AN: Fixing my story and getting back into.
Faith POV
Can't belive sunny D is gone... sitting here on the edge of the crater, legs dangling over the 90 foot drop, cigg perched in between my lips.
I inhale deeply an exhale ignoring the light headedness. Lookin down into the hole that used to be a city, I can't help but remember all the good an the bad memories of the place makes me feel all nostalgic .
As if on cue B comes and sits next to me. We don't speak for a few minutes but then she looks at me.
" You ok? You've been over here by yourself for awhile now." she says almost softly.
Weird not used to any least of all Buffy worryin about me. I cock my head to the left an raise an eyebrow.
" You here to keep me company B?" I wriggle my eyebrows at her and wink.
I could've sworn I saw a blush,whats that about? I laugh and flick the rest of my cigarette into the pit and stand up.
"Come on Buffy we should get moving to where ever the hell it is we're going."
Looking over the crater for the first time, I realize how late it is. I'm not one to be all teary over a beautiful sunset but this one damn near made me cry, the hues of pink and blue an black swirling together really was an amazing sight.
But looking down at Buffy again... I can't help thinking that sudenly the sunset isn't quite as apealing anymore.
"We're heading to L.A. I gave Angel a call told him we needed a place to crash till we get the new council set up in cleveland."
She looks up at me and she looks sad, I offer her my hand and she takes it.
I haul her up, I was about to ask her what was wrong but before I could she pulled me into a tight hug, tucking her head into the crock of my neck. Caught off guard I stand there akwardly before I realize I should probably put my arms around her.
Being this close to her drive me all kinds of crazy, the feelin and her honey doo smell, shes has always been able to make me feel like this like im fallin but still standing in one place.
When I was younger I would've pushed her away and ran. The feelin was always to much for me back then and I could feel her through a connection we had an I knew she was'nt as affected by me as I was, am, by her.
I chuckle in my head realizing just how much I've grown up since then, how much I've grown to miss this feeling.I feel her shaking and hear her soft whimpers an know shes crying.
Never been good at comforting someone but I try anyways. I rub my hands on her shoulders and then let my left roam up to the back of her neck, letting my fingers trace small paterns there and whispering soft words of comfort.
We stay like this for a long time, my heart racing away a mile a minute. After what seems like a lifetime, Buffy pulls her head back an looks me dead in the eyes, even tear faced she's still the most beautiful woman I've ever seen.
Without breaking eye contact I wipe away her tears and tuck a few stray strands of hair behind her ear, letting my fingertips linger on her cheek a little longer then I should have. B's eyelids flutter and her breathing turns ragged as she whispers almost breathless.
"Faith..."
I waited for her to say more but she just kept looking at me her eyes searching mine for something, through our connection I feel her confusion mixing with my own.
"B...Buffy what are you looking for?" She just looks down and then back up and said, "Faith can you feel me?"
I did'nt understand her question of course I felt her, my arms are wraped around her.
" I mean my emotions...Because I can feel you Faith. I can feel your confusion right now...I can feel love and want and I can feel your pain...for me your sadness. But can you feel me?" She looks at me her eyes have something in them..hope?
But all I can think about is that she knows I love her...but shes not moving away, not ripping my arms away and punching me in the face...Should I tell her I've always felt her? Fuck it, to late to turn back now.
I look into her hazle green eyes and try to think of how to tell her. I sigh,
" B I've felt you since the night I first saw you in the bronze. I did'nt understand how or why I could, but I fell in love with you then and it scared me, thats why I pushed you away and hurt you...I'm sorry for what I did back then."
Looking into her eyes I see a spark and she smiles. " Faith don't..we both did horible things to each other back then and none of it maters anymore."
She slides her hands up my arms, I hadn't realized I had droped them.
" All that maters is what we do now." Her hands travel and lock around the back of my neck. I put my hands round her waist and pull her closer to me. I flash the dimples and wrigle my eyebrows at her.
"And what are we doing now?" I smile and she chuckles low in her throat it sounds almost like a pur. she smiles at me and says.
" Finaly just letting go...just giving into the feeling instead of pushing each other away..." But before I could say a response Buffy leans in and brushes her lips to mine for a few seconds neither of us moving just feeling. B pulls back just enough to rest her forehead on mine. I closed my eyes trying to find my voice.
" Buffy...why.."
Before the slow coming words would could come out Buffy's lips were on mine again, soft and gentle. I pull her closer to me deepening the kiss, her tounge teases my lower lip, asking for entrence, I part my lips and she slides her tounge in,rolling it over mine teasing it ever so. I moan into her mouth, unable to stop myself. She taste's like honey.
I pull us apart after a few minutes taking in some much needed air, looking over Buffys shoulder I see the gang all looking shocked save for Red and Speacial K who are smirking.
Still tangled up in B, I remove my arms from her and unlock her hands from behind my neck and take a step back. Buffy opens her eyes an gives me a confused look and takes a step towards me. I laugh and say,
" B as much as I enjoy kissing you we're drawing a crowd."
I point over her shoulder, she blushes and looks behind her. The scoobies are all standing there looking at us like we grew a third tit and Red a Ken are still smirking! I hate being smirked at.
I step up and grasp Buffy's forearm lightly." Come on they won't bite."
I walk forward letting my hand drop and B surprise's me by sliding her hand into mine. Looking down I can't help but smile at our intertwined fingers. We walked to the still shocked group and B still bright red says,
" Come on guys we should get going to L.A." I laugh and pull her towards the bus, everybody finaly snaps outa their little girl on girl action induced coma and follows. I make my way up the steps into the bus and see wood lying on the floor. I let go of Buffys hand and reach down to check robins pulse. Nothing.
"Shit." I curse. Buffy looks down with sad eyes and says," We can burry him before we leave."
I let out a thank you and pick up his body. I carry him outside.
" Red!"
I shout, she looks over at me and runs to see whats wrong. " Is he ok?" I shake my head no.
" He must've bleed out his wound was pretty bad. Do you know any spells to move dirt so we can burry him?"
She nods and begins chanting. Soon about a Ton an a half of sand rise's up from the ground leaving a perfect grave. she motions for me to place him in. I step forward and slide him in, I cross his arms and close his big brown eyes. I climb back out and Red covers him. i grab two sticks and make a cross. placing it above his grace I whisper," Thank you for always surprising me...but no way you were prettier then me." I smile an I kiss the cross.
I turn around and make my way back towards the bus. " Faith..."
Buffy reaches out to me I grab her hand and pull her into the bus. We make our way to the back careful not to wake up the sleeping slayers. We sit an we stay quite untill everyone is back on board again. Giles takes the wheel and we begin our way through the desert to the City Of Angels. I've missed tall dark and broody can't wait to see him. I turn to B who's looking at me worried.
" You ok?" I nod," Yeah, Buf I'm fine...But we need to talk. What was that back there?"
She's silent for a moment, and I know she's just thinking of how to tell me so I let her think itn peace. When she finaly turns and speaks to me its not what I expecteed to hear.
" Faith I've always felt you, since the first time we met, my eyes kept drifting to you while you danced with disco dave. It's why I followed you out, at the time I tired to rationalize following you by sayin that you were just a girl alone with a vamp and you needed my help, but even when it became clear that you were'nt just a girl I still wanted to follow you..protect you. I loved you and it scared the hell out of me. It's why I pushed you away, it's why I always kept you at an arms length and I'm sorry for that. But Faith after everything we've been through I don't want to keep myself away from you anymore. I want, no I need you Faith."
She leans in and kisses me softly, she moves to my jaw and down my neck leaving wet kisses to be abused by the cold night air coming in through an open window. She makes her way to my pulse point and bites down hard on it. It's everything I have to not make a sound. She licks the mark she made on me and brings her face back to mine.
" Faith open your eyes." I open them and shes centimeters away from me. I shiver at her nearness and give her a quick kiss before I say," So what does this mean for us?" Buffy bites her bottom lip as she thinks and says," Well.. We both love each other, and we both definatly love the kissing...sooo why not make things offical? Faith will you be my girlfriend?" And just like that I was hers and she was mine. Buffy wants me to be her girlfriend! Is it posible for me to finaly get my happy ending? All I know is that the Fall is certainly going to be the eaisest part.
AN:SOOOOO what do you guys think so far? Read and review flames are welcomed tell me what I need to improve on!