A/N: Okay, its been awhile since I've posted a Degrassi fic. To all of my current readers, I have not forgotten my other fics. I do plan to update them some time during this month and next month. I so sorry to have left you guys hanging and I hope that does not stop you from reading and reviewing.

This story is one that I have held onto for years and one that I am excited to post. It follows the original plot of Degrassi however, I have tweaked some things. Without further ado….

Dear Diary, (Date Unknown)

I'm sixteen years old and I've never written in a journal or a diary of any sort. But then again, I've never had a reason to. My life used to be so simple and then ninth grade happened and this year as I start tenth grade it seems as if it'll only get worse. In ninth grade I was in love…or infatuated…with Craig Manning. However, he was seeing someone else, Ashley Kerwin. So, prior to my sudden change of style, I did everything I could to catch his eye. Eventually I did…by sleeping with him and I don't mean sleeping with him like sleeping with a teddy bear. We began seeing each other behind Ashley's back. Then he broke my heart, Ashley found out about us, and me…well I got pregnant. So there I was, fifteen and pregnant. I told Craig and he was…well, happy. We had planned on having the baby but, him and I were babysitting Jack, my best friends Emma's baby brother. I had realized that not only could I not care for a baby…I couldn't care for myself. Craig and I broke up- were we even dating?-after…or before I had the abortion. After that, I was marked as the baby killing slut, lost a semi-good boyfriend, and strained my friendship with Emma…again. Welcome, Diary, welcome to my life. The disastrously broken life of me, Manuela 'Manny' Santos.

Love (does it really exist?),

Undecided

P.S Can you really love something so broken? And can I ever love again?

A/N: Now I know you are possibly thinking that this is just another dear diary story but, I put my own twist to it which present itself in the next entry. Please Read and review, all comments welcome.