I've been sittin' here starin' at the clock on the wall.
An' I've been layin' here prayin', prayin' she won't call.
Kagome lay wide-awake in her sleeping bag. Her big brown eyes stared at the digital watch she had brought with her. Little acid green numbers shone innocently on the screen. She could hear the even breathing of her companions, signifying the fact that they were asleep. All, that is, except for one.
Even though her back was turned, Kagome knew Inuyasha was still there, watching over the ragtag group like a leader over his pack. And somehow, she knew that he knew she was awake. It was amazing how far he had come. When they first met, Inuyasha was a miserable hanyou who was angry at the world and afraid to let people in. Now, he had friends who really cared about him and, although Kagome wasn't sure he realized it, a living, breathing woman who loved him with all her heart.
The numbers on the small wristwatch changed to 10:45and Kagome saw a familiar white serpent slither through the woods. Ironically, when she first came here, she would've screamed and jumped as far away as possible at the sight of one of them. She closed her eyes, as if in pain, and a single thought flitted through her brain: No…
It's just another call from home,
You'll get it an' be gone an' I'll be cryin'.
Kagome sat up and saw that Inuyasha was still there. He was too busy watching the glowing snake that he hadn't noticed Kagome sit up. As she watched him, she could feel the sadness and dread well up inside of her. She knew that if he didn't leave soon, he'd smell her tears. He hated seeing women cry. The way his ears flattened against his head and the way he looked like a child about to be punished made Kagome feel guilty. She didn't want to hurt him so much.
Please, Inuyasha, Kagome thought, please don't go to her.
There was a streak of red and silver…and he was gone. Tears glistened in Kagome's frustrated brown eyes and she collapsed to her pillow, quietly sobbing as to not wake her friends.
An' I'll be beggin' you baby, beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waitin' with my heart on my sleeve.
The next day, Kagome acted like nothing was wrong. She argued with Inuyasha and sat him a couple times to keep anyone from suspecting the plan she was concocting. She went with Sango to the hot springs, helped battle demons, purified any shards they found, and sat Inuyasha for picking on Shippo.
Kagome knew Kikyo would probably call for Inuyasha again. So she shouldn't have been hurt when he left again. Funny how one moment, he was like the protective leader of their group, and the next, he was chasing after some undead clay pot. She didn't know why Inuyasha still went to her. It couldn't be because of Kikyo's warmth; death stole whatever warmth she once possessed away from her.
Oh, for the next time we'll be here,
Seems like a million years an' I think I'm dyin'.
Kagome knew that the Kikyo who existed before the whole Naraku fiasco was a kind, caring, beautiful woman. But, in the end, it was her own kindness that led to her untimely demise. If she hadn't tried to help Onigumo, he wouldn't have fallen in love with her and would've died and Naraku would never had existed. And if Naraku had never existed, Kikyo wouldn't have died so young and blamed Inuyasha. Inuyasha wouldn't have been pinned to the Go-Shinboku. He would've probably become human and lived with Kikyo. If Naraku didn't exist, Sango would still have her brother and fellow taijya. Miroku wouldn't have his cursed Wind Tunnel and would still have his father. And as for Kagome herself, she would live an ordinary life as an ordinary girl.
But would she really? The only reason things happened as they did was because Kikyo had left the earth with unfinished business. Kagome was Kikyo's reincarnation. But, if Kikyo didn't die so young and so tragically, would Kagome, as she knew herself, really continue existing?
What do I have to do to make you see she can' love you like me.
Why don't you stay? I'm down on my knees.
With a frustrated sigh, Kagome shook her head, trying to get rid of those thoughts. No use dwelling on what ifs and might have beens. All they ever got anyone was a headache and left them feeling worse than they did to start with.
Kagome knew she was being selfish, but she didn't care. Kikyo was dead and Kagome was alive. Kikyo could never keep Inuyasha warm. She could never give him the love he deserved because she existed on her hate for him. She could never give him any children.
The last one made Kagome blush out of embarrassment.
I'm so tired of bein' lonely,
Don' I give you what you need?
"Kagome-sama?"
"Huh?" Kagome looked up to see the purple-robed monk standing by her.
"Oh, hey Miroku, what's up?"
Miroku sat down beside her. He looked at the fire and silence passed between the two. Finally, he spoke.
"Kagome-sama. It's late. Shouldn't you be off to sleep like Sango and Shippo?"
Kagome smiled sadly at him. She looked up at the sky and answered. "I guess so. But shouldn't you be as well?"
"I'm on guard duty, remember?"
"Oh, yeah. Almost forgot about that."
Kagome stood up, yawned and stretched. "Well, I'm off to bed Miroku. See ya in the morning."
"Sleep well, Kagome-sama."
As Kagome drifted off to sleep, she had only one thought in her head:Inuyasha…why don't you stay here with me?
When she calls you to go, there is one thing you should know.
We don't have to live this way; baby, why don't you stay?
The next battle the group fought was fierce. The demon had six Jewel shards. But in the end, their combined teamwork brought the demon down. Kagome picked up the shards, instantly purifying them.
"Come on, Kagome. We've gotta go rip those two shards out of that damn wolf's legs." Inuyasha said as Kagome stood up. She nodded and grabbed her bicycle.
She trailed behind the group. Kagome smiled sadly at the shards in her hand. Two more…then I'll get out of Inuyasha's hair and leave for good. That's what he wants. The Jewel fragments…and Kikyo.
You keep tellin' me baby, there will come a time
When you will leave an' forever be in mine.
Convincing Kouga to give up his Jewel fragments was easier than Kagome expected. Turns out, Kouga would do anything for "his woman". After merging the last two fragments with the others, Kagome held the 3/4ths completed Jewel up so the rest of the group could see it. All the while, this one thought was in her head: If he leaves tonight, I'll leave as soon as he's gone and everyone else is asleep.
He left that night.
Maybe, if he had known what would happen, he would've stayed. We'll never know. All that matters is that he left, and Kagome was fed up.
But I don't think that's the truth,
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waitin'.
A Jewel detector. That's all she was to him. He made it clear plenty of times. The only reason she was still able to stay with the group was because she could sense Jewel shards.
As Kagome stumbled through the forest, she tripped on a tree root and nearly fell, and would've, hadn't she caught herself on the tree trunk. She rubbed her eyes and realized that she was crying. This pain was horrible.
It's too much pain to have to bare,
To love a man you have to share.
Kagome continued her trek through the well. She had yet to discover why she hadn't collapsed yet. She was moving much faster than usual. And that she could hear was her mind chanting: Don't slow down, don't slow down, don't slow down.
The moon lit her way and Kagome didn't stop, fearful that her will would break if she did.
Why don't you stay?
I'm down on my knees,
Inuyasha quietly entered camp. He looked around. Nothing seemed out of-wait. Where was Kagome? All of her stuff was gone, including that big, bulky yellow thing she called a back-pack.
Then the sent of fresh tears made itself known to his sensitive nose. Inuyasha wondered who was crying until the pieces clicked together.Shit. And Inuyasha bounded off after the futuristic priestess.
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don' I give you
what you need?
He doesn't love me, he'll never love me, whenever he looks at me, all he sees is Kikyo. Kagome thought as she ran towards the well.Kikyo, Kikyo, Kikyo! It's always about Kikyo! Kikyo this, Kikyo that, and Kikyo could do it better! Kagome's eyes were squeezed tight in anger. The tears flowed from her eyes; a clear marker for Inuyasha to follow her if he wanted.
When she calls you to go, there is one thing you
should know
We don't have to live this way, baby, why don't you
stay
Well I'm sick of it! Sick, sick, sick! If you want him, Kikyo, fine! Have him! I don't care anymore! Kagome's inner rant burst out of her mouth with the final declaration: "Inuyasha, I hate you!"
I can't take it any longer, but my will is
getting' stronger
An' I think I know just what I have to do
"Inuyasha, I hate you!"
Inuyasha's
heart stopped for a moment. Did Kagome-sweet, innocent, kind,
beautiful Kagome-actually say what he thought she just said? He could
smell her tears-an odd mix of anger and sadness-polluting her
beautiful scent of roses and sakura. He was a fool to be so cruel to
her. He could see the Bone-Eater's Well. The well Kagome used to
travel back and forth between her era and the Sengoku Period.
I can' waste another minute after all
that I've put in it.
I've given you my best, why does she get the best of you
Kagome took the nearly completed Shikon no Tama and looked at it. With a sigh she said, "Inuyasha, I know you're there. Come here. There's something I want to do.' Kagome turned and Inuyasha mentally kicked himself when he saw the trails that her tears left on her face. He walked up to her, his ears flat against his skull. Kagome smiled the way she did when she was about to sit him.
Time seemed to slow. All he was aware of was Kagome's coming towards him.
Clink! The Beads of Subjugation were off his neck and in Kagome's hands. Then Inuyasha felt something in his hand. It was the Shikon no Tama.
So next time you find,
You wanna leave her bed for mine…
"Go back to Kikyo."
Why don't you stay?
I'm up off my knees.
"Huh?"
Kagome started climbing into the well, she repeated, "Go back to Kikyo."
She jumped and a blue light signified the fact that she was gone.
I'm so tired of being lonely,
You can't give me what I need.
Inuyasha recovered from his shock and jumped in after her. No good.
Kagome had sealed up the well.
When she begs you not to go,
There is one thing
you should know:
Back in the Modern Era, Kagome smiled sadly back at the now-sealed (for good) well as she was about to shut the door.
"Whoever said love was what made the world go 'round was one sad, naïve little man."
I don' have to live this way,
Baby, why don't you stay.
"Class, may I introduced a transfer student all the way from America."
A young woman with gold-colored hair that was swept up into a hair ponytail and tied with a thin black hair tie and narrow cobalt eyes that were both mischievous and mysterious at the same time. She was athletic, and wore what at first glance appeared to be a normal school uniform, but this girl had pulled on modesty shorts and had sewn several emblems and badges all over her uniform. A pair of simple black sunglasses sat on top of her head and a fancy watch was around her left wrist. She had abandoned the big socks that the other girls wore and had put on a pair of white ankle socks.
"Hi, I'm Kimi Najwa."
Well? Should I continue or leave as is?
