Time
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1.
"Lockon Stratos." Setsuna has a bad habit of starting sentences with his full codename. There is a long pause in which Neil Dylandy expects a continuation, but apparently Setsuna F. Seiei is content in silence. Still, it is an eerie silence, so Neil finds himself breaking it as he turns from the beckons of the deepest, darkest reaches of space.
"Yes, Setsuna." It isn't really a question and Lockon can't bring himself to be his usual jovial self.
Setsuna eyes him for a long moment, standing there in the middle of the hall as though he had created his own gravity—Lockon often found himself wondering just how Setsuna managed that; he himself could barely stay standing in one place even while holding onto something.
Finally Setsuna finds what he's wanted to say, "In this world," he begins, catching Neil's eye, "There is no God." Then all of a sudden he is no longer there and Lockon is left with the impression that it had never happened. But the words echo in his mind hollowly and he finds himself staring out into the inky blackness once again, vague images registering and falling apart as he does.
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A.
"Allelujah Haptism." Allelujah turns from his venture down the hallway, half-expecting to see a scowling Tieria Erde coming after him to tell him he is unfit to be a Meister or to scold him for the pink hair dye he'd left in his shampoo bottle (Hallelujah had been feeling particularly vindictive after the last mission).
Instead in front of him stands Setsuna and he is momentarily confused, as they had never truly exchanged words outside of missions—and even then Setsuna is quite silent. But Setsuna doesn't stop and Allelujah finds himself floating after him, waiting for what must be a request or at least something about a mission. But Setsuna's mouth doesn't open until they are standing below the large windows on the left side of the ship.
"Time is a human construct," he says at length.
Allelujah looks up but Setsuna is already floating away and he thinks, rather succinctly, that Setsuna is strange. Before he realizes it, his body is moving after the boy and, reaching out to touch him, his hand goes straight through air.
Later on when Allelujah sends Setsuna weirded-out glances during the meeting for the next mission, Setsuna looks at him quizzically before ignoring him completely. It is very strange because, for a minute, Allelujah realizes that the specter he'd seen earlier was slightly taller than this real Setsuna, but that's impossible and he puts it out of his mind to deal with a fuming, pink-haired Tieria.
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Intervention
"Tieria Erde."
"Setsuna F. Seiei," Tieria states stoically as he turns to meet the boy's eyes. He is truly the only one that would react this way. There is a very long pause in which neither opens his mouth or looks away, before Setsuna moves to lean against the wall next to Tieria and the purple-haired man shifts to see him better.
"You would understand." It's said quietly, but monotone, as though he is musing to himself. Tieria does not answer, does not blink.
"Tieria Erde," Setsuna begins again, "Time is dynamic." There is another pause as Tieria merely quirks an eyebrow in what could be one of many things: curiosity, irritation or skepticism, maybe a combination. Setsuna looks thoughtful and it is a novel emotion on his face.
"Time is an unprecedented phenomenon that humans have constructed…" something like static crunches the rest of his words to shame, but that is probably a failure in his own hearing he rationalizes as it clears so he can hear the end: "…there is no God."
Tieria stares at him blankly before returning his gaze to the outer reaches of space. When he looks back Setsuna is floating away. He does not reach out after him.
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2.
"Setsuna."
The young man turns before giving a cursory glance at the tall man that had called his name, "Lockon Stratos."
There is another lengthy silence and at once Lockon is struck by fact that Setsuna really is a quiet individual, rarely opens his mouth even. It gives new meaning to their meeting from before.
Again he'd found Setsuna by the windows (one could argue he had been found before, but he pushed that thought out of his mind), staring out at the trillions of stars lighting up the empty space around them. Sparing a thought to how oppressive space would be without these pinpricks of light, Lockon turns his attention to the boy—man, war turns every boy into a man regardless of age—in front of him.
"...What did you mean the other day?" The words come out in a rush, almost embarrassed in intensity and Lockon finds himself looking away sheepishly.
There is another silence, in which Setsuna muses and Lockon looks on in a growing mixture of curiosity and confusion. Setsuna is weighing his words now, finding the best way to phrase his response; Lockon can almost see the cogs turning in his head but Neil misses it completely.
"I don't know what you're talking about." And Setsuna is once more gone, this time floating down the hallway serenely as Lockon looks on in apathy and Neil in confusion.
Neil doesn't quite know when Lockon became Lockon.
Lockon doesn't quite know when Neil became Neil.
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B.
"Ya, Setsuna." He has a sudden hatred of his name—it belongs to him, sure, so he is automatically entitled to answer any queries directed at it. There's something wrong with that, he thinks vaguely, but turns around and stares blankly at Allelujah who had raised a hand in greeting. Silence reigns.
"Um," Allelujah begins, scratching the back of his neck idly, "Have you gotten taller by any chance?" The words rush out almost unconsciously and Allelujah almost winces at the stupidity in that question.
Setsuna raises an eyebrow, "No more than was calculated." It is a typical Setsuna answer. There is no 'why do you ask?' or 'what's up with you?' Allelujah should have expected this type of answer. Setsuna is an antisocial loner of a brat, Hallelujah interjects smoothly, it stands to reason. Cackling gleefully, he fades away leaving Allelujah bewildered: the day Hallelujah filters his speech is the day pigs are set to fly—Allelujah surreptitiously glances through the window but immediately feels stupid… after all, everything floats in space. He makes a mental note to check the news from Earth later on.
He turns back but Setsuna has either already lost patience or figured he was of no more use and is moving toward his room. Allelujah's body springs into action so quickly that he feels maybe Hallelujah has taken over—but no, he's sleeping soundly in his room, far away from the controls on this body. His hand catches hold of Setsuna's arm and he realizes with a start that he can touch this one. A welcome (?) difference that proves he's not crazy (-er than he'd started out—what with people fiddling around with his brain all his life and the clear existence of Halle).
Setsuna's glare clearly states 'If you want to talk, talk' but he can't find the words he wants to say and articulating anything beyond a garbled "Wait" becomes difficult.
"Are you ill, Allelujah Haptism." It is more a statement than a question and Allelujah feels as though he really might be—should be.
"Wait," he says more firmly, ignoring the question (clearly not a question). Setsuna looks on passively.
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Interjection
"Setsuna F. Seiei." Just why did everyone insist on talking to him lately?
"Tieria Erde."
They stand staring at one another for a while, meteors shooting past just a few feet away, hitting off the sparkly particles outside and creating a symphonious light show. Neither really notices as they pass through the meteor field and it isn't a large enough event to warrant announcement so no sound breaks through the oppressive silence sitting between the two warily. The sound of meteors clashing with particles stops suddenly and it is as if time is standing still, suspended between light and sound, stars moving hazily in the background.
It is during this time that Tieria finally opens his mouth to give shape to the words writhing in his brain and settling heavily in his gut.
"I—" But suddenly Ptolemaios is under attack and the conversation is put on hold as they race to their respective Gundams. Virtue. Exia—odd one out, meaning and depth behind effervescent naming.
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3.
It's mysterious, Neil muses as he floats through space, how time seems to stand still at the most critical moments. And then Lockon takes over.
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C.
You have always had an unhealthy obsession with that girl. It is a ghost of a whisper in his mind, barely there to the point he almost cannot register its existence. But it is there and gives him new hope—after all these years he is not alone. But as he waits and waits for a sentence, a word, a syllable he hears naught but the silence around him, burrowing deep into his bones and impossibly creating shadows in the darkness surrounding him. How long had it been since he's seen the light of day he does not know and time passes in a blur—without the establishment of regular intervals it is impossible for him to tell if it has been years, months, weeks, or even just days.
His mind works sluggishly and he comes to the realization that he has not conversed with anyone but the void in his recent memory, has not been able to make out anything in the darkness since he was placed here (for a terrifying moment he wonders if he's gone blind, but no he can just see a strand of his too-long hair out of the corner of his eye), has not had a cognitive thought this introspective since his mind partner had gone.
Allelujah realizes for the first time that Setsuna is right—has always been right about the important things. Time is a human construct, he'd said, and the thought slips away from him as the wind slips through one's hands.
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Intermission
Tieria Erde wakes up one morning to Veda's betrayal. Granted Veda isn't truly sentient—just another computer-age system with an intelligent interface that provides it something of a created personality—but it still hits home and Tieria is reminded that someone somewhere sometime had told him once that he should put his faith more in humans than in machines. He can't remember who had said it, knows that in the first place he had forgotten it, and wonders why now of all times it was coming back to him.
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4.
Lyle Dylandy is Neil Dylandy's successor, but Lockon Stratos remains Lockon Stratos.
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D.
Hallelujah has been replaced, Allelujah realizes one day, by a little voice in his head called Yallelujah. He wonders vaguely if it's a brain child.
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Interfusion
Tieria realizes belatedly, once everything has begun once again, that there is a certain importance in the past, the present and the future. Before, he had been coasting through life relying on ideals of others. He's doing much the same by following Setsuna but this time it is his belief as well and that makes all the difference. Tieria wonders how Tieria Erde rationalized everything so well all those years ago.
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5.
Lyle Dylandy stands at an impasse; gazing out the window he wonders vaguely how his brother had handled all this pressure, but realizes he has a different kind. He is a spy, of course, so he reports beneficial facts to the Revolutionary Army, but he is also Lockon Stratos, of course, so he leaves out irrelevant details that should never be made known to anyone outside of Celestial Being. Like how Lyle Dylandy is becoming Lockon Stratos. He figures he won't tell Setsuna, either, Setsuna or even Haro. No one else deserves acknowledgement just yet.
It is the day he kisses Feldt for her sake that he realizes just how much he is now Lockon Stratos. The slap hurts in a way that he is unfamiliar with and his heart burns the way he was sure his brother's had. Lyle Dylandy is being assimilated.
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E.
Yallelujah's voice gets louder as the days pass. Allelujah wakes up one morning and realizes the date is a month after he'd last checked.
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Intravenous
Tieria awakens to himself as he stands by a window, staring out at the vast expanse of nothing. Maybe, he thinks, just maybe. Possibilities exist and disappear like flickering lights, there but not there. And he thinks maybe Tieria Erde is acting up as color fills his eyes. He stares at his reflection, multicolor eyes flaring, and can think of nothing but 'man-made.'
God may really not exist—just where had he heard that?
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6.
Every day as he floats around the ship slowly or stares out at the stars tranquilly Lyle Dylandy is himself. During missions he stands in the meeting room and pilots Cherudim as Lockon Stratos. At night he is Neil Dylandy.
So one night as he sees adult Setsuna pass before his eyes and a smaller, more naïve version reflects itself in his eyes he starts again, "Setsuna." Lyle Dylandy has never called him so, Lockon Stratos only speaks to him out of necessity and also thinks it's strange, but they are asleep and this is Neil Dylandy so this is normal.
Setsuna turns, that same stoic expression on his face and LockoNeiLyle wonders if he would ever show any (other) emotion. Neil has a sudden image of tanned limbs splayed across a white bed sheet, blood red eyes blazing and pink petal lips parted breathlessly, and Lyle shifts uncomfortably. Twin siblings have always had similar cravings. Lockon Stratos—machine, man-made—looks on unaffected.
The question is still between them, "What did you mean?"
To his credit Setsuna doesn't look the slightest bit confused but for once he is very, very wrong, "Lockon Stratos."
Neil Dylandy looks on sadly, but remains silent.
Setsuna sighs and turns completely, "Time is a human construct and there is no God." Then he turns and walks away.
Surprise flares in LockoNeiLyle's eyes and everything is clear. Neil is Lyle is Lockon is Neil and everything makes sense for the first time.
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F.
Allelujah's conversations with Yallelujah are normally quite brief, like they don't know quite how to maneuver around one another just yet. This is changing slowly, but Allelujah knows that it will never be the bantering carefree exchanges he shared with Hallelujah. He finds on occasion that he misses the psychotic laughter that always accompanied crude comments, and watches as the world turns slowly.
A few days later he sees Setsuna and has the sudden urge to call him a bastard and tell him to just get it on with Lockon already, they've been tiptoeing around each other for ages. He's found the reason then; Hallelujah isn't gone—it's Allelujah that's disappearing.
So what does that make Yallelujah?
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Interval
They're underwater now, coasting along in submarine mode and looking for all the world like a giant mechanical fish. Time is lost here, Tieria realizes as he looks out into the dark blue water—is it night? He's been asleep for hours, minutes, days, hell he could have been asleep for years and he would never have realized it. The ocean water around them is a dark never-changing blue.
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7.
Earth is nostalgic for Lyle, a bad memory for Neil and simply another location for Lockon. But none of them likes the contrived silence below thousands of nautical miles of water.
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G.
In the inky darkness of the deep sea salt water, the Ptolemaios II forges ahead and Allelujah is left with the feeling that progress in this never-changing world may be possible.
Then Yallelujah intervenes mumbling something about lack of time and the illusion comes crashing to pieces. Allelujah leans against the window, yearning for the outside, for a touch of cool water on his cheek and the feeling of the receding tide. Cold glass meets his nerves and he frowns slowly.
Hallelujah's cackling laughter is haunting him, he's sure, and he hears it in the background more and more often as time passes. For all he knows Yallelujah has it recorded and plays it at the most inconvenient times to mess with him—but no, robots don't do anything that isn't in their programming.
As he muses he sees Setsuna pass by walking slowly and almost without aim. He doesn't say anything, doesn't move even when he sees the other see him, doesn't nod, doesn't blink. Setsuna barely glances at him before continuing on his way. He's matured—learned when to leave others to their thoughts.
He has the sudden feeling that he should have stopped Setsuna—he needs to vent, needs to let out these simmering emotions, the words caught up in his chest, unmoving. The pressure doubles and he wonders idly if they've been diving steadily.
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Interception
It is getting difficult for Tieria to deny his out of place feeling. For him Celestial Being isn't the same as it was four years before; now it is much more laidback (he likes laidback but for some reason…) and despite this it almost feels as if they are still following the plan. Aeolia Schenburg must have been clairvoyant.
They're on Earth now, he and some of the others, shooting pieces of glass-metal out of the sky. At their backs are enemies and allies alike and he knows that if this doesn't end soon something will have to give. If it doesn't end soon enough they'll turn on each other. If it ends too soon they'll turn on one another. If it ends at all this place will become a battlefield.
It's an engrained fear, something pathological. But for the moment he can't stand the idea of those innocent people somewhere far below them dying for no purpose, will not allow the landscape to be marred because of an idiotic automatic system (man-made, Tieria Erde whispers; shut up Tieria responds).
He doesn't need the reminder now, not when they're trying so hard to do what is necessary. Then finally it is over and his paranoia has been disproven. Cheers abound and mobile suits make their way to the ground.
The sun shines once again, coming out from behind the giant sheets of glass-metal, man-made clouds.
8.
It is only when they are back in space, traveling quickly across the space elevator to what could be their deaths does Lyle Dylandy realize that Neil Dylandy realizes that Lockon Stratos has realized. There are three of them—one. As Cherudim's steel bits get shot down one by one by one, Lockon channels Lyle, channels Neil. They aim for the core and—
H.
Yallelujah's voice always rings in his mind when he speaks, like a bell—one of those big deep ones, not the clear un-muddled ones that sound so beautiful. Hallelujah's voice has always been a bit psychopathic, but remains clear, like a human's. When they both tell him the same thing he realizes it may just be important and, as he sits in the cockpit of Arios exhausted, he glances up at Marie's suit and realizes he needs to come to a firm decision about the three of them—four, if he was to include Yallelujah's bell-like robotic voice.
Allelujah Haptism will not disappear from this world, he determines looking up into the glorious sunlight, but he will no longer be present. Hallelujah roars in the background, but Yallelujah just looks on apathetically.
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Interfold
The war is over (for now) and they are all somehow alive. Peace is almost painful after all that time spent on the Ptolemaios II and Tieria finds himself standing on Earth for the first time in what feels like a long time. The blue sky spreads over him almost endlessly accompanied by fluffy white clouds and a brightly shining sun. It is time and it is changing—and it is beautiful.
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9.
The battle against Ali al-Saachez is painful in a new way. Lyle has the underlying feeling that his brother's death was in vain, Lockon is upset that he missed his enemy (such an easy shot), and Neil sits in muted fury. Once they strike the final blow, they sit forlornly in Cherudim and wonder if it was justified. Revenge leaves a satisfied knot in their stomach, but it fades quickly and there is a hollow pressure sitting where there should have been a sense of fulfillment. Exhaustion—both physical and mental—creeps in and they sit panting in the cockpit as if they'd run a marathon. Lyle Dylandy looks up first and the cameras set on Cherudim show him scenes of death and carnage, and he is reminded of a long-ago past.
He shuts his eyes tight but the flash of light that pervades his vision is one of memory and he cannot shut it out. He remembers the ruins of his house, the feel of his brother's hand in his own as they searched desperately for their parents. It is painful, Neil thinks, trying in vain to shut it out—it will always be with him.
Lockon takes over and they return to Ptolemaios II and Lyle for the first time is grateful for him. The realization that they are partners sets in and once he sees Setsuna's resolute face he knows what he—they—must do.
I.
In the end Allelujah wins out. Hallelujah is triumphant—Yallelujah looks on absently, robotic until the end.
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Internal
It is at the moment he sees his death that Tieria realizes. Tieria Erde is there telling him 'I told you so' but still he ignores him. Thoughts run through his head like a stampede and he comes to terms with the fact that he is Tieria is Tieria Erde, is Innovator. His multicolor eyes glow and he can feel his mortal body die.
Reading in between the lines will be your best friend ^^ Might be continued in the future, in which case I'll post a second chapter.
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