Disclamer: I do not own Slayers or any of the charecters. Warnings: Charecter Deaths. I am a demon. I can not love.

I told you this often, to remind you.

I told you I didn't return your feelings, I thrive on hate, that your affection is only hurting me.

You smiled and shaked your head, as if I am a child who does not understand something simple.

You told me that you don't care, that you were just happy to be near me, that you understand it is one-sided love.

Then, one day, the order came to kill you.

There was no question what to do. My loyalty to my master came before everything.

I teleported to your campsite. You were standing alone, away from your friends.

You smiled at me, told me you understand.

You kept smiling as I destroyed you.

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"Very good, Xellos," my master told me. "I knew I could trust you."

I nodded, bowed, and left.

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I visit your grave site. The grass grows thick around it. It is as if your power helps them grow.

Yet I know it is empty under the stone. There was nothing left of you.

Your friends did not believe you were dead. They searched for a long time.

Until I told them.

They despised me. They called me a monster and many other names.

They are dead now.

Did you know the swordsman vowed to kill me? That he died hunting me down?

I killed the girl, too. Just to feel the anger of the chimera.

I killed him later. He was the most fun. He died the moment he became human.

I leave flowers on your grave. They are cursed. Anyone who touches them turns into an ugly green serpent for the rest of there life.

I hope some beautiful village girl finds them.

I leave and walk away.

I do not regret killing you. It was my duty as a servant to my master.

I am a demon. I can not love.

Yet why, when some young, arrogant soceress casts a dragon slave, am I filled with memories of you?

The worst part is those memories come with pain.

I push it from my mind. I regard it is some stupid, one time thing.

Yet it haunts me.

You haunt me.

The strong, beautiful, idiotic soceress who loved me.

A/N: Sorry it's so angsty. I just got they idea and it wouldn't go away. I'm also sorry if it is occ. However, I don't think Xellos is occ because he is evil. He is a mazoku, after all.