I'm sorry, I couldn't resist. she said something along the lines of not knowing what you have until it's too late and she looked at Deeks before the 5-O boys came in and I just couldn't stop it.
Too Late
I'm too late. I waited thinking I'd have all the time in the works and now it's too late. He's dying and there's nothing anyone can do about it. My regret is never making a move, I always thought he'd be the one to make a move. I waited thinking that we'd have our time. Now I'll never know what it's like to love him. To wake up with him by my side. I'll never hear him say he loves me in the throes of passion and I'll never be able to experience anything I've dreamed of. All the flirting, the bantering, the glances, the subtle brushes and phrases. I can't believe I let it all slip through my fingers. I had him within my reach each and every day and I never took advantage of it. Now as I sit beside his hospital bed watching health slowly drain out of him, I can't help the tears that fall. For years he's been the closest thing I've had to a best friend. Deeks has always been the one person to come running to my aid or offer a shoulder or an ear. He's always been the one to ease my pain and be the first one by my side for the simplest of things. I wonder how things would have been if I had only taken a chance and grabbed him and kissed him like there was no tomorrow. Because now there really is no tomorrow. The doctors said Deeks had only four hours to live before the virus kills him. One cut and one case with the plague and Deeks was the one who decided to be the hero and accidentally get the white powder all over his cut. Now here we are. He's dying and I'm crying. His lips are turning blue and he keeps coughing. No blood has come up yet butI can't bear to watch him suffer but I also can't leave him. I hate myself and all my previous reservations. Its cost me any potential chance at happiness with Deeks. "I'm so sorry for being a coward." I whisper somberly, looking to my partner who lies barely conscious in containment. I've defied the doctors telling me to leave, that he could infect me. I'm not going to leave his side, not now. It is too late to ask for anything more than a final farewell. I've wasted the time I'd been given with Deeks. I'm too late.
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I'm sorry this was a tad depressing. On the bright side, I watched 14 LA episodes from season 3 today. Made it all the way to Neighborhood Watch. Mmm, what a loaded episode;) so please leave me a review and let me know what you thought of it.