Chapter 1: Finding cement
What is it about us people who lost all of their friends? Tell me that much, at least!
Friends...that is a large topic with me, if you want to know the whole story, I dare you to hold your breath while reading it;
I was a big crybaby and a shy girl when I started school. I was the new girl in the school and everyone knew each other, but I was so mortified by everyone I only had 2 friends. A small scrawny boy, and a even tinier girl. They were my friends. They helped me, defended me and everything.
So I was shattered when I discovered that I was moving. The tiny girl was my best friend, my little step clos to accomplishment. She made me stronger than I really was. But I moved, it was ineitable, and I've never talked to either of my friends again.
You see, I was big on crushes and everyone always could tell if I liked someone, just to be confident I told the boy who I liked that I had a crush on him and he started hating me, in disgust no one talked to me. Until I finally, a year later, found someone else I was interest in. Problem was that he had a girlfriend..and now they're not toghether anymore, and she came crying to me, but I wanted to get with him! But it never happened. I found 2 new friends and they were reliable as could be! We went through thick and thin, tried everything together and never left each other behind.
However, once again, it kind of failed and I'll tell you why.
I started being friends with this new girl, but my old ones got jealous of me. Of course I told them to hang out with the other girl too because she seemed pretty nice. So they did...but then I got jealous and the other girl didn't seem very nice afterall. She kept calling me names, insulting me, and everything! It went to far when my old friend didn't defend me.
So, yes, she started hating ME, for something thaat SHE didn't do.
Rediculous! I mean, I even apoligized to her, she still hated me and decided that it would be fun to make others do the same to me. Sucessful for her. Sucks for me.
Going through this made me so weak I had mental break downs in the middle of classes. I would start crying out of no where. But the worst was yet to come. I had 4/6 classes with her! It made it even harder on me.
It's been like this and never stopped. Humiliating me before the school was her next act.
Think of the most insulting song ever, then picture yourself being the one it was about.
That is how I felt and was treated like. For the next couple of months all I heard people say behind me, or while walking past me was,
"Cau'se I'm a blond."
"B-L-O-N-D!"
"B-L- I don't know!"
Snorting and giggeling behind my back never ended.
It wasn't my fault.
My blond hair flung around my shoulder and I wore a white dress and black pants underneath because of the cold.
I checked my cerluean blue eyes in the mirror when I passed it during periods.
But at least I have 2 friends now...least I could do in highschool.
"Nami-chaaaan!" Kairi sand waddeling over to me. SHe was always so clingy, but I didn't blame her, her parents did abuse her and yell at her a lot.
She swung me around with ease and then frowned me down.
"You should eat more food. What are you, starving yourself now?" She asked accusingly.
I shake my head instantly. "No, no, it's not like that! It's just that it's embaressing when people watch me eat...It's un-comfortable, especially popular girls do that." I mutter sadly.
Kairi slapped my shoulder as if to get sense into me, "Come on! Just tell them to go to hell!" She cheered happily.
"Tha-That's going to work even worse, I would be hunted out of here with pitch forks." I mumble and keep walking. Kairi followed me and I didn't expect anything else. She's attached to me by the hip. She already tried to convince me, and beg, to surgicaly make it happen.
"But you will eat! Because it was an assembly so you have lunch with meeeeee!" She continued to sing while dragging me along with her into the commons where people stood in line to get their food.
"I'll share with you, just stay here and save my seat!" Kairi informed me before storming off into the line. At least the food looked and tasted decent in here.
"My, oh my, the witch is actually seen near food today?" The annoying voice asked. I didn't even bother to see who it was because I knew by the sound and nickname of it. Larxene.
I stayed still and stared down at the table before me. Folding my hands in my lap nervously fidgeting.
"What? Cat cought your tounge now? Surprise, surprise!" She spoke sarcasticly and laughed nasaly. "Little witch, what is wrong with you? Anorexic much? Maybe bulimic?" She kept on teasing.
"Leave her alone!" Kairi's voice screached as she aproached Larxene.
"Oh, the invisible girl! Hi. Hi. Hi. Hi. Hi." She repeated over and over again to annoy Kairi.
"Yes, you must be high." She spat at her, that was the good thing about Kairi. She always had good come back lines.
Larxene sneered and then retreated back to her group. Kairi sat down next to me, shoving a piece of pizza before me.
"I don't want it." I say refusingly.
But she was stubborn and probably wouldn't let this go so easily, "Go ahead, I only want the crust anyways." Kairi yawned and eyed me until I took a small bite.
When only the crust was left, Kairi ate it willingly and handed me the next thing she got me. "Eat this." She said confidently.
The cookie before me was screaming 'FAT' on it.
I shake my head. "No, I'm full." I say quietly getting up.
Kairi grabbed my arm and pulled me back down. "I will not let you go until you eat that."
"But I can't fit it!" I protest, squeaking.
"It's going to be fine! Stretch it."
"But it will make me fat!"
"You're an item on the titanic, you know what you are? Dust! You're too small!"
"People will stare."
"They can choke on their food!"
"I'm not hungry."
"EAT THE GOD DAMN COOKIE!" She shouted loudly, making it so a couple of kids would look back at her.
I munched on it against my will and sighed. This made me a little sick and shaky.
"Good girl!" Kairi cheered and stood up with me. "Now lets go see Riku!" She said confidently and dragged me out of the commons. It was normal.
Riku...he's an amazing character. You see, he is mentally crazy, they say...but I think they just missjudged him. He was a boy with many talents, he played the piano and he could sing softly and well. If you saw him walking down the street you could think he was a model. But no, he is not recognized for beauty in this school, since he has a 'special' class he goes to for about 2 periods. Pretty sad, maybe. But I believed in him.
"We're here to visit!" Kairi chimed in as she clashed through the piano rooms, door. Where Riku's head hung down, his silver locks in his face and his beautiful eyes hidden as he played a dark song.
"Hello?" Kairi asked knocking on RIku's forehead, "Anyone in there?" She asked loudly.
"What?" Riku's heas sprung up and he smiled at us two. "Hello there Kairi, Namine." He nodded at both of us. "Whats up today?" He asked politely.
"Namine actually ate a pizza and a cookie today!" Kairi cheered proudly.
"Congrats, Namine." Riku smiled sincerely.
"Don't remind me, or else I might hurl it up..." I mumble and sit next to Riku on his piano bench. "Sing." I simply say and he starts singing a sweet tune, without words he manages to do a complete song. "Thank you." I say and Kairi opened the piano rooms door again.
"Lets go!" She said loudly and grabbed both of us.
"But they'll start talking again!" Riku hissed. "Don't hold me! Remember what happened last time we all hugged at the same time?" He continued to hiss.
I remembered.
They all started to say that Kairi and I were sleeping with Riku.
Which was a complete lie.
"Whatever!" Kairi rolled her eyes and continued to walk past the staring eyes.
Among the crowd I could make out that people were crowding a new boy.
"Lets save him!" Kairi said stomping forward with no problem.
"No!" I blurt pulling her back. "They'll look!"
Kairi stared at me blankly, "So? Let them look at the fabulous me all they want!" She laughed raspy-like and flitted through the crowd to see and pull whoever was in the middle, out.
She came back in defeat, one of her sleeves pulled down.
"They beat me there..." She whimped. "But I saw him! And he was cute!" Kairi said, completely out of breath.
I blink. Kairi liked a lot of boys but there was only one for her anyways, and that was Sora. And evernthough she tried to set me and Riku up, multiple times, I told her that I had no interest whatsoever in him.
"Okay then...what did he look like?" I ask curiously.
"Adorable! Believe me! And from what I could catch, he just came in and finished signing up. He'll continue with his class now in any mi-" The bell finished her sentence and hugged me and Riku before hopping upstairs to her class.
Weird.
I go back to my art class, which I was the best in, I loved art. Everything about it was just so inspiring, how could I not like it?
"This is Roxas Hiyumi, he'll be in art class as elective now." The teacher introduced and I got a good look at him.
He was similar to Sora, but had blond spikes and luring eyes that spoke a tale of happiness, he also wore interesting clothes that showed me that his character was sort of messy, but perfectly fine and sweet.
Hold up! I don't even know him! So why is my face getting so warm?
"Hello. Nice to meet you all." Roxas announced and sat in front of me. Yes, in front of ME! I was cheering inside before I could stop my mental happiness of him.
I mean, for all I know, he could be a total joke. Or rude.
But something told me that he was different.
"Uhm, can you hand me some orange paint?" He asked turning around. He was so amazing...
My heart stopped as I blinked and then picked up my hold with the color orange.
"That's red. Do you have orange?" He asked again with tired eyes, holding up the cup.
"No, it's orange. I'm pretty sure."
"No it's not." He retorted and I sighed a little, getting up and showing him that I was right.
"I'll proove you wrong." I say and look at his picture of the clock tower in the city main. "It is orange." I spoke and lifted my brush to lightly stroke a edge of the clock. "You see?" I say turning to him.
"Oh! Sorry, thanks." He mutters embaressed.
"That's okay. And, don't make heavy strokes or else it will look messy. Mix some colors." I suggest and go back to my artwork.
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"So, how was it? Is he cute? Did he ask you out yet?" Kairi blasted me as soon as I was in my next class with her.
"Kairi, we jusrt met! Stop crowding me already with questions." I sigh loudly and go to my last class.
But she cought up with me quickly and stopped me before my 2nd elective, cooking, I never took it or ate what I made, I always gave it to Riku or Kairi to make them happy. I don't like food anyways-not too much.
Substituding our class was a young woman wearing a light pink blouse and she had wavy shoulder lenght hair.
"I have a sheet for you to follow, you'll be making some sweets of your choice for Valentines day.
I hate Valentines day.