This first chapter has nothing to done with Owen and Cristina together, but more of Meredith and Cristina figuring out what to do with their marriages.

Chapter 1

Every woman would act different when they first hear that they are pregnant. Some would feel over joy and excited, while others would be thinking that this is the worst thing that could ever happen. Cristina Yang was in the boat of "how could this be happening to me". She had known for months that Owen and her have been debating over the subject of children and never could reach an agreement. He was for it, she was against it. Now finding out that she is six weeks pregnant, she feels scared and worry of what might happen. Once telling Owen what she wanted to do with the baby, he kicked out of their home and she finds herself at Meredith's home. Now alone and pregnant, she has some decisions to make.

Waking up the next morning after finally getting some sleep on Meredith couch, she awoke up having to run to the bathroom, she had morning sickness. She ran to the closest bathroom and shut the door. Once she was done and settled on the edge of the bathtub, she heard the voices of April, Lexie, and Jackson walking into the kitchen. She decided to sneak upstairs to see how Meredith was doing. Once reaching Meredith's room, she saw her with Zola, trying to sing her to sleep. When Meredith saw Cristina standing in the door way, she motioned to her to give a minute and they would talk. As she was closing the door, she started imagine of her baby being sung to her baby by Owen or her. But after a minute she shook that image out of her head and walked downstairs in the living room.

Once Zola fell asleep, Meredith went downstairs to find Cristina and talk about what was going on. Luckily, Jackson, Lexie, and April had left for work, which would give them time to talk. Meredith was on suspension from hospital and Cristina had decided to take some time off with approval from the Chief Webber. This would be a good chance to have a talk with each other about what is happening in their marriages now and finding ways on to fix them. Plus, in her situation, she needed someone to talk to beside her baby.

"So you're pregnant!" Christina only shake her head yes. "This is, WOW! I mean, I didn't think that Owen and you were trying to have a baby? Plus, why would Owen kick you out of all things?

With Meredith doing all the talking, Cristina was getting angrier, so she stopped her and decided to talk.

"Let me start from the beginning. First, I was in the clinic helping out when a patient was talking about craves, and then it came to me that maybe I am pregnant. So, I went to Dr. Fields, and she confirmed. She said that the baby appears to be at six weeks. After leaving Dr. Fields, I went and told Owen that I was pregnant." She pauses for a moment before continuing. "Meredith, he was so happy when I told him. His face says it all. But, I still kept telling him I didn't want a baby, and all he said was "You have one". Can you believe that out all things he could say, it was that you have one? Anyway, we were talking about all day, never reaching an agreement. All he would keep me is that I would be a great mother. Do you that? Well, when I got home, I ask if he loved me, which he yes at a great deal. That is when I told that I made an appointment to terminate the pregnancy. Meredith you should have seen his face, he was so mad and hurt. Next thing I knew we were at each other and I remember saying "NO!" Then he told me to get out."

Meredith couldn't believe all that Cristina was saying, but she could see that Cristina was hurt and scared about this baby inside of her. "Ok, calm down and take a breath. Now, Cristina, what did Owen say about the abortion?"

"He mostly said that I deny him in decision, as well as in the marriage, which to be honest, I didn't, right?"

"Well, it sounds like you didn't include him on the decision about the baby."

"So, you are taking Owens's side in this matter? You are supposed to be my person and be on my side." She never thought that Meredith would take Owens's side. As far as she knew, the both of them never got along in the first place.

"In this situation, I don't really think I can take sides, considering the fact that I was trying to get pregnant for about a year with my husband. Plus, given the fact that I lost my baby the day when my husband was shot and you had to operate on him. But I wonder why would you want to abort this baby that Owen and you created together?"

"That was you! I don't think I would be a great mother. I mean, Owen was telling me to trust him in believing that I would be a good mother. How can I believe that, when my dreams were to a brilliant surgeon, not a mother?

Meredith couldn't believe what Cristina was saying. Out of everything that she had been through, that she would not want to have the chance to be a mother/wife/brilliant surgeon.

"Look, I know that you are scared about what happened to you years ago and afraid that the same thing will happen again. But, you have to believe that everything will be ok. Besides, think about it, for years ago, you never would have imagine that you would be pregnant. Plus, you are not alone this time; you have Owen, your husband, who will be there for you."

As Meredith was talking to her, Cristina started really thinking about baby as a miracle. Several years ago, when she was just an intern found out that she was pregnant with Burke's baby, but ended up losing the baby and left fallopian tube had burst and was damaged. For so long, she has been telling herself that she didn't want a baby, which seem to be a way of convincing herself that she didn't want one or couldn't have one.

While thinking that, she started thinking about this would mean for Owen personally. He served a part of his life in Iraq as an army surgeon. He put his life on the line everyday for about 5 years saving soldiers under fire. Plus, he even witnessed his platoon being leveled in front of him, which he almost died himself. So, having a wife that he loves and a baby in his life gives him more of a reason to keep going from one day to the next. To Owen and her, this baby is a miracle in for the both of them.

"I guess you're right, Meredith. I am just scared of loosing another baby as well as my husband. Plus, I don't know what kind of mother I would be with wanting to be the best surgeon that I want to be", said Cristina, as she started to cry thinking that she was losing everything in her life including her husband that she loved very much.

"Cristina, everything will be ok. But, believe me this is going to sound better coming from Owen." During this time, Zola started crying. "Hang on; I better go upstairs to check on Zola."

Before Meredith got to the stairs, Cristina asked her something. "Do you need some help? I think I can help, I mean she is one of my goddaughter. Plus, let's figure out what to do about Derek and you." Meredith shook her head yes.

Now, Cristina was thinking about Owens's view on this subject, but she knew that she needed him. She had a lot to think about. During this time, Meredith and Cristina would depend on each other in helping each other during a time when their husbands were out of the picture.