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To my dear fallen star,
Three years ago today you decided to leave this world. And although I still do not fully understand why you made that decision, I still love you. Cam, not a day has passed by when I have not thought of you. Every day you have been the beacon in my storm, the one who guided me through the difficulties during the past few years. Despite you not being here physically, I know that you are at least in my heart and in my dreams, so you have not technically left me yet. I hope you never do because even though it was for just a fraction of time, a blink in the history of the world, you were at one point, my everything. I am going to be graduating from Degrassi in a few weeks, and in a lot of ways it hurts to know that you won't be present watching me accept my diploma. But to be quite honest, I owe it to you. For if you were never here, I would have never made it down the dark and cruel road that would become the rest of my high school career without any sort of guidance. I wish there were an easy way to tell you how much of an impact you made on my life and how you will always be in my heart forever. But words have always been one of my weaknesses. I was never particularly good at opening up. Writing this letter is difficult but these thoughts need to be said and I so badly wish that you could read them and see them and know that I miss you so damn much, and that I will always miss you, Cam.
When I fall asleep at night I like to think of you as a star in the sky, shining brightly, letting everyone back here on Earth feel safe. Even if it's not true, you make me feel safe. Sometimes that thought is what keeps me going through the day, knowing that once night falls, you will be shining brightly down, leaving behind stardust, which means that you are not completely gone because stardust is infinite. You are infinite, Cam. And though you did not believe that three years ago, it is very obvious by the way I can't get you out of my thoughts and dreams that you are with me forever. And I am with you forever. I forever love you, my star, my hero, my soulmate. I will see you again one day soon.
Through the universe and back,
Maya Matlin