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A/N: This is my first 'smutty' fanfic! So please comment and let me know your thoughts! R&R and thanks for reading!

His sea-green eyes darkened with lust as he murmured my name. "Syed".

I kissed his soft lips passionately, coaxing his mouth open. I could see in his eyes that he had no fight left in him. Our tongues danced together in perfect sync. God, I wanted him so much. I felt his hands on my back, casually running his hands along, feeling every muscle. I flinched as his cold hands slipped beneath my shirt, but I didn't break the kiss, just squirmed. He held me close and despite our lips being conjoined I could feel his smile. His hands were causing my skin to tingle with excitement. He followed my spine right to the top. I squirmed again trying to come out of his grasp he was just millimetres away from my weak spot. He touched the skin just above it, making circular motions with his fingers. I closed my eyes, conscious of the movement in my groin area. My lover was almost upon it. As he hit my weak spot, I broke the kiss and let out a soft groan. His chuckle was throaty and his breath washed over my face.

"Not another one"? I nodded unable to speak as he began repeating the sequence.

"Only one more to go" I watched as he sexily raised an eyebrow, in the way that only Christian Clarke could pull off.

"Sound's like a challenge"

"Oh, it is". I was attempting to sound sexy, but I think I failed miserably. I was barely able to form coherent responses around him.

"Come to bed"? I asked quietly. I wanted to feel him inside me, on me, next to me. It was something that I constantly craved yet never was never satisfied.

His fingers swept up to my face, tingling the skin it left behind.

"You're so beautiful, do you know that"?

I could feel a blush creeping up my neck as my heart jumped around. Every part of his face showed me that he truly meant it. These 'off hand' comments that he made were the ones that I remembered most, especially at night when I had to return to the other side of my 'double life'. It was what my mind played over hundreds of times. It was what caused hundreds of questions in my head yet the biggest one was always the same. Why did I keep returning?

My mind was temporarily distracted as my eyes focused on a naked Christian. My mouth dropped open. He winked at me, as he strolled over to the bed, stretched and laid down watching me. I stared at him stupidly. Almost as if he read my mind, he answered the unasked question.

"You were quite clearly busy thinking about something, so I thought I'd get a head start in undressing".

I felt my facial expressions change into a broad grin as my eyes scanned his body. I greedily drunk the details of his body in as I removed my own clothes. His bulging biceps were resting beneath handsome face. His 6 pack was taut as his muscles strained against his skin. My eyes went down further. His pelvic was a perfect v shaped as it led into his cock. My eyes widened slightly as I saw it stirring.

"Are you going to stand over there enjoying the view or actually get some work done"?

His cheeky voice was like music to my ears.

"Well this view is spectacular, so if you don't mind I'm going to enjoy it".

He smiled, quickly scanning his eyes up and down me.

"Have you been working out, Sy"?

I smiled as I walked over to him, my eyes fixed on him.

"Yeah … with you".

He grinned.

"Thought so".

"It's all those push up's you have me doing, the squats …".

"And don't forget the bench presses".

I laughed out loud. I'd made it to the bed and unashamedly stared at him. Just the thought of our bodies moving together, clutching at each other, his tender strokes was enough to turn me on.

"Thinking dirty thoughts are we"?

I jumped out of my stupor.

" Yes". The words were out before I could stop them. My honesty shocked me. Suddenly, I didn't care if he knew that I thought about him all the time.

I climbed onto the bed now fully naked. "I think about you all the time, I can't stop". I gently rested my body onto his. Kissing his face, I spoke between each one. "My first thought in the morning and the last one at night all consist of you". I ran my hands down the side of his face. Christian tilted his head straight back, eyes closed, allowing the words to wash over him. I kissed the base of his neck. His body jerked.

"Ah, I've found one".

"You found it on the first night but never realised". His words vibrated against me. I flitted my tongue in and out, around the hollow base. Christian's hands ran into my hair. My body was tingling as Christian hands explored my back. I continued kissing his neck, breathing in his scent. Everytime I released my tongue, I could feel him stirring underneath me.

"Look at me Sy".

Syed pulled his head back slowly, allowing our eyes to meet. I stared deep into the pools of chocolate that were ahead of me. Sighing, I pushed his hair back with one hand before tracing his soft lips. How could I put it into words? How could I seriously explain to him that this was going beyond an affair and had been for some time. I chose not to answer, the urge of allowing our bodies to connect was in the forefront of my mind.

I ran my hands down his body swiftly, before arriving at my destination point. He understood what I wanted and rolled over onto his back.

Christian stood tall over, every part of his stance oozed sexiness. I closed my eyes and he began working on me. My limp cock hardening with his touch. His hands were soft, and he was caressing me. I groaned for him. The nerve endings stood on the edge, electrified.

"Christian". His voice was thick as I worked my hand up and down in long slow movements. Dragging out his orgasm was pleasurable within itself.

"What's wrong Sy"? I ran my other hand up and down his chest knowing full well he was reaching his peak.

"Do you like it? Me running my hands up and down cock? Do you like it when I lick your cum?"

"You know I do. Lick me please".

I grinned at him and kissed his mouth lightly. His face showed me that was all he wanted. Every crevice on his face was focused on me and that in itself was the biggest turn on in itself.

"Seeing as you asked so nicely"

I looked up into the emerald gems that were hovering above my eyes. His voice was husky and low. I reached up and unexpectedly kissed his soft mouth, pulling him into me. All of thoughts of him licking me were gone. I wanted to taste him.

Our tongues danced together as I tried to make sense of his kiss. His eyes never left mine, and the touch of his hands running up and down my back was .. heavenly. Syed slipped his hand out from underneath our bodies, ever so casually brushing past my hardened nipple as he did so. I could hear him banging him his hand on the table for the condoms. I tried to break the kiss, to check myself but he pulled me instantly back onto him. He teasingly nibbled my lip. My body chose to respond and I could myself stirring against his inner thigh.

"Christian" I panted from the kiss, pulling away. "There's no more condoms"

My eyebrow flew up in surprise.

"What already? I bought the lar-"

He cut me off tipping the packet upside down in front of me. I groaned and rolled next to him. I really didn't want to go out to the Minute Mart, especially as it was snowing outside. An idea came to my head … it lingered and I watched him from the corner of my eye. I felt deeply about him. We didn't have to use condoms. I was clean, Syed was too so what was stopping us? I turned on the bed, facing him side on, running my hands up and down his chest, I spoke.

"Sy"….

"Hmm"? He was deep in thought about something.

"What do you think about us not using a condom"?

I studied him expression intently, as the question hung in the air between us. We'd been 'together' for nearly 6 months now. His eyebrows furrowed together as he thought about it. I could tell that he was fixing his expression not to give anything away.

I turned to look at the gorgeous man who was laying next to me, who was asking for this huge thing from me.

"I don't – know". The hesitancy in my voice told him all that he needed to know. I knew that he read the fear in my voice. A pang of sadness flashed across his face momentarily before he jumped up from the bed and started reaching for his boxers.

"We'll do it without a condom".

"It's fine Sy. I'll be back before you know it". His face was completely neutral but his eyes told me how much he wanted us not to use protection. I was ready for this. My protests fell on deaf ears as he scrounged the room for his clothes.

"What's your shoe size, Christian"?

I stopped in my tracks, my hand not quite touching my boxers. Slowly I spun on the spot.

"You what"?

"It's a simple question Christian. What. Is. Your. Shoe. Size". He dragged the last few words out elaborately. God, never had the words 'what is your shoe size' ever sounded so damn hot. I watched him as he lounged on the bed, now far more comfortable than when I'd asked him.

"Just answer it please"

"Um, Size 10. Why"?

"Ah, makes sense". His eyes travelled down to my groin area before travelling back up to my eyes. It was the intensity of his gaze that sent the shivers through me.

I watched him shake his head slightly. His face looked confused for a moment.

"What's wrong Christian"? I swung my legs off the bed before casually strolling over him. Secretly, I revelled in his scrumptious gaze over my body. "Something wrong"?

"Yeah there is actually" I said, allowing him to slip his arms around my waist. "One minute we're talking about condoms and the next minute we're talking about shoe sizes?" I couldn't keep the surprise out of my voice.

"They're linked" I allowed Syed's sensual voice to flow over me.

"How"?

"Are you buying small, medium, large or extra large condoms"?

"You can't answer a question with a question". I stopped short. Throwing my head back I laughed.

"It took you long enough to catch on, I thought I was going to have to spell it out for you".

I gazed adoringly at my lover as he continued to laugh deeply. I was tilted back in his arms, and our pelvis's were touching. I could feel the laugh vibrate along from his gut. He hugged me tightly.

"Who told you that guys with large feet have large penis's eh"?

"Just some guy from school. I thought he was joking but I guess looking at the size of you, there must be some truth in what he said right"?

I just laughed, breathing Syed in, instead. God, he was intoxicating in every sense of the word! I felt two cool hands cupped around my face. Sy looked deep into my eyes before kissing me deeply. His hands travelled down my torso and he slowly started massaging me. I jerked awake in his hand. I pulled back.

"Condoms".

"No".

"Are you sure"

I scanned his face for the slightest look that could tell me that he didn't want this as much as I did, but I couldn't find one. Confident that this was what we both wanted, I tilted Syed back with my hand firmly on his lower back and carried him over to the bed. We tumbled over as both our hands wandered over each other's skin. I could feel my fingers tingling. He opened his legs. I chuckled.

"Patience, Sy".

He groaned. Instead, I start kissing his neck slowly. Working my way down, I kissed, nibbled and licked Syed. I reached his navel and licked around it. I could feel him tensing up as my tongue flitted around. With my left hand, I started playing with his cock. Within moments, it was no longer limp as my hand began to work on him. I started at the balls and worked my way upwards. I allowed my tongue to dart here and there revelling in the taste of him. I knew his unique taste now and could probably taste him in my dreams. His cock was hardening. More cum leaked down his cock and I licked it long, hard and deliberate.

"Please. Just. Do it".

I smiled.

"Wow, we really are impatient aren't we"?

"Please" He opened his legs and I met his brown eyes. My own resolve was weakening. My heart thudded but from the excitement. My breathing increased just slightly as I began teasing him. I inserted just the head in before withdrawing again. I inserted myself again, before withdrawing, each time going further in. I was hard. For the final time, I fully pushed myself in and Syed bit his lip. Reaching over I stroked his face.

"Are you ready Sy"?

His eyes were fiery and his smile was sincere.

"I've never been more ready for anything in my life".