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Chapter One: The Pain
I walked through the halls silently, in a sort of daze. Jessica had already left to walk with Lauren and the others but Angela stood dutifully by my side. Even though I was making no effort to keep up with the conversation, she still chattered on about her disappointing date with Ben Cheney. I hadn't even noticed they'd been together. I guiltily tried to keep up with her as she was the only person that actually tried to talk to me. And even though I'd expressed to her I didn't want any calls or visits to my place she still called. She still visited. In a way Angela was a lot like me. We didn't open to a lot of people. I guess that's why she's stuck so close to me. It was hard to branch out and befriend persons that didn't even like you.
The only reason she and Jessica spoke to each other was because they're parents were very good friends and they'd spent a lot of time together as children.
"I mean I really like him Bella and even though he was a complete jerk I can't stop thinking about him. What do you think? Should I call him or wait for him to call me?"
"Definitely wait. You don't want to look desperate or anything."
She nodded in agreement. "But what if he doesn't call?"
I shrugged. "His loss. If he doesn't call then you know he's a jerk and there's no sense you waste time with him anyway."
Angela smiled kindly at me. "Since when did you turn an expert on relationships?"
My eyes welled up with tears. I held my chest. My voice was hoarse when I said, "Experience teaches you a lot of things."
"Oh Bella I didn't mean to bring up Ed-" I stopped her.
"No, no it's alright Angela. He's an asshole that broke up with me and left town without a proper goodbye. It's good that we're not together."
She smiled and held my shoulders comfortingly. "Good for you Bella. I'm so happy you said that. C'mon let's get to history class."
As soon as we arrived her eyes stared longingly at the empty seat next to Ben.
I pushed her forward and said, "Catch you later."
"Bells you don't mind do you?"
"Of course not; you don't have to babysit me. Now go before Lauren gets there before you do. "
"Thank you" She squealed. I walked to the back of the class and saw Angela blushing at something Ben said. I rolled my eyes and smiled. They were sweet together even though he seemed to lack people skills.
The bell for lunch jumped me back into reality. Angela grabbed my hands and led me to our table.
"He asked me to the dance! Oh Bella this is the best day ever." Angela exclaimed.
"Why is it the best day ever?" Jessica asked. She squeezed herself between us, pushing me to the side. I nearly fell flat on my face. Thank God for posts.
"Hi Je- Bella are you ok?"
She tried to run to my side but Jessica held her hand.
"Why do you treat her as if she's a baby?" Jess asked angirly. "You don't have to be her friend out of pity Angela. Bella is quite fine being by herself. Let her cry over that dick Edward forever. God knows why she thought he'd even like her in the first place, not when he'd rejected me. Me! I hate you bitch!"
She walked over to me and slapped my face.
Jessica had shouted so loud that everyone in the cafeteria turned to watch at us. Angela stared at her. Tears blinded my eyes as I awkwardly ran out of the cafeteria, passing Principal Fern on the way.
"Isabella Swan no running in the halls. Miss Swan I am speaking. Miss SWAN!"
I continued running. I jumped into my truck and fumbled for my keys. Jut then Angela rapped on the window. I winded it down.
"No Angela" I stammered. "Please I'm leaving I-"
"I'm so sorry Bella. I-I…I don't know what-" She stopped and shook her head. "Jessica, she, um you see well she doesn't-"
I sniffed and wiped my stupid tears away. "It's alright Angela. I'm going hone now. Tell Mike I'm not coming to work today.
She looked at me strangely. "Promise me you won't do anything stupid."
I was too sad to respond humorously to her clear request to not commit suicide. "I won't kill myself." I said, driving out of the compound.
I drove and drove and drove; not knowing where I was headed.
I was so numb…and broken. Pain was engulfing my insides as I processed what Jessica had said over and over in my brain. She was right. How could I have been stupid enough to think one as beautiful as Edward could ever want someone like me? How could I have thought he would actually love bland, plain, ugly me? Tears streamed down my face as I remembered that awful day, months ago, that memory whose pain felt as fresh as yesterday.
He took a deep breath and stared, unseeingly, at the ground for a long moment. His mouth twisted the tiniest bit.
When he finally looked up, his eyes were different, harder –like the liquid gold had frozen solid.
"Bella, I don't want you to come with me." He spoke the words slowly and precisely, his cold eyes on my face, watching as I absorbed what he was really saying.
There was a pause as I repeated the words in my head a few times, sifting through them for their real intent.
"You…don't…want…me?" I tried out the words, confused by the way they sounded, placed in that order.
"No"
I gasped for air. The pain was too much. I cried silently. I was remembering him. This was forbidden for a reason.
The memory of his beautiful face, the way it felt to kiss his soft, tender lips, the way he held me, ran with me.
I opened the door and pelted outside. Did I mention it was pouring? I screamed my lungs out. I hollered for what we had and the love we shared. For what was and what could have been.
I pictured the beautiful faces of the other six vampires that could have been my family.
As I fell to the ground I felt two strong hands picking me up.
I was so cold I didn't even respond right. It could've been a serial killer or rapist but I didn't care. I didn't want to live, not without him.
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