Longing
You make my body come alive. The desire of holding your gaze only towards me is an aching feeling. The smile on my face was brought when you glanced my way with that look in your eyes, the one I wanted to melt into, but couldn't. Through the years you protected me from the danger that arises, never caring if you carried the damage on your back. The scars we shared, the pain we both felt could never bring you to me. The longing of your touch haunted my dreams each passing day not leaving me even when I awoke from them. I reached out to your fleeting figure only to grasp thin air…
Protect me from what I want, but you won't be able too, I answered you one day. You had asked what I meant by that, and I could only shrug with a smug smile. I would tell myself each passing day that I was getting closer to sugar coat it for myself, when the truth was plain in sight. I watched you afar from cracks in the door to brief glances up from the top of the book I pretended to read.
If you looked into my eyes you would see it burning and longing for you without words surpassing my lips. I crave your body against mine to make me complete in this cruel world where I'm a sinner alone.
I thought sadden expressions could never grace your wondrous face but they did bringing to my mind you were more fragile then you led on. You were standing alone holding onto a single silver ring with your eyes shut tight. Your heart seemed to ache for something, like I on the other end longed for you.
Expression can be easily done in many ways, my way had been hard. As each day passed when I felt the simple touch of your hand ruffle my blonde hair and how it made me mad, but now I find affection in it as if you are subtly telling me something while teasingly tugging on my bangs.
The temptations have grown to a new found peek as your gaze turns more my way than it had before and I wonder will it go further than just innocent looks and hidden meanings. I couldn't bring myself to speak the loving words that you could say so easily to me. The words brotherly love became an intoxicating saying I couldn't rid myself from.
Leaving my sinful thoughts to rest had almost been the downfall of me as I found myself unable to make it without your loving face and voice. You always knew what words to say to make me weak in the knees, to make me want to hear you forever in the depths of time. The time when I couldn't hold it in anymore, the feelings, the urges, and how my heart ached to hear you agree to be mine. You hardly hesitated in your response, smiling downwardly to me and answered the words I had been longing to hear all my life. How soothing the simple three words sounded now to my ears, this time your words had meant truth.
I'm a lost child in your warm embrace with sweet kisses…I held on fast to you, never wanting to feel the cold world, where now, I wasn't alone in my sins…
(a/n
Well, another yaoi type fic...hmm, blame my two wonderful people who like yaoi. I might make more, but don't know. So, I hope he likes it)