How Can I Fix You?

by Shana Hager

Rosalina wishes she can do something, but what can she do if her ex won't let her in? Prize for Paradigm of Writing.

How Can I Fix You?

A new year turns over a new page. We're supposed to leave the past in the rearview mirror and focus on how we can improve ourselves in the fresh days ahead.

We're supposed to let go.

But instead, you choose to be mired in past events, events that, try as we might, we can't go back and fix. And instead of talking it over with us, you turn to a bottle for comfort, cocooning yourself in self-pity.

I regret letting you go as I had. We were our absolute best together. But I wanted to move on, to try other things. I hoped you would understand. I never wished any ill upon you. And every time I see you, I'm reminded of how hard you took the news, and I feel a little pang in my heart.

I wish I can do something or say something to make this better. I wish I can help you. But as long as you're isolated, defensive and standoff-ish, I can't. I can't help you unless you want to be helped, and it looks like you don't want help at the moment. But I'm a patient woman. I will give you all the time you need. Then, I'll find out what can be done.

I'll find out how to fix you.