A/N: this is my first fanfic, go easy on me pls. Its going to start out grimm/ichi but I think it will eventually end up ichi/hichi. Thx for giving this a try. Its not long but pls review. Constructive critism is appreciated.

umm I've forgotten the most important thing, the disclaimer this is the third time I've had to update to fix a mistake... (Sighs)

Disclaimer- I do not own Bleach, the characters aren't mine, the idea isn't mine. You get the picture, plus if i did own Bleach there would have been more Hichigo... So yeah

Chapter1

"Shit" Ichigo cursed as a beer bottle flew past his head and smashed against the wall. It was his abusive boyfriend again, Grimmjow.

"You wanna fight back Ichigo? Huh! Come on!" Grimmjow's breath smelled like alcohol and drugs again. This wasn't unusual for Grimmjow. He'd been an alcoholic and a drug addict since high school.

Ichigo backed up until his back was against the rough surface of the wall. He needed to get out of this situation, usually it wasn't this bad and Ichigo could defend himself. But not this time, oh no. Grimmjow was pissed and drunk. Not a good combo.

Looking down at his feet Ichigo pretended to be submissive. "Of course not Grimmjow, I didn't mean to curse at you, you know I'd never do that right?" "Huh" Grimmjow stepped back back and chuckled, "Oh no, I'm not falling for that again. You think I'm dumb Ichigo, yeah? But I'm not. I ain't stupid, I see what your trying to do here and it's not gonna work because I know All your dirty little tricks." Ichigo shrunk back against the wall as Grimmjow kept talking, "Ever since high school you've had everyone wrapped around you're little finger and I was just the cherry on the ice cream sundae wasn't I? WELL NOT ANYMORE! I'M DONE WITH YOU!" Grimmjow bellowed and slammed his hand into the wall next to Ichigo's head.

It's true Ichigo had been a bit frivolous in high school and hadn't really considered the consequences of a real relationship with Grimmjow. But he was hot and gay, and Ichigo was young.

Things had only gone down hill from there. Ichigo broke it off with Grimmjow his senior year and boy had Grimmjow been ticked off. He'd shouted in his face about love and loyalty and asked if he'd ever meant anything to Ichigo, he never did. That doesn't mean that's what he told him, nope, not even close.

You see, at the time Grimmjow was very physical in relationships, and Ichigo was not the type for public affection. So, Ichigo told Grimmjow the only logical thing he could come up with. He was uncomfortable with the way Grimmjow treated him, and Grimmjow left. For a while.

Ichigo never wondered where he went. After all it's not like he'd been his first. His first had been an upperclassmen named Ulquiorra Cifer.

Ulquiorra was a nihilist, and therefore cared about almost nothing. People shied away from him because he seemed so cold. Ichigo liked the cold.

Ichigo's grades were suffering and so he got a tutor, who turned out to be Ulquiorra and that's how it started, first it was just a casual relationship, but as time wore on it grew deeper and the bond became tighter. Until Ulquiorra left Ichigo, right after his first time. No note nothing, just in his bed, at his house. Broken.

Ichigo was never the same after that. Relationships became things to be used and discarded, people were toys and life was meaningless.

Ichigo was brought back into the present by sharp pain on the left side of his jaw. Blinking, it took a second before his situation really sunk in. It was never this bad, maybe some yelling but never before had Grimmjow used violence.

Grimmjow bared bis teeth in a menacing snarl and stepped toward him his eyes filled with hate.

"You lied, and now i'll never let you go." Was the last thing Ichigo beard before his world went black.

Ichigo woke feeling dizzy and disoriented, where was he, where did Grimmjow go? Why did his head hurt? Taking in his surroundings he saw a room full of white, was he in a hospital?

Ichigo was genuinley confused when he heard a voice coming from next to him, "Ichigo Kurosaki? How are you feeling? I'm doctor Ishida Uryuu. You were injured but for now your condition is stable and your jaw is healing fine."

"My jaw?" Ichigo asked? Since when did he have an injury on his jaw? All the memories came rushing back at once. Grimmjow getting drunk, Grimmjow getting mad, Grimmjow punching him, Grimmjow knocking him out...

Wait! He was knocked out! Then how did he get here? Surely Grimmjow didn't take him here, to the hospital, did he? Clearing his throat Ichigo rasped out, "Would you mind explaining how I got here? My memories are fuzzy." Okay, that was a lie, but what could he say? Oh yeah, my abusive boyfriend knocked me out and now I'm disoriented and possibly crazy. No, definitely not.

"Ichigo your neighbors next door called the cops and said they thought you were being harmed, so they investigated... And found you on the floor bledding out of the side of your mouth laying on your side." Dr. Ishida had a sympathetic look in his eyes as he said this.

Ichigo didn't need his pity, he was just fine on his own... Or maybe not. He sighed and scratched the side of his head, "Where's Grimmjow?" He asked in a voice that sounded older than it should have. "He's downtown being questioned by the cops Ichigo, your safe for now. " Dr. Ishida sounded tired too, Ichigo wondered if he was alright. Dr. Ishida gave Ichigo a nod, his wire rimmed glasses sliding down his nose. He adjusted them with one finger before walking out into the hall and shutting the door behind him.

For the first time in months Ichigo felt safe.