Title: Permission Ch 1
Main characters: Logan Mitchell, James Diamond, Brooke Diamond
Side characters: Mr. Diamond, Kendall, Carlos, Camille, Hortence(OC) (Some are only mentioned)
Rating: Between K+ and T supposedly
Warning: Slash Jagan
Spoiler: Big Time Moms (mostly), some other episodes which I forgot the title
Summary: James and Logan are getting married. They're trying to get permission from James's parents. Told in Logan's POV.
A/N: In a universe where James's parents did not divorce. This was written before I got to listen clearly that James said his parents divorced and never talked again. I'm bad at listening in English, so sorry.
"We have been standing here for what? Almost an hour!" I sighed.
"I know, okay? Nothing will be solved if we do nothing! How about I knock the door, then you start the conversation about this, I will help if you stutter?" He suggested.
Sometimes I wished I could hate James for being a chicken in such important moment. But I knew he knew I couldn't stay mad at him long. Not that I had ever really got mad at anyone.
Uh, well, my name's Logan Mitchell. Born as Hortence Mitchell but apparently someone did not like that name. I didn't either, so when that someone changed it into Logan I was totally fine. Grateful even. I used to live here in Minnesota. I had three best friends named James, Kendall, and Carlos, with whom I spent my school days and played hockey. One day James told us he wanted to be a singer, and the audition was held in Los Angeles. Being what-friends-are-for, we supported James's dream by accompanying him there. James didn't pass, Kendall passed, but he did something that miraculously put all four of us in a boyband called "Big Time Rush." It was still a wonder to me how this all happened.
Lots of exciting things happened since that. We moved to L.A., which caused a little fight between me and my father. We lived fun life in Palm Woods. We recorded songs and music videos and held concerts. We became famous. Kendall got a girlfriend. Carlos tried to get one of three girlfriends. James became ladies' man. I hung out with a girl named Camille though we weren't really going out.
Why didn't I go out with Camille? Because I had been in love with James since I discovered my sexual orientation. Why did James never stick with one lady only? Because he was not into women either. He had also been in love with me. That was a fact we found out after few months of living together. Kendall and Carlos accepted wholeheartedly our relationship so nothing even mattered.
Now I was twenty. James recently proposed me, of course I agreed. The problem was how we got his mother's allowance.
Mrs. Diamond was… scary. No one could say no to what she ordered. James did, but only once. She was the one who changed my name after all. She almost destroyed Big Time Rush by almost taking James back to Minnesota. So she sooooo had the ability to split James and I up now.
That scared me more than anything. Even James too.
"Logie, stop spacing out!" James's voice turned my attention back into task at hand. "Are you alright?"
"Not fine, Jamie. I'm terrified."
He sighed and engulfed me in his warm embrace. "It'll be alright. Let's face this together, Logie. No matter what she'll say, I will never stop loving you and seeing you anytime I want." His words had some strange magical soothing effect, as always.
I nodded, feeling reassured. Gathering all my courage, I lifted my hand to knock the door. But before my hand even made a contact with the wood the door was opened.
"Whoaa!" Both James and I failed not to scream out of surprise.
We tensed down to know that it wasn't James's mother who opened the door, but the maid who had been working there ever since James first learned how to spell his name. "Young Master! What a surprise you came home! And Master Mitchell too. Welcome!" She smiled very warmly.
"Umm… Is Mom home?" James hesitantly asked.
"She is. Come on in, Master." I muttered a quiet thanks to her. She had always been nice towards me, Kendall, and Carlos.
Few minutes later, James and I were sitting together in one long couch, Mr. Diamond in one couch, and Mrs. Diamond in the other couch. I gulped uneasily. But James held my hand behind and squeezed it to give comfort for both of us.
"I'll get to the point, Mom. I…" James looked like he was ready. I closed my eyes. But no words came out. "I…" Darn, I should have learned how James was never the one to rely to admit something! Look how he failed to admit he kissed Camille years ago! "I….."
"We're planning to get married, Mr. and Mrs. Diamond, soon… So we're here asking for your permission…" Not only James and his parents, I too was surprised how easy it seemed to come out from my mouth. James's hand intertwined mine, telling how proud he was, reassuring that everything would turn alright. If he didn't do that, the following silence might have kill me.
"Well…" Mr. Diamond was the first one to speak. The silence was broken but that didn't make my thumping heart any better. "We have long known that our son is... into guys. I thought they were just his silly little crushes, who knows it turns to be serious?"
Wasn't that the beginning of a polite rejection? Tears slowly filled my eyes, but I swore I wouldn't cry.
"Dad, I really love Logan. I'm very serious about this. Please, Dad, Mom, let me marry him."
Mr. Diamond looked at his wife, who seemed to have the final decision. Neither male in the room could read her expression. Since she didn't show any sign that she was going to decide right that moment, Mr. Diamond continued to send me questions, "What qualities do you actually have, Logan, to dare marrying James? You do know that we want the best for our son, right?"
I turned to James, who was looking at me too. His eyes were encouraging, like he knew I was able to give the best answer in the world. Goddamn I didn't prepare any answers for that! "I love him. I can promise here right now that it is my will to continue to love him. If we're ever apart it must have been James's will to lea― oww!" I winced, perhaps too loudly. I looked at my lover questioningly and muttered 'why' silently. Why did he have to elbow my waist like that? It didn't really hurt though, just surprising. But couldn't he tell that I was super nervous right now?
He gave me a glare in return. "Why do you say that? You know I will never ever leave you! We will never ever be apart! Not even in an 'if'!"
"Yeah so what should I say? I can't think much. The quality I'm proud of is only how great my love for you!"
"You can say you're an amazingly talented singer, dancer, and rapper! You're also very smart! Being a doctor as a dream you can achieve anytime you decide to go to med school! You're kind, sweet, logical, you can keep me balanced, you are the only one that fits my narcissistic, egoistical, stupid behaviour. Tell my parents that!"
I almost forgot we were still in front of James's parents. He seemed did.
"Boys, stop it! How can you argue when you're asking for our permission? What if you two get into fight like everyday after you're married?" said Mr. Diamond. "Logan, with all honesty, I'm going to approve you. Don't make me change my mind, okay? It's up to your mother now, James."
Mrs. Diamond took a sip of her coffee that was previously served by the maid. "Well Logan I do have one simple question for you. My permission depends on your answer."
James's hand moved to capture mine again as I nodded. This time he didn't bother to hide it behind.
"Tell me why you keep going with the name 'Logan'. I remember telling your friends to call you that simply because I don't like the name 'Hortence'."
James and his father suddenly got interested as well.
She doesn't like you, Logie! She's just trying to find any reason to reject you! Whatever answer you throw, she's going to push you! My timid mind screamed. I shook my head slightly to kill those stupid bad thoughts. Just say the truth. It doesn't matter right? Just maybe, she's at least moved by your honesty!
"I was named after my father, exactly the same, Hortence Mitchell. Honestly, I never like my name. Not that I don't feel grateful, or think that the name is stupid, no. It's just, being named exactly the same with father is no fun. People mistook us a lot. There's one time when a girl sent me a love letter and my father got to read it. It was extremely embarrassing that way..." James rolled his eyes at my last sentence, but I didn't bother to explain that of course I rejected her. I took a deep breath to continue. "Receiving a new name from a best friend's mother I just met was surprising though. Kendall and Carlos started calling me Logan only around you because we feared you. But then I told them to call me Logan maybe just because I need a name that will distinguish me from my father."
"So you feared me? Hm? You still fear me?"
"Uh...sometimes?"
She asked even before I really finished my answer. "Now?"
So I answered right after she finished her question. "Yes!" I slapped my face. "I mean, I do fear you, because you're going to decide whether I will face my biggest fear, losing James."
Mrs. Diamond sipped her coffee again, while James and Mr. Diamond got more tensed. And me? I was far more than just tensed. I almost freaked out. My heart wouldn't keep its usually normal calm beat. My skin was cold with sweat. And if James didn't hold me I might have fainted since before.
"You're doing great, Logie. I can't believe you can be so brave. I'm proud of you!" said James quietly. He kissed my temple and laced our fingers together again.
"Really? Shouldn't I have said it's because she's the one given me that name or something? Because I like the name? Or anything?" I whispered back. "Shouldn't I have said I don't fear her at all? Or I really fear her? My answer sounds so timid and indecisive and cheesy at the end."
"No. Your honesty is one of the many things I love about you, Logie."
Mr. Diamond coughed again. Duh, I almost forgot we were still here again. Mrs. Diamond cracked a small smile. Wait, did that mean..? "So, Logan, mind if I give you another new name?"
I frowned. James did too. First, she was never the type to ask about it. She could have just told me to change my name like before. Second, was it just her hobby to change people's name? Weird.
"Mom? I'm really used to call him Logie now what new name you're going to give him? What about the permission? Do we get it?" James became frustrated.
"Ssh, James. You're so impatient. I asked Logan if he minds me changing his name again."
I shook my head to answer it. She looked amused. "You don't mind? Because you fear me?"
"No! Just because, uh, what's in the name? My only concern right now is not what my name is, Mrs. Diamond."
Suddenly she stood up. Spontaneously I jumped slightly at James's direction, startled. Had I been too insolent? I shut my eyes, expecting the worst. But Mrs. Diamond sat beside me, on the couch's armrest, pulled me into a hug. I could only stare at her in shock. James looked at me, his mother, and father repeatedly, seemed confused what was exactly going on.
"It is your concern, Boy. Cause I'm turning your name into Logan Diamond."
Hearing that, James jumped out of the couch and screamed happily, "YES! Ooooh Yeah, Oh Yeah Oh Yeah! Is screaming Ooooh Yeah Yeahhhh!" He even sang one of Big Time Rush's songs, the one we composed together. While I was still in too much shock to move. Mrs. Diamond must have felt like hugging a statue.
"Exactly why? Care to explain?" It was Mr. Diamond asking. James was actually curious too, but he became too happy to care for the reason.
"When James told us that he's gay, we were slightly disappointed. But for me, it doesn't matter a guy or a girl as long as this person can make James happy, and is a good person, I'll accept. And you! How can I not? You've been friends with James since what? Pre-schooler? Little James often talked about his friends. About you. He said you're smart, kind, and all the nice things James has said just earlier. I just witness today how you two really do love each other. And you're very honest and humble, Logan, that is plus point. Just stop looking down at yourself, that is not good. Tsk, James and you really complete each other's lack, don't you?"
"And about your name, actually I don't really decide based on your answer. It's just a little curiousity. And also to tell you that I'll change your surname by letting you and James get married."
"Thank you... Thank you Mrs. Diamond..." The tears I held before now flew uncontrollably, out of happiness and gratefulness. "Thank you..."
Suddenly I felt a tug on my left arm. I looked up to see James forcefully separating his mother from me and then had me in his hug. "James what―"
"Thanks, Mom, Dad. We really love you two. Now let me do my job to shoo his tears away, okay?" James smiled and pulled my hand to go outside. "Oh, finally! Come on, Logie!"
"James but we haven't―James! Your parents! It's so rude to just leave like this!" As my lover dragged me out, I faintly saw a pure smile formed in Mrs. Diamond's lips.
Inside his car, James kissed my tears away. I giggled, feeling so much relieved and contented we got James's parents permission to get married.
"I really love you, Logie."
"I do too, Jamie."
-End of Chapter 1-
A/N: Reviews are highly appreciated!