Chapter 1: Last Kiss (Sam; November 8th 2004-mid October 2009)
Sam sat in the hospital bed, staring at her newborn daughter. Her little Lila Jane was the most perfect thing in the world. She had dark, curly hair and big brown eyes. Sam was sure she would have dimples, just like her, Sonny, and Lila's Nana Alexis.
Jason sat next to him, smiling at the baby. His eyes met Sam's. "I promise you that I will always be here."
"Thank you. For everything." her eyes went back to her baby.
I still remember
The look on your face
Been through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whisper
For just us to know
You told me you love me
So why did you go away, go away
"Jason!" Sam saw her husband and ran to him. He caught her, just like she knew he always would. He spun her around, kissing her forehead when he put her down.
"I missed you." he whispered.
"I missed you too." she shot him one of her brilliant smiles. "I have a surprise for you in the car."
They got his luggage and then headed back towards his SUV. There, in the backseat of the car, were Michael and Lila. Michael jumped out when he spotted his uncle, running towards him. Sam picked up Lila, who was only 9 months old, and carried her to her father. Max stood close by, watching for possible signs of danger.
"There's my girl." Jason looked away from Michael to Sam carrying their daughter over. She passed them to him and he hugged her, glad to have her in his arms. His eyes met Sam's and he smiled. Jason motioned for Max to come over and he handed the little girl to him before pulling his wife into his arms, hugging her tightly.
Sam let her head rest against Jason's chest. She could hear his heartbeat and it instantly calmed her. "Jase?"
"Hmm?"
"I'm pregnant."
I do recall now the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
That July 9th, the beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your warmth
Sam had taken the kids to the Quartermaines. Tonight was her and Jason's 2 year wedding anniversary and she wanted to spend some time alone with him. She had been feeling sick lately and was pretty sure she knew what that meant. Lila was now a little over 3 years old and Hunter was almost 2, so it was good timing.
She unlocked the door, carrying a bag of Chinese food in her other hand. She entered the house, seeing no signs of Jason being home yet. She put the bag down and took off her jacket, draping it over the back of the chair. Sam made her way up the stairs, going towards her room so she could change.
She pushed open the door, shocked when she saw Jason and Elizabeth on HER bed. She slammed the door, waking the both up immediately. Jason rushed to cover himself with the sheets. Sam couldn't stop the tears that were streaming heavily down her cheeks. She turned around, running from the room. She heard Jason following after her and he reached out, grabbing her hand, turning her to face him.
"Sam, it's not what it looks like..."
"Really? Because it looks like my husband is cheating on me, in our home. In our children's home! I can't believe this, Jason!"
"I'm so sorry." he tried to apologize.
"You want to know what makes this even better?" his blue eyes met her brown ones. "It's our anniversary. We got married exactly 2 years ago today."
Realization dawned on him and he couldn't believe he forgot the day. "I'm really, really sorry."
"That's nice. But you know what? I don't care anymore. Your apologies mean nothing." she went to the stairs and was getting ready to go down them, but turned around quickly, remembering why she had been so excited. "Just so you know, I think I'm pregnant."
"Sam..." he stepped towards her, causing her to step back. Jason watched in horror as she fell down them. They didn't know it at the time, but that was the day of what would have been their 3rd child's death.
But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
Sam had been feeling depressed ever since she lost her baby. She loved Lila and Hunter more than anything in the world, but even they couldn't fill the void she felt after the doctor told her the baby was gone.
She hadn't been back to the penthouse since that day. Those two horrible memories overshadowed all the good ones they had ever made. She wouldn't go to the place her child died, the place her husband cheated on her.
For now, she was staying at the lake house. Alexis was battling lung cancer, so Sam was helping out with Kristina and Molly. Still, that didn't help her get over her little boy or girl's death.
What made everything worse was that Elizabeth had ended up pregnant. Sam was filled with insane jealousy and anger. It should be her pregnant right now. But no, it was because of her husband's affair with that woman that she lost her sweet little angel. Jason was being extremely attentive to Elizabeth and he seemed to be happy about her pregnancy.
Sam couldn't help but wonder if she and her children had just been an obligation all this time.
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
When she went to file the divorce papers, Diane had talked to her out of it. She said that Jason had been coming by every day, begging her to tell Sam that he loved her more than anyone in the entire world. The brunette didn't believe it, considering the joy she had seen on Jason's face as he got to saw his child for the first time. She had been passing by the exam room when she noticed him and Elizabeth getting an ultrasound done.
Diane had convinced her to try counseling to make sure this was what she really wanted. The first couple of meetings were hard, but after that, things got easier. She learned that Dr. Winters thought Jason was projecting the love he felt for the baby he and Sam had lost onto Elizabeth's child. That made Sam feel a little bit better, knowing that he did love their baby.
Dr. Winters had also spoken to her about the depression concerning the baby's death. She talked Sam into picking a name out for the baby and putting it on a tombstone. She chose Peyton Angel, which could be for a boy or a girl, though she had been sure the baby would have been a girl.
And now, Sam finally felt like she was getting better.
I do remember the swing of your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pull me in
I'm not much for dancing but for you I did
The first time Jason brought his new child, Audrey Elaine, home, Sam realized that this wouldn't be as easy as she thought. She resented the child and always felt that it should have been her with a new baby, not Elizabeth.
But then she looked, really looked, into that little girl's face and fell in love. Audrey wasn't hers, but that didn't mean she couldn't love her. She was, after all, Lila, Hunter, and Peyton's sister. So Sam just loved the child, which Elizabeth didn't approve of at all.
Elizabeth had been coming around a lot more and it occurred to Sam that maybe she had planned a pregnancy so she could get closer to Jason. The screeching nurse always had an excuse for being there. Most of the time, it was some ridiculous thing involving Audrey. Sam chose to ignore it.
She refused to go into the bedroom and wouldn't let the kids in there either. This prompted Jason to buy a brand new house. It had a lot of security and space for the children to play. Each child had their own room and there was even a couple of extra rooms for any future children.
Sam wondered if this was all going to last. Jason had cheated once, he could cheat again. She tried not to let herself think that way, but she couldn't help it.
Because I love your handshake meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions
On Thanksgiving, Jason had Audrey. Elizabeth was going out of town to visit her grandmother with her older son, nearly 5 year old Cameron. Sam was going to her mother's house to have dinner with her family, which Jason was invited to.
Surprisingly, Sam's father, David Evans, who she had never met, showed up. The woman found herself being glad that she hadn't grown up with him. He seemed like he could really care less about her or her children. This helped her realize that her stepfather, Mac, was a really great guy and she was happy she had had him.
Things were tense between her family and Jason. They all, with the exception of 11 year old Molly, knew about Jason cheating on her. When they sat down to the table, Maxie decided to let him know exactly how she felt. All the kids, besides Audrey, were eating at the kitchen table, so they didn't have to hear it.
"So Jason, how is Elizabeth lately? You know, since you picked that hideous, flat-chested nurse over my beautiful sister."
"I wouldn't know, Maxie. I haven't seen her since she dropped Audrey off yesterday."
"And what about the nights you snuck around with her behind Sam's back?"
"I haven't been with her since the night Peyton died."
That set Mac off. "Don't you dare talk about my granddaughter like you cared one little bit about her. You are probably glad Peyton died. That makes things a lot less complicated for you since you don't have two kids the same age with two different women."
"I would have loved her, Mac."
"Oh, like you loved Sam?"
"Dad..." David looked at Sam expectantly, waiting for her to speak to him. She turned to glare at him. "You aren't my dad. You're just a sperm donor. Where have you been all my life? I consider Mac to be my father. He is the one that's always been there." she threw her silverware down. "You know, I'm really sick of this. Jason, maybe I shouldn't have given you another chance." she stormed out, going towards the kitchen.
14 year old Kristina, Molly, 4 year old Emma, 3 year old Lila, and 2 year old Hunter were all laughing when she entered the room. They all stopped and looked at her as she came in.
"Li, Hunter, come on."
"But we're eatin', Mama." Lila objected.
"We'll stop at Kelly's. It's time for us to leave."
Kristina stood, going into the dining room angrily. "Which one of you set her off?"
"Kristina..." Alexis started.
"No. I barely get to see my sister anymore because she is too concerned with her crappy marriage to come around her family." she looked at Jason. "I just want you to know that I have never hated a person more than I hate you. You broke my sister's heart, you killed my niece, and you bring your kid with the girl you cheated on Sam with to our family dinner, which is completely disrespectful. You are no longer welcome here, get out."
Jason nodded his head, standing up. "I'm sorry."
"Save your apologies for someone who cares." the teen responded, crossing her arms.
Sam came into the room holding Lila and Hunter. She stopped when she saw Jason standing up. "I'm not going anywhere with you."
He sighed. He and Sam had made a lot of progress lately and now it was all gone because of one little family dinner. "We only brought one car."
"Sam, please stay. Patrick and I can take you home or you can spend the night with us or here or whatever." Robin begged.
"Fine. Guys, say goodbye to Daddy." she put Lila and Hunter on the ground and was shocked when they both clung to her legs, going nowhere near Jason. "What's wrong?"
"We don't like him no more." Lila whispered, but everyone heard. "He made you cry. And Daddy only loves Audrey." Sam picked her daughter up, holding her close to her chest. Hunter tugged on her pants leg, causing her to lean down and pick him up too.
Jason came over and kissed both kids' foreheads, which they both wiped off, and then Sam's. Lila reached up, wiping the spot her father had kissed with her tiny hand.
"Go away. We hate you." Lila said, surprising everyone. Jason's eyes filled with tears and he left, holding Audrey.
"You can go too." Sam said to David. "I had always dreamed of meeting my father, but now I wish you had never come around." he stood, leaving the house. "Lila Jane Morgan, you are not allowed to say hate." she scolded.
"Sorry, Mama."
"How about you monsters go back into the kitchen and eat?" Mac suggested. He went over to Sam, taking both children and carrying them from the room.
Sam went over and sat on the couch. Alexis sat next to her and as soon as her arms wrapped around her, her daughter started crying. "I can't do it anymore, Mom. I don't know if I should take him back and now Lila and Hunter don't like him..."
Everyone at the table watched sadly. They didn't know what to tell Sam. They knew that she loved Jason, but was it worth it?
And I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
"Hi." Jason came into the house, kissing Sam's lips. She smiled, remembering a time when things hadn't been so easy. It had been a rough year since she found out Jason had cheated on her with Elizabeth. The woman had just had her 3rd child, which, of course, made her wonder if there was any possibility that her husband was the father. But she was trying to trust him.
"Hey." she continued to put her jacket on. "I promised the kids I would take them to the park."
"I wish I could come, but I have so much paperwork."
"Its fine." she assured him. "Lila! Hunter! Let's go!" the kids came running down the stairs. Lila was still very cautious of Jason. She didn't really trust him anymore. Hunter was a little more open, but still didn't have the relationship a boy should have with his father.
They walked out the door, getting on the elevator. Lila was 4 now and Hunter was 3, so Sam just held their hands. They made it to the park.
"Audrey!" Hunter shouted, seeing his half-sister. He and Lila ran towards her, causing Sam to follow. Elizabeth was sitting on a bench holding her newborn baby.
"Hello Sam." she politely said.
"Elizabeth." she said back just as cheerily. "Congratulations on the new baby."
"Thank you."
"What's his name?" Lila questioned. She loved babies.
"Jacob Alexander. We'll call him Jake though."
"Mommy, look at him! He looks kinda like Hunter!"
That quickly caught Sam's attention. She looked down at the baby. He was practically the spitting image of Jason. She felt her whole world crashing down. This couldn't be happening. Not again.
"A little bit. But all babies usually look the same, Lila." Sam said to her daughter, not wanting to alert her. "Well, it was nice seeing you guys. Come on." she led her children away. This was even worse than the first time. Jason had promised he would never sleep with her again. Sam had been sleeping with him.
"Lila, Hunter, do you mind if we come tomorrow? Mommy isn't feeling well, I think we need to go to the doctor. Maybe you two can hang out with Uncle Patrick while Aunt Robin gives Mommy a check-up."
"Okay." the agreed. Lila was a Mommy's Girl and Hunter was a Momma's Boy, so they always tried to please their mother. Sam walked the short distance to General Hospital and had Epiphany page Robin and Patrick.
Patrick arrived first and noticed how distraught she seemed. "Hey Sam."
"Hey Patrick." she looked towards the kids and then back up at him, her eyes begging.
"Lila, Hunter, I have a great idea!" they both looked at him. "I get off work in a couple of minutes, so how about we go pick up Emma and then go to Kelly's for ice cream?"
"Can we Mama?" Lila begged, her dark eyes pleading.
"Of course, honey."
"You guys can spend the night too, if you want." Robin said as she came over.
"That's fine too." Sam approved.
"Thank you!" Lila and Hunter hugged their mother quickly before taking Patrick's hands. Lila liked to play with her cousin, Emma, and Hunter, who never really felt close to Jason, liked hanging out with Patrick. The doctor loved to watch NASCAR with the child, since his daughter was very girly and hated it. As soon as the elevator doors closed, Sam hugged Robin tightly, starting to cry.
"Hey, what's wrong?"
"Have you seen Elizabeth's new baby?" Robin shook her head no before she realized what Sam meant.
"Oh no. What are you going to do?"
"Later, I don't know. But right now, I need you to check me."
"Are you feeling okay?"
"I feel fine. I've been sleeping with Jason though. I need to be checked for STD's." Robin smiled at her sister and grabbed her hand, leading her towards the exam rooms. They took a few tests and then Robin brought the results back.
"I found..."
"Oh God, please don't let it be herpes. I can handle HIV, but not those little warts."
Robin started to laugh. "I found nothing, Sam."
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Sam was crying so hard she could barely speak. She was having a baby with her cheating husband. To make things worse, she was reliving memories of when she had been pregnant with Peyton. She decided it would be a good idea to stay on the ground floor.
Jason came into the room, concern written all over her face. He ran to her, putting his hands on her shoulders. She backed up away from him, her back hitting the door. He walked towards her, but she put her arms out to stop him.
"Is there something you want to tell me?" she managed to get out.
He just looked at her in confusion. "I don't think so."
"I can't believe you are sitting here, lying to my face!" she let out a shaky breath. "Actually, I can, since this is the second time you've done this to me!"
"Sam, are you okay? Where are the kids?"
"What kids? My kids? Or your kids, your two kids, with Elizabeth?"
"What do you mean?"
"Don't play dumb with me! I know that Jake is your kid! I can't believe you would cheat on me, again, and then straight up lie to me about it!"
He sighed. "I'm sorry for not telling you about sleeping with Elizabeth. It was a onetime thing, we were both drunk at Jake's. But I really didn't know that the kid was mine."
"You know, I really don't know if I can believe you anymore." she shook her head, more tears falling down her cheeks. "I'm leaving. Just so you know, I'm pregnant. You will not see this baby." Sam left.
Nine months later, her little boy, Dominic Owen, was born. Sam fell in love with him immediately. She was glad that all three of her children looked like her because she wouldn't have been able to handle it if they looked like Jason. She had somewhat forgiven Jason, but still wouldn't trust him or sleep with him. She wasn't ready to get her heart broken again, so she was living with Robin and Patrick with the kids.
So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I'll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breath
And I'll keep up with our friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are
Sam woke up with a smile as she turned over. She was in Jason's bed. It was the first time they had slept together since before she found out about Jake. She had been extremely cautious in trusting him still. Her son was 6 months old now. She heard him crying and got out of bed, going down the hall to his room.
There was a knock on the door and she heard Jason get up to answer it. It sounded like he was talking harshly to someone in a whisper. She went down the hallway, stopping so she could hear what they said but so she wasn't seen.
"...Aiden deserves to meet his father, Jason. Even if that means that you have to leave your precious Sam."
"Tomorrow, I'll come over and see him, Jake, and Audrey. I love Sam. I want to be with her."
"You keep telling yourself that, Jason. But when you realize that it's not really what you want, I'll be here." Sam heard him go into the kitchen. She rushed to go into her room and layed the baby on the bed before going and getting her older, sleeping children, carrying them to her room too. She layed in the bed, the kids around her.
Jason entered the room a moment later. "Hey. Are you coming back?"
"No. I have to stay with them. The baby is awake and Lila had a bad dream. Sorry."
He just nodded his head, walking out of the room. Before she could stop it, a tear fell down her cheek.
And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
You can plan for a change in the weather and time
But I never planned on you changing your mind
"I'm taking the kids and staying with my mom." Sam pulled her bags into the room. "I can't do this anymore, Jason. It just hurts too much."
"Can't do what?"
"Sit here and act like I don't know what is going on! I know that you have been sleeping with Elizabeth. I know Aiden is yours." he avoided her eyes, confirming her suspicions. Anger suddenly hit her and she reached out, smacking him across the face. "How could you do this? To me, to our kids, to our marriage? Did you even think about any of that?"
"I'm sorry."
"No you're not. But that's okay because I'm not wasting my life with you anymore." she turned around. "Now, if you would move, I have to go get my children."
"They're mine too, Sam, and you won't keep them from me."
"Really? You have the nerve to say that to me after what you've been doing? Where was all this concern for them while you were sleeping with the walking STD?" she tried to push him out of the way, but he didn't budge.
"Technically, they are still my children, no matter what I've done."
"Fine Jason, you want to get technical, we'll get technical. Lila is not your child, she is mine. You have no legal or biological rights to her and you won't be seeing her."
"Wow, you're really going to do that?"
"Well apparently she doesn't matter to you anyway, so why does it matter? And my daughter will definitely not be around that woman."
"I hate to remind you this, but Dominic and Hunter are mine."
"Yeah, but Dom's too young to remember you. You've barely been around anyway; he doesn't know who you are. If I let you take him, he would just be confused. As for Hunter, he will go wherever Lila goes. They are my children, Jason." she brushed passed him, going up the stairs.
She went into her sons' room first, telling Hunter to come and picking up 8 month old Dominic. She carried him into her daughter's room.
"Li, let's go."
"Where are we going, Mommy?" Lila asked.
"To Nana's. Come on." she led them out, taking all three kids down the stairs. She opened up the front door, handing Max her bags since she was holding the baby. Jason watched them go.
So I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss
Sam stood, her arms crossed over her chest, tears flowing freely down her cheeks. She watched him carry the boxes out of their home, and then return for more.
Finally, he was finished. He came back inside for one final time, looking at her. Jason felt guilty for the first time since he had told her he was leaving.
"I'm still going to be here for you." he whispered.
"You say that now, Jason, but we both know it's not true." she shook her head sadly. "This is it. This is what 6 years has led us to. I just...I can't believe it's over."
"It will never be completely over between us, Sam."
"It's going to have to be. Just know now that if you leave, you are not coming back. No matter what your precious little Elizabeth does."
"Sam..."
"No, Jason. You chose her and her kids over your own family." she went to the door, opening it. He looked at her for a moment before walking out. She stood there, staring at him until his car was out of view. Sam closed the door and slid down it, starting to cry.
Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Sam wanted to scream or cry or throw something, but she couldn't. Her children were asleep upstairs and she didn't want to scare them.
Jason had left, but in reality, he had been gone for years. Maybe not physically, but mentally and emotionally, he wasn't there anymore. She knew that he had been turning to Elizabeth more and more when he was faced with a problem. That stung because she still loved him with all of her heart.
She heard soft footsteps on the stairs and her oldest child came into view. Lila ran over to where her mother was sitting and curled up in her lap, her head on Sam's chest.
"What's wrong, Mama?" she ignored the question, stroking her daughter's dark curls gently. Lila pulled her head back so their matching eyes could meet. "Daddy left?"
"I'm afraid so, baby girl."
"It's gonna be okay still." Lila kissed Sam's forehead and then put her head back on her chest. They sat there in silence.
"Come on, Princess." she held her daughter's hand, her youngest son on her hip. Hunter followed closely on her other side. The kids hadn't seen Jason in a few months. Today was the day of she would finally be free, though Sam was 4 months pregnant with a new baby. She wasn't very excited about it. She would love her child, but it was just another bond she had to her cheating ex-husband.
The divorce had gone through and been finalized. She was now single again. Her next matter of business involved going to her mother's law firm. She opened up the door, walking inside.
"Go to Nana's office." she told Hunter and Lila, who gladly took off in that direction. Sam was exhausted and felt way too huge to be pregnant with only one baby, which was making her think something was wrong with her newest child. She entered her mother's office.
"Hey Sam." she took Dominic from her, setting him in a chair. "You can't be holding him, honey."
"Mom, I'm only 4 months pregnant."
"I was thinking about that. Have you considered that maybe you're having twins?"
"Excuse me?" Sam was struggling enough. The last thing she needed was two babies. "Mom, what if I am? I can't handle two babies."
"Don't worry. Your father and I, and even Kristina and Molly, will help you." she just nodded her head. "Now, I'm sure that's not why you're here."
"Its not." she sighed. "I want to change Hunter's last name."
Hunter was the only one of her children with the last name Morgan. Lila wasn't biologically Jason's, so Sam had decided to give her the last name Davis instead. He had been cheating on her around the time when Dominic was born, so she made his last name Davis too. Now she had gone back to her maiden name and didn't want her oldest son to have to carry around Jason's last name.
"Okay. I'll write up papers."
"That's not all. I want you to write me custody papers too."
"For all the kids?"
"He has no legal ties to Lila," Sam talked quietly so her children, who were playing across the room, wouldn't hear her, "so I don't need any papers for her. But I want sole custody of Hunter, Dominic, and the baby."
"What about child support?"
"I wish that I didn't have to take it from him, but I don't have anything. I had no job because we both agreed it would be better for me to stay home with the kids. I wish I would have worked so I could support myself and my kids. But I guess I need money."
"Sam, if you really don't want to take the money, your father and I can support you."
"No Mom. I'm not going to take advantage of you. Jason is the one that got me pregnant, so he can pay for it. It's not like it's really going to affect his bank account."
"Okay. I'll get papers for that too."
Sam smiled slightly, despite the seriousness of the situation. She was finally free.
Just like our last kiss, forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips
Just like our last
I haven't decided if I will continue this or not. What do you think I should do? I already have a little bit of the second chapter (it's called A Little Bit Stronger) written and the time jumps between the parts of the song aren't as big.
In case you are wondering, the chapter thing at the beginning is the Chapter Number: Title (right now songs, but I don't know if that will continue), (Person it mainly focuses on; time that it covers).
Please REVIEW and tell me if I should continue or not!