This is a one shot drabble of Rick Bauer's secret feelings for his best friend since boyhood Phillip. I don't own Guiding Light or any of the characters. I know both men are straight but since this a fan fic and the two have a beautiful and heartfelt friendship-anything can happen right?
Rating: PG-13
How can I begin to describe him? My best friend since high school. Complex…yes. A little stubborn at times…yes definitely. But absolutely amazing without a doubt. I know more about him than anyone else-even his wife and one of my closest friends Beth. I keep telling myself I shouldn't feel this way about Phillip-legendary skirt chaser. I'm afraid he'll laugh at me or never talk to me again…no that's not him. If he's fine with Olivia, one of his ex wives shacking up with Natalia then what the hell but I'm his best friend whom he's known for many years and that is way different. More personal.
His laugh makes my heart jump which is not good at all due to a big surgery I had years ago. He says he was desperate sitting by my hospital bed waiting for me to wake up. The familiar spicy aroma of his cologne makes me weak. His smile makes me smile back. Those big blue eyes that I can't forget. His handsome face I secretly think about. Every time I see him wear a short-sleeved shirt, I want to feel those huge, muscular arms around me…in a more than just a buddy hug. Those jeans that cling to him so perfectly…damn it who am I kidding? I love Mindy I really do but Phillip has been a big part of my life for decades and she understands. But she won't when my urges for being more come out in the open.
His low, growly, deep voice gets to me in a way I can't explain. In the meantime, I put on this show of being his best friend, watching him and Beth hang all over each other in public. I can't tell him how I feel. I'll keep it in my head and my wildest dreams. The ones in which our lips, our touches and our forms can finally feel what I have been wanting for a long time. Only in my head will that happen.