After giving it much thought I decided to give up on 'The Secrets of the Black Raven' and write something else.This story contains the first four chapters of the 'Secrets' but everything else has been changed.I'm writing a Blackfire/Raven fic.And it WILL involve graphic seks,extreme violence and bloodshed.Romance included.Don't like don't read.

All standard disclaimers apply

Chapter1:

Routine

Raven stretched in her bed and felt her muscles relax.She got up,mumbeling something and scratching her head.Her hair was a mess and she barely managed to find the bathroom door,her eyes still half closed.She took off her pyamas and stood under the shower,enjoying the hot water that caressed her body.Slowly,she began to truly wake.Her hands followed the curves of her body,paying special attention to her intimate areas.Now clean,she brushed her teeth and once again cursed her bad breath.Nothing helped!She tried the strongest toothpastes,mouth water,dentists,bubble gums…Bubble gums proved to be the least efficient.And she almost choked on one when she and the Titans tried to catch Mumbo.She started to chant when the gum rushed into her throttle and then Robin had to do the Heimlich…it was so embarassing.Raven spitted out the water and looked herself in the mirror.

'Geez…I look like a junkie.' She thought,commenting her ever growing paleness and eye rings.She cursed and grabbed some clean clothes from the closet,not that she had a great choice.The only ''normal'' shirt in the closet has a label ''Legalize Everything'' on it.Finally dressed(in her usual leotard and the cape) she went towards the kitchen.It was still to early for the other Titans so she enjoyed the silence and listened to the water boil.The silence grew stronger with time so she started to hum a melody.She stopped when she realized that the melody is from a Britney Spears song.With a few creative curses regarding miss Spears she poured the hot water over the tea bag.She walked towards the window and admired the rising sun while the cup kept her hands warm.It seemed that it will be a nice day-filled with laughter,friendly jokes,birds,bees and pop music.

'Errr…no it won't.' Raven thought and tasted her tea.The taste sent shivers down her spine.'I'll stay here for the next hour,watch the early news,curse the president…and when the happy bunch comes here they'll say 'Good morning Raven!' and that will be the only thing they'll say to me today…except if some idiot decides to rob a bank or something.Yup,things are just great for Raven.'

She sat on the couch and turned the TV on.

…police says that the so-called satanists that kidnapped and sacrificed several children in the last two weeks are actually a gang of young catholic school students that tried to prove the existance of God by summoning the devil.There is no information about their success or…''

''Stupid assholes.Why would Satan be interested in a few dead kids?'' She grunted and changed the channel.

''Praise Jesus!Jesus is love!God is love!Jesus is God!Turn from the evil of abortion,homosexuality and magic and let the Light shine!Buy our new and revised Bible…''

''Yeah.Right.Is that why one of your altar boys gives you a blowjob before the mass?'' Raven smiled with contempt,gathering information from the soul of the world.She changed the channel again and finnally found something worth watching.Cartoons.

But she was without luck.She heard footsteps in the hallway and the door opened to reveal the still sleepy following the 'good morning Raven' routine them all made breakfast for themselfs and as usually BB and Cyborg were arguing,Starfire was talking and Robin was silent.

Raven shruged her shoulders,got up and went to the roof to meditate.The next two hours were pretty much monotone for Raven.She moved only once,when a pidgeon mistaked her for a statue.

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When she opened her eyes she saw Starfire flying around the Tower happily.She made piruettes,loops and dives.A festival of joy.Deep within she wished she could join her.But she couldn't.Her mind already marked the activity as pointless.

''Friend Raven!Would you like to compete with me in the skill of flying?'' Starfire shouted to Raven who was already going towards the stairs.

''No thanks Starfire.'' She simply said.

''Oh!Friend Raven is scared that her ass might get kicked!'' Starfire giggled.Raven froze.

'Fear.I have no fear.' She thought and ran towards the Towers edge.She jumped and freefalled all the way down,starting to ascend seconds before she would hit the ground.Raven flew past Starfire with great speed,and the alien girl squealed from joy and started to chase her.It was a magnificent show,but the difference between the competitors was far from being small.Starfire saw the competition as a game,while Raven wanted to prove her supremacy.And while Starfire felt glorious while using her body Raven was soon exhausted.Flying uses way too much of her bodys resources.She started to slow down and Starfire catched her in a metal twisting hug.She smiled at the goth and complimented her skills.But Raven still felt like screaming untill her lungs collapse.But she didn't show it.

The girls landed and were greeted with a bark from a big green dog.The ''dog'' jumped on Starfire and started to lick her all over,which made her giggle.Raven however was more than sure what was on the ''dogs'' mind.

''Stop it!Stop it!'' Starfire begged and laughed,unable to push the beast away.Raven was getting bored with the sight so she raised her hand and black power grabbed Beast Boy and threw him over the edge of the Tower.Seconds later a green hawk flew above Raven while squawking in frustration.

''Shut up.'' Raven said with a tired voice and went towards the stairs,followed by the alien girl.

'Need to be alone.Need to think.' She thought and went to her room,not answering Starfire's questions.Raven lied on her bed and closed her eyes.

'I need a change.'

The end of chapter one.R&R