I actually fell in love with Kim, while writing this as she is so 'under explained' in the books. I see her as someone who don't take no shit and is strong. I don't like it when people compare her to Bella, who winy and depends totally on others. So to clear things up Kim is nothing Like Bella. A Big Thanks to my Room mates Kurtis and Joanne for checking this over!

Chapter 1-When dreams start to come true in reality fashion.

November 9th 2005

"Kim get your lazy ass out of bed!" My Father shouted up the stairs pulling me out of my slumber. His loud raspy voice pissing me of. He never ever bothered my elder sister like this! It was like he was constantly gunning down for me. I rolled over and fell out of my bed, I cursed like a sailor before stubbing my toe on the edge of my door.

I had a feeling today was not going to be my day. I walked over to my wardrobe and sighed as I took in the shabby secondhand clothes and the tattered shoes. We didn't have much money... scrap that we didn't have any money.

I chose a soft blue jumper and some black skinny jeans that where a bit to small, but I would have to make do. I placed them on my bed and made my way to bathroom, tapping the door impatiently. I was in a pissy mood standing in the freezing cold with Cow printed bottoms on, and I was not going to take any of my sisters shit.

"Jo get the hell out of there!" I shouted banging the door with all my might. I could hear the shower turning making noises which indicated there was barely any hot water left. Jo walked out of the bathroom her hair styled and make up all perfect. She was known as the prettier sister and I was known as the girl just there.

You got used to stuff like that over the years but it didn't help having your drop dead gorgeous sister always swanning around with her natural harmony. I rushed into the bathroom quickly stripping and getting into the shower. Stupidly I had forgot it would start of freezing then warm up.

"Fucking Hell!" I screamed jumping out from the shower catching the shower curtain causing it to fall on top of me. My sister came running in, looking panicked before laughing so hard her eyes streamed and she was nearly on the floor.

As usual my Dad had not realized there was a west end drama developing upstairs. Like he would come to my aid anyway.

"What are you doing you stupid fool?" Jo asked carefully wiping her eye making sure not to smudge her make up.

"Trying to have a shower in peace so eff off" I hit her with the bottle of conditioner against her leg, shooing her away with my hand. I got up of the floor and got back into the shower, that could barely pass for warm.

There was a drop of shampoo left and I had to try and wash my knotty hair as thorough as possible. I felt like punching Jo in the face, she was sometimes so selfish a lot like our mother.

My Mom had left when I was 11 and when Jo was 13, she had simply said she was bored of being a mom, and had met someone who could give her a better life. So just like that she packed her bags and left. She didn't even consider the effect her absence would have on us. Jo had made sure everyone knew how she felt, she would either break down crying or lash out angrily. My dad became a recluse and barely keeping himself together.

I didn't do any of these things, I just pushed it to the back of mind never thinking about it unless something triggered of the un-wanted memory. I quickly jumped out of the shower and opened the bathroom cabinet. It had precisely 2 pain killers 7 Tampax and some face masks. Doesn't sound like a lot but it saw us through.

I rummaged through the small make up bag on the counter and applied some eye liner and some blusher. I was not a big fan of make up unlike my elder sister Jo, It was not that I preferred the more natural look I just couldn't be arsed to get dolled up to go to school.

But I looked like I had been dragged through the pits of hell, so I had to make myself look at least half decent. I quickly ran to my room and put my clothes on. I scraped my hair back into a bun and shoved few grips to pull my very badly cut side fringe to the side. I picked up my books of my little draws next to my bed and made a swift exit.

I walked down stairs and saw my sister reading some magazine about the male mind, and my dad was reading his newspaper chewing loudly on his toast. Our house was tiny like really tiny. We had 7 steps acting as our stairs and then two tiny little rooms. There was another small room on the bottom floor which was my Dads, our whole house seemed to open and exposed. It was like a rather large shack, to put it nicely.

Our kitchen was so small we couldn't even fit a table in there. I usually ate up in my room and so did Jo, and dad usually ate in the living room watching our dodgy telly. We where like a bunch of distant room mates thrown together with the occasional chit chat and that was it.

We was a far cry from how a perfect family should be. I walked into the kitchen and look in the cupboards, nothing as usual not even bread.

"Dad we need to go shopping!" I said annoyed slamming the cupboard door shut.

"You can go tonight after school if you want something that bad" My dad shouted from the living room his mouth full of food.

I inhaled sharply through my nose before gritting my teeth together in a feeble attempt not to scream. I emptied the little piggy jar they kept on the kitchen window sill and just about managed to make 2 dollars and 50 cents.

I shoved the loose change into my pocket and collected my cell phone of the side, it was cracked and on the verge of dying but it kept me in contact with various people.

"Come on Kimmy Cakes" Jo taunted opening the door, she had on a pair of leggins and a small jacket with some cute gloves and ear muffs on.

It was the middle of winter and freezing cold, and she was going to go out dressed like that? I shook my head realizing I didn't have time to lecture her at the moment., I grabbed my large bomber jacket and my over the top scarf that was a hat as well. I brought it from the German market a few years back, when we had some sort of income, now we just lived of the state claiming whatever we could. I shivered as I felt the cold air hit me in the face. I hated the cold with a passion so deep it was unexplainable. Jo walked through the snow in her usual grace acting as if it was perfectly normal for someone with knee high boots on and barely any clothes on .

"Are you not freezing your ass of in that?'" I asked incredulously eying her cautiously.

"Yes but at least I look good" She flicked her hair back in a celebrity kind of way and swayed her hips from side to side.

I couldn't help but be jealous of her, she has curves and a bum and breasts. I was a skinny 'bum less' and flat chested girl. It didn't surprise me why no-one wanted me. My sister got all the attention and all the hot popular guys. I got the gawky little nerds with severe acne and annoying voices.

I have only ever wanted one guy, Jared Holloway the most beautiful man to ever exist. I had first noticed him when we was started Middle school. He was small for his age but still perfect, his large dark eyes and his dark tanned skin. He was the definition of amazing. Not that he had ever noticed me, something I was used to and got over quite quickly but when I dreamed about our wedding and scrawled my name down in my planner with his surname.

I loved him more then anyone and it broke my heart every time he looked right through me. Not that I ever showed that I pretended to not know him either, but I still worshiped him from afar. I was so caught up in my little Jared world that it didn't register I was about to be ran over by a car.

"Kim" Jo screamed her voice sounding actually panicked instead of that high pitched girly squeal.

"What?" I looked at her with alert eyes wondering what she was screaming about now.

"You could of totally got yourself killed then!" she responded worriedly, walking up the main gate's of the school.

"Well I am fine" she gave me a look which told me she didn't believe me before swanning of up to her boyfriend. Callum Ramirez the hottest boy in school, also the stupidest and highly likely the one infecting the school with herpies.

Jo thought the sun rose and set in his eyes, and if you dared say other wise she would probably destroy your very being with her sharp words.

I walked over to my friend Kay, a cute quiet girl who didn't really do a lot with her life but fix up everyone's mess.

She was currently in the middle of a deep heartbreak and she was no longer her happy go lucky self, she was slowly self destructing. I was the only person who could still talk to her, as she was the only true friend I had.

"Hey Kim" Kay greeted puffing her cigarette into my face. I don't think she meant to do it, but smoking had become another habit of her's she told me shew as trying to destroy the cells that still loved him.

Did I mention she is very into maths and exact, to a point of it being plain annoying.

"Kay, a bit to early for the smokes" I tired to say it in a un catty was as possible but of course she took it the wrong way.

"You know what fuck you Kim OK? I don't need know sad loser telling me how to live my life" Kay walked off stumbling as she did.

I was probably right, today was not my day. The bell rang for the first lesson and I quickly rushed to be first in line, which meant I could get a seat near the front to avoid being caught up in all the drama in the classroom.

Jared hadn't been at school for two weeks and I couldn't help but worry something happened to him, but if he had died or something we would of known about it; with a school this small. It still didn't stop the uneasy feeling I had in my stomach, like It was knotting and knotting until my stomach felt so twisted I would end up feeling ill.

Everyone started to line up outside the classroom, chatting excitedly about prom which was over 2 months away. I wasn't going as no-one had asked me and I didn't want to wear a dress. Mr Qualino our Spanish teacher walked over and opened the door looking pissed of. He slammed his coffee down on the paper and glared at everyone in the classroom.

I sat at the front getting out my books and putting the on the table. I could feel the un-easiness in my stomach being to wear of as I settled into the lesson.

While Mr Qualino was speaking words in Spanish that I did not understand, I smelt the familiar smell of Jared's after shave. My heart began to race stupidly and my palms became sweaty. He walked through the door not taking in me or anyone else for that matter.

"And where do you think you have been?" Mr Qualino asked in his a heavy accent.

"D-Doctors" Jared mumbled stuttering, as if it was all a lie. I looked at him weird something was wrong with him I could tell.

"Hmm, well sit at the front where I can keep my eye on you" Mr Qualino rolled his eyes and carried on with the lesson. Jared pulled out a chair next to me and sat himself down. It was then I noticed the changes.

His arms where much more muscular and larger then last time, his usually small frame had shot up to about 6'5 at least. And his face he looked like he had aged to about 23 maybe older. But even though I could barely recognize him I could still the old Jared in his eyes.

I carried on looking down at my hands so he wouldn't see my blush, and worked of the book in my lap, I hated the way I could be so brazen sometimes and then barely breathe around a boy. It was truly pathetic.

"Can you pass me the textbook please?" My disbelieving ears took in what they had just heard. Jared's strong husky voice had spoke to me?

"Yeah sure" I quickly gave him the text book accidentally brushing my hands against his. It was like an electric current running around my body wakening everything up. Jared hadn't moved his hand so I looked up at him trying to keep my cool and act as calm as I could. But when I met his eyes, things changed. He was looking at with an intensity that I had never been given, a look of shock, devotion and happiness played on his features.

His mouth was hanging open slightly and he looked like he had been hit over the head with a blunt object.

"Are you OK" I whispered softly looking at him. He shook his head slightly trying to get out of his daze, but it only slightly worked he still had the starstruck expression on his face.

"I am now" He smiled at me his perfect white teeth on show. I smiled just letting my lips form and not showing any teeth.

The lesson was over in a matter of minutes and we where packing up our stuff to go, Jared didn't even get up from his seat he was just watching me. I instantly got all conscious and was in a great need of a mirror in-case I had some massive zit or smudged make up.

"So when did you move here?" Jared asked nervously playing with his hands.

Hurt ran through me and so did anger, had I really been that invisible that he hadn't realized I had been here as long as him.

"I Moved here in Middle school you know 5 years ago" I was trying to make my self sound angry but it came out like a distraught sound. I was thankful for the bell as I dashed out of the classroom going to the study hall for my free period.

I felt a tap on my shoulder and I was surprised when I turned around to see Jared, he looked at me with a sadness in his eyes. I found it hard to believe he was going to be cut up over forgetting I existed.

"What's your name?" Jared looked at me and everything seemed to tone down as if it was not here.

"Kim" I answered quickly not bothering to say my full name to keep up conversation with him.

"Well Kim would you like to go out sometime" I blinked rapidly as I tried to take in what he had just said. I had dreamt about this happening so many times and now it actually was I didn't know what to do!

It was then I realized I was wearing a low V Neck sweater that exposed some cleavage and I could see why he had took a sudden interest in me. I could feel wetness forming in my eyes and my vision blurred. I swallowed hard and pretended to yawn so the tears wouldn't be so noticeable.

"Thank you for your offer but I am going to have to say No" I couldn't believe how stupid I was being I might never get this chance again! But I am not dating a guy just cause he has a sudden interest on my chest!

"Oh OK" Jared looked dejected and like he had just been punched. I instantly felt bad, but I didn't want to stay around his intoxicating presence to much. It would only make me feel worse. I walked away realizing everyone had go to lessons and the corridors where silent.

I made my way into the hall and sat on one of the comfy sofas. I couldn't even be bothered to get my books out. Jared had asked me out and I said no, I was the stupidest most pathetic person that walked the planet.

Before I could even tell she was here Jo, was next to me her usual bouncy little self.

"What's up Lil Sis" she looked high and her eyes where drooping. She has been taking marijuana and you could smell it one her like hell.

"Drug free you?" I said snidely turning myself away from her. Jo turned me back round holding my arm and forcing me to look at her.

"Chill Kim, I only had 3 drags of it, now I will be fine for the rest of the day" Jo smiled looking drugged and living in a dream world.

"Oh Yeah do you know Colby?" Jo questioned peering up at me with expectant eyes.

"Yes Colby Ritz why?" He was a hot senior a year older then me, and he was rarely ever at school and if it was it was for 4 hours tops.

"He want's to know If you want to go out with him sometime" Again the shock nearly crippled me as my mouth hung wide open.

"Oh for Jesus Christ is it 'Date A Kim Day'" I announced angrily, some people turning to look at me.

"He like's you and I already said you would--" I cut Jo of by flicking her in the head.

"What the Fuck Kim" she shrieked loudly. Everyone started to laugh, as a profanity was shouted out, people here where sometimes so immature it actually hurt me to be near them.

"No Jo, you what the fuck you have said yes to a date I don't even want to go on!" I hissed under my breath.

"Well I apologize for trying to get you a social life the highlight of your week is when it's PE day and you get to see Jared topless!" she whispered sharply glaring at me.

It was then I found out that my life was going in a boring circle, doing the same things all the time and not having much time to do anything else. I truly felt like a looser and decided I should Join the Glee club right away.

"So will you just go on the date woman!" Jo's tone was more relaxed and softer but she still had that on edge tone to it.

"Why not like you said I need to do more but I am not happy about this" I agreed reluctantly, but my gut was telling me not to go of and be so stupid, but I felt like I was betraying someone, and I hated the feeling that came with it.

I didn't even bother and study that period and right through the lunch I remained distant and turned of, it was not until lunch time when I was pulled out my little world.

"Kim" I turned around to see Colby standing there smiling at me, of course his smile didn't have that weak knees affect like Jared did when he smiled at me.

"Would you be able to come out on Saturday your sister said you would be able to, but I just wanted to be sure" His voice stammered a bit to the end, and I found it quite adorable.

"Yes Saturday would be great" we where both smiling at one another before someone told me to hurry up. With only $2.50 cents I was stuck for what to get, so I decided on a cooking and some diet soda. I gave my money to the teacher on duty and she called me back saying I was 10 cents short and that the soda had gone up again.

"Don't worry here you go" Jared quickly gave her the 10 cents before looking down at me.

"You really need to eat more, I have got loads if you want some" Jared eyed my skinny frame with a worried expression on his face.

"Thanks but I am fine" I turned to walk away but he gripped my arm forcing me to look at him.

"Kim--" before he could say anything else Colby had walked over and pulled me out of Jared's grip.

"Is there a problem?" Colby took a protective stance over me, narrowing his eyes at Jared. Jared seemed to be shaking slightly, and he was breathing sharply through his nose.

"Your the problem" Jared responded his voice sounding lethal. I had never realized that Jared had anger problems and I backed away scared pulling Colby with me.

"Come on Colby leave it alone" I tugged on his arm harder before he finally moved away not taking his eyes of Jared.

I suddenly heard a loud bang from where we had just been sitting and saw Jared's food on the floor and the plates broken. I could hear him stomping down the stairs. The whole canteen went silent, and the only sound I could hear was the music out of someones iPod.

About 30 seconds later everyone was back to talking and discussing the sudden angry outburst from Jared.

"Are you OK?" Colby questioned looking at me carefully to see my reaction.

I nodded, I had never saw anyone look that angry at another person. Maybe in the film's where they had to pretend to be angry, But I doubted Jared was playing around.

I usually sat up in the corner with Kay, but because we where not talking I would have to sit on my own I sighed as I walked over to the corner chair and I quickly saw Colby following me. I let out a small laugh and sat down.

Colby sat down opposite me and putting his bags on the floor. He caused butterflies in my stomach and I was nervous to eat around him in case I did something gross. I began to break my Cookie carefully before hunger overpowered my mind and I wolfed it down.

Colby didn't really seem to notice and finished of his sandwich with a gusto. I suppose it was a boy thing not to care about what they looked like when the ate. By the end of lunch people where suspecting we where going out, and in some context I think we was actually a 'couple or what ever that word meant in the 21st century.

By the end of the day I was actually in a good mood with the exception of Jared, I would have to ask him what was his problem was. He hadn't noticed me for years so why was today so special?

I waited outside the school gate's for my sister Jo, who was known for usually getting after school detentions. But shockingly she came out of the school only 5 minutes after the bell, today was definitely giving me a run for my money.

We walked home in comfortable silence neither of us saying anything, I borrowed Jo my coat as she was freezing to death and I took her jacket and warmed myself up. When we got home, our dad was sitting in front of the fire eating some odd looking sushi.

The house was actually nice and warm, and I could see grocery bags in the kitchen, I could even smell something cooking.

"Hello Girlies" Dad said coming over and kissing us both the head. Me and Jo exchanged looks that mirrored each others. Disbelief.

"Pasta Bake is in the oven, I thought I would make you something decent instead of bean's on toast" Dad explained smiling at us both.

"We can still eat in our room though?" Jo didn't like eating around people, as she would usually throw half of it in the bin.

"Yes but it's the middle of winter and you girls need something decent in you both" Dad walked into the kitchen and pulled the massive bowl full of hot pasta out and out it on the side. Me and Jo went upstairs to get changed into our comfy clothes preferably the one's we didn't care if we got messy.

But before I could go downstairs Dad brought our dinners up on a tray with a glass of soda next to them.

Me and Jo both stood there with the tray in our hands looking dumbfounded, before walking into our rooms. I dug into mine enjoying the taste and the warmth it left in my stomach. I turned on my tiny TV that barely had any signal except for the Channel 1 and 3 where my faveourite shows where on.

I was caught up in the bitch fight happening in eastenders when my little cell phone went off, vibrating loudly.

I quickly put another mouthful of food in my mouth and opened the text.

Kim, I am so sorry about today Please forgive me

Jared x

I spat the food out before nearly choking to death, Jared had text me? I closed my cell phone shut not bothering to text back. I refused to date a man with anger problems and obvious multiple personalities. I wanted a little bit of normalcy in my life, and going out with Jared was not going to give me that. I finished of my food but it tasted like cardboard by the time I was finished.

My whole life had revolved around making a stupid dream a perfect reality and when it started to come true I didn't want it. Because only ever in a dream can things end happily ever after.

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