Disclaimer-I do not own any of these characters, I'm not sure who they belong to. Also this is my first fic, so please review. This takes place after Lockdown.
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"I honestly don't know where to begin, I guess it all started a little over 10 years ago. I was a 3rd year med student, he was my resident. I liked him the second I laid eyes on him, but he was married, and at that time, Jen was pregnant with Rachel, so I set it aside as a childish crush. The next few years are all just a blur to me, graduating from med school, getting accepted at County, it just all went by so quickly. One thing I'll never forget is the day John Carter walked into that ER. He was dressed to impress, Benton was a little hard on him, but Benton was a little hard on everyone. Carter was a ladies man, almost always got the ones he wanted, but he didn't get me. He tried, I turned him down, I was still thinking I had a chance with Mark. My friendship with him was continually growing stronger, his wife was on his case 24/7. Then one day, my dreams came true. During my 3rd year of residency, 5 years after I'd met him, he told me he was getting a divorce. This was also the time when Little Susie was in my life, Chloe left us one day, and I was gonna put her up for adoption, but Mark talked me into keeping her. Everything was going fine, I was gonna adopt Susie. Then things went bad, Chloe came back and took Susie away from me. Susie was probably the only person in the world I cared for more than Mark. It was really hard on me. Mark was still getting over his divorce, but he was a friend when I needed one. I felt like Mark was the only thing for me, so I decided it was time for a well needed vacation. I called up Chloe in Phoenix and we decided we'd go to Hawaii with Little Susie. I actually asked Mark to come with us, he turned me down of course. Later Carol told me it was because he thought I didn't want him to come, but I wanted him to come. I never made it to Hawaii, I have a major fear of flying, I swear I almost died on the plane ride down there. I just spent time with Chloe and Susie in Phoenix that week. I ended up taking the train back, I promised myself I wouldn't fly again. Of course, I had to go in the chopper to complete my residency, but Mark was there with me, so I knew I was safe, but either way, I was scared out of my life. The time in Phoenix was one of the greatest times of my life. I decided I couldn't take it anymore. Mark would never realize I liked him as more than a friend, so I decided I'd take my life to the person who loved me and I loved more than anything. SUSIE. I was getting everything ready for my transfer with Morgenstern, when Mark asked me out. I didn't know what to do, once I made my mind I wouldn't change it, but it was Mark. He came over that night and accused me of seeing Morgenstern. I realized I had no other choice, he had the right to know. I cried, he cried, it was a night of sadness. He stayed with me that night, I'll never forget that night, it was my first and last time with him. A week later I was ready to leave, I was already on the train and it was getting ready to leave. Mark came running up to me just as we were about to leave and told me he loved me. What was I supposed to do, get off the train. He was to late, I kept telling myself he was too late, I was over him. I never really believed myself. Phoenix wasn't as great as I thought it would be, I didn't spend that much time with Susie as I thought I would. It was just I was always working, and when I wasn't working, she was with her friends. I started thinking I was very stupid for not staying in Chicago with Mark. I knew I still loved him. None of my relationships in Phoenix worked, not even my engagement to Bill, who was a cowboy, worked out. At first the letters came in numbers, then one every two or three months, finally I was surprised he even wrote me on my birthday and Christmas. He gave me his email address once and I always sent him email, I wanted to keep in contact with him. He replied every so often, but finally I gave up. I was continually depressed, I had no friends in Phoenix, my job was horrible, it was the same job as in Chicago, but I didn't have Doug's wisecracks to cheer me up, or Mark to comfort me when I was down. It was just different. I actually became an alcoholic for a short time, but I decided that much alcohol was gonna kill me. I became addicted to caffeine after that, it was pretty much just drinking pop, more specifically Mountain Dew. It started to deprive me of sleep, and when I can't sleep I think of Mark. I was suffering, I hadn't had a relationship in over a year, I was staying in my apartment the entire time. I came to love Friends, that show was crazy, always managed to cheer me up. Then when I thought things just couldn't get worse, Chloe, Susie, and Joe decided to move to San Fransico, I didn't know what to do. I moved down here, deserted my happy life to be with them, mainly Susie. They just left one day, they decided it would be better if I stayed here, I felt betrayed. I was confused, my life wasn't in Phoenix, it was still in Chicago, I made Susie my life here in Phoenix, but it was never really the same. I missed Mark, I missed my friends here in Chicago. When I came back, I found out that Mark was married again, but the shocking news was he had a brain tumor. He never bothered to tell me about it. I realized that in 5 years a lot of things change, Carol and Doug moved, Carter was stabbed. It was almost as though I thought nothing would have changed, it took a lot but in the end I got my life back, and I was happy. I still loved Mark, but he was happy, and he had another child, I wasn't going to interfere with that. I tried going out with Carter, because he's always had this little crush on me. He's in love with someone else though. Then when Mark and Elizabeth split, I had to play my role as best friend, he still told me everything. I stayed with him the night he had Gamma Knife therapy, I told him he should tell Elizabeth, but he is a stubborn man. I couldn't believe it when Carter read that letter, it was very touching, I was in shock when he said Mark had died. I was in denial for more than a week, Mark was and will always be my best friend. After that I cried like I'd never cried before, because I knew him like no one else did, not even Elizabeth or Jen, who were married to him. So now here I am, talking to you, thinking back on it all and smiling. My life was the life of a normal person until Mark came along, its all very complicated. Well now I've told you almost everything you'll need to know about me." I said with a smile on my face. "If you think your life has been complicated, wait til you hear about mine" Abby told me, shaking her head.
Was it any good? Email me at mountain_du_adict@hotmail.com with any suggestion or comments. I think I might continue with Abby's story.