Hey! Okay so this is the first part of my rewrite. More to come. So stay tuned.
Prologue
Countryside flashed by before my eyes. The greens, blues, and browns all blurred together to make one unitditifed color. Watching the new color flash by faster than ever I couldn't help but let the tears fall. I was leaving the place where I had felt at home. I had felt at peace. This time I wasn't coming back. The only memory I had from the beautiful castle was of the man who ruined my life. Now I have nothing more than the empty compartment that I'm now sitting in. The worst part is all I can think about is him.
Thinking about him only makes it worse, because thinking about him makes me realize things I rather wish would stay hiden.
First was the way he was right about how me being pure-blooded had blocked my mind from seeing what was wrong with my life. How I was nothing more than a clone of what my parents had wanted. How I had been their puppet and they had been my puppetmasters, pulling on my strings, controlling my every move. Most importantly how I had let them without even fighting back, without even realizing that they were doing it.
Second was the way he had changed me. With him I had went from being Nicole to being Nikki. I had went from being the perfect daughter who never did anything bad to an actual teenager. I had manged to cut the strings that had bound me as a puppet. And I liked it.
Third was the way I had lost everything because of one person. First was my brother who saw right through the wall I had built. He knew something was wrong and took it upon hisself to do something about. I just wish that hadn't been disowning me until I 'grew up.' Second to go was the love of my life. The one guy I truly thought I was going to grow old with. But he knew something was wrong when my brother had stopped talking to me. That was when he left me without even hearing the truth. Not soon after that was the disowning from my parents. My brother just couldn't keep his mouth shut long enough for me to try and get my life was back on track. Following my parents was my best friend. The person I thought would stand by me no matter what left me and it was my fault. The most heart breaking was losing the one person who caused me to lose everything else.
That leads me to realization number four. I had fell for the stranger I should have hated with a passion. But I just couldn't bring myself to do it. So instead I fell in love with someone who should have been my enemy. I should have listened to everyone around me warning how I had would just end up getting hurt. But I was young and stupid then.
But falling in love with him wasn't the worst thing that I realized. No, the worst thing is knowing I don't reget it at all. There's nothing I would change about the lies and the heart break. If I ever get a chance to do it again, I'm afaird to say I would do everything the same way.
All of that is in past, however, and there's nothing I can do about it. No matter how many times I say sorry or try to forget about it nothing is ever going to change. With nothing changing I have nothing left to do but think about him. Thinking about him takes me back. Back to the day I first met the infamous Sirius Orion Black.
Let me know what you think.