,'' he begged again, ''what can I do?,'' he asked. That's when Haley snapped out of her mood and looked over to Sam, ''that's the thing,'' she spoke her voice breaking with every word, she knew how much this was going to hurt her to say but also it would hurt him a lot more, ''you cant help me, I'm too far gone.'' she finished pulling her hand away from him and placing it in her lap her head turned back to look outside. She felt the stiffness from sammy as if he'd been smacked in his face with a bolder. Sammy left after a small while leaving Haley alone. She knew what she'd done. And she knew...there was no going back.

One single rain drop fell on the window, realising she looked up from the book she'd been reading. She still hadn't yet moved. Her mind taken away by the words that seemed like her life had been written on a page. If only she knew the ending. So she could end everything. Or if she had a happy ending like in the books. But she knew this was her own fault. She'd brought this upon herself. She'd done it to herself. Again and again. She felt a small buzz in her pocket, as her hand slid down into the blanket patting down her pockets till she found herself pulling it out deep from her pocket. She looked down ''one voice mail'' it stated. She slowly checked around for sammy before pressing 'listen' and pressing it to her ear.

''Hello hales, I miss you...i feel to bad to be around you these days. I miss you and sammy so much. The hunt keeps me from going insane. Everyday. Without you. Is like I die everyday.'' and it cut off. Haley pulled it away before she pushed herself off the chair quickly. She'd had enough.