Today I broke up with my girlfriend –sob- I'm really upset, but I need to figure myself out. Anyway, I wrote this a while ago and I thought it was pretty good.

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This fan fiction is basically based off of me and my ex girlfriends/best friends.

Oh, by the way, I don't really know anything about A, so I just kind of made him up.(:

Warning: Shounen-ai

Pairing: Matt x Mello, VERY SLIGHT Mello x Near

Recommended listen: You Were My Everything by Aviation

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You Were My Everything

I ran my leather-clad fingers over the edges of my favorite photograph, of my favorite person alive. The picture was of Mail Jeevas, my Matt, and I feel myself staring at this picture nine-out-of-ten times a day. The one lone time I'm not staring at the portrait, he consumes my thoughts. This picture is the one and only picture of him, and he looks the same as always: red hair, green eyes, and striped shirt. It is a photo that Roger took; he takes one of all of his "children" and keeps them in a scrapbook in his office, but I managed to sneak this one out of his clutches, even though I have to hide it when Roger does room inspections each month.

Deep down inside, I always knew Mail would surpass Near and I in the race to be L, and in the end look who was right. It's funny to remember how we used to talk about my life (not his), where I'd go, who I would be with. Now look at me: twenty years old, a legal adult and single, while Matt has been away for five years and has never contacted me once. Also, to make my life more confusing, my best friend is Near.

The whole Near and I being friends…it's a complete and total cluster fuck. I'd been practically raised to hate him for competition, but in reality he suffered a lot of things I had. Losing his family. Being bullied for being gay. Losing the one he loved. The albino had been in a relationship with Alex—more commonly known as "A"—the boy everyone thought would succeed L, the boy who was found dangling from the ceiling around the time Matt left me.

"Nate, I'm really sorry about A,"

To my surprise, he'd leaned in and pecked my lips. "You remind me of him, in certain ways. Thank you,"

After those few weeks when we'd lost our partners, we were inseparable. We had—and still do, sometimes—cried together, talked, or do just about anything else that could ease the pain away. A part of me said I'd won because I've seen Near's perfect mask shatter, but in time I put those thoughts away. We became best friends, and Roger moved us into a dorm together.

In a way, Nate River and I do love each other. But he remains loyal to A, and I haven't given up on Matt just yet. Hell, I don't know if I ever will.

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