Naruto is not mine.
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Part One
Sasuke.
My enemy.
The one person that I trust the most in my life now.
The one person that I can't talk to about who I'm in love with.
I love a boy.
I hate it, everyday I wish that it would be different.
I've never told a soul.
Some people maybe kind of suspious but thats for them to decide.
I'm almost sure that Shikamaru is onto my cover up.
My cover up is fawning over Sakura.
It might just be my imagination but it almost looks like I see jealousy in his eyes when he sees me with her.
I can never take a long enough look. He always looks away and doesn't talk to anyone. Not that he normally does.
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It was a chilly November day when I finally realized it.
My love for him.
I was walking with him. We were going to go train. Fight. Like always. I wasn't thinking and I brushed his hand with mine casually. It sent a spark down my spine. Made me me cringe in delight. I was confused at first but then I soon realized what I was feeling. Love. Love for someone I didn't want to love. Someone who hates me. Someone who I should hate too.
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"Dobe, what's wrong with you?" Sasuke asked as he stood across from me. I was just standing there, looking like an idiot. Looking at everything around me. Seeing only him. Sasuke. His hand had been so warm on mine. I found myself wishing for it back. Wishing for his warmth. I never thought that Sasuke would be warm, in any sense.
"Nothing teme," I said gaining the fierce competitive look into my eyes. I wish I really could be feeling fierce right now. But all I want to do is curl up in a ball and sleep. Or just sit and think. It isn't easy when you finally find out that you're head-over-heels in love with someone who you consider a close friend.
But I'm pretty sure Sasuke hates me.
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I fought as usual that day. And the next and so on. But Sasuke wasn't stupid. I think that he could see right through my poor attempt at a mask. He didn't know what I was hiding. Just that there was something I didn't want anyone to see.
So he asked me what was wrong. In the scariest way possible.
Nicely.
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"Naruto, walk with me for a moment," Sasuke said as he pulled me off the road and into the woods around the village. Stopping by a tree he looked me in the eye. "What is making you so unhappy?" Sasuke asked me desperately. He looked so concerned about me that I didn't want to lie even though I knew if I told him the truth he would hate me forever. "Don't you dare lie to me either."
"Its just. There is the person that I'm in love with. And they don't know, and it's killing me inside because I want them to know. But I don't want them to hate me," I said sighing. That should be good enough for him.
"You should just tell her. What have you got to lose?"
Apparently not.
"It's not a her." I watched as Sasuke's expression changed. To good or bad I don't know.
"Oh," Sasuke said getting up. "That's interesting."
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To Be Continued
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Another thing for NaNoWriMo. I'm just getting soo much done. I'm proud.
Please tell me what you think. The next little bit will be out by tomorrow.
Thanks
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