Mitchie's POV

I sat in the rain, Letting the cold water wash over me. My tears mixed with the droplets. You wouldn't be able to tell if I were crying had it not been for my eyes. She had always told me my eyes were a dead give away. She said I could hide nothing from the people who cared to look in the right place. She was everything I had. Everything I cared for. She knew all about me, she knew my darkest secrets and my greatest desires. She had my heart and now? Now she was gone. I was never again going to see her eyes light up when I brought her lunch at work, I'm never going to see her smile deviously when she had pulled off a prank that was yet to be revealed. She was gone forever, and there was nothing I could do about it. They had said it was suicide. They told me she had been hurting for years. How can I say I was so close to her, and had never seen the pain that she carried? Why didn't I see it!? I felt my anger rise. Not at her, no, never at her. I could never truly be mad at her for anything, But the mass amount of anger and loathing I felt now was directed at two people. Myself and Her. Why didn't I question her mysterious bruises further? I knew she had been lying, so why didn't I do anything?! Why did I have to be so fucking stupid! She knew everything about me. She knew everything. I thought I had known her as well. But now I see that I didn't. The anger disappeared just as quickly as it had come. I was filled once again with sorrow. Tears filled my eyes once again. I sat on the roof of my house and sobbed. How was I supposed to get through this? How can everyone expect that i'll be alright? She had been my joy, my happiness and now she's gone. It just kept repeating in my head. She's gone. The love of my life is gone. I'm never going to get another hug, or kiss on the cheek. I couldn't say goodbye, I wouldn't. No matter what, I can never go on with my life acting like she never existed. I couldn't do what everyone else was planning on doing. How could they want me to do the same? There was nowhere that I could go where I wouldn't be reminded of her. We used to sit on this roof every summer. We'd grab some sleeping bags and stare at the moon and the stars, just talking till we'd fall asleep. It hurts worse knowing there were a lot of things I never got to say. She died before I could tell her I loved her. She died never knowing that I was in love with her. I had been planning on telling her, but I never got the chance because I was too much of a damn coward.
"Mishie?" I turned to see Selena standing there in her pajamas. Selena was Alex's baby sister. Her pride and joy. Alex had been very protective of the little four year old. She loved her more than anything. Which was funny because when she found out she was going to have a little sister, she was furious. She never wanted to be an older sister. It took some time, but after a while I convinced Alex to give her a chance. Alex loved the fact that Selena was basically her spitting image. Now anyone who laid a hand on her would be dead within a matter of seconds. I wiped my eyes and nose.
"Selena what are you doing out here? Its past your bed time." She walked closer to me.
"Alley's supposed to come." She said. It took everything in me not to break down anymore in front of the little girl. Every night Alex would tuck her in and sing her to sleep. Selena didn't understand any of this. She didn't get why everyone was crying, she didn't know why they kept saying Alex wasn't coming back. Whenever anyone tried telling her, she would just smile up at them saying that Alex would come home she always does. Hearing her say that just breaks my heart. When I was told what had happened, i wanted to die. I wanted nothing more than to stop breathing, but I couldn't. I had to stay, I had to be here for Selena. I promised myself that no matter what, I was going to take care of the little girl. I stood up and walked over to the little girl. I picked her up and set her on my hip.
"Alex isn't here right now sweetie" I told her.
"then where is she?" I looked up at the star filled night sky.
"She's up there" I said pointing. She looked up in amazement.
"Whoa, I wanna go!" she said excitedly.
"Me too" I told her.
"Then let's go" I chuckled slightly.
"We can't go up there Sel"
"Why not?"
"Because you have to be chosen." I told her trying hard to think of something. "You will be chosen one day, and me too, but we never know when. There are a lot of people in this world who will be going up there, so we just need to wait our turn."
"Oh" she said sadly.
"Come on, its time for bed."
"But I don't wanna!"
"You know, if Alex has to lose her turn up there just to get you to bed, she'll be mad"
"She would?"
"Yep, She only gets to go up there once, do you really wanna make her sad about losing her chance?"
"No"
"Then I suggest you go to bed" Alex's house was literally right next door from our house. I went inside and took her up to her room which was right next to Alex's. The little girl was so tired, she had her head on my shoulder and I wouldn't be surprised if she was asleep. I paused at Alex's door. The door was closed, so I couldn't see inside her room. I tore myself away and went into Selena's room instead. I tucked her in and kissed her temple. I turned to leave, but she grabbed my hand.
"Alex is supposed to sing for me" She told me. I thought for a moment, then I remembered something. Alex had recorded some songs so that whenever she was away for the night, her parents would just have to play the recordings for Selena. I went over to her closet and pulled out the box that was filled with them.
"Which song do you wanna hear?" I asked the little girl. She told me and I put it in her music player. Soon the room was filled with Alex's voice. I felt a few more tears fall from my eyes as I turned to leave.
"Goodnight Sel sweet dreams" I looked over to see the little girl was already asleep. I left closing the door behind me. Then I went back to my house where I retreated to my room avoiding any confrontations with my parents, then sat on my bed and cried myself to sleep. I had a feeling that this is how it would be for a long time.

Alex's POV

"Whoa!" I said as I stumbled a bit, barely regaining my balance. I don't think I'll ever get used to these stupid things. I looked to my left and right where my brand new wings stuck out. It's odd, I never thought this would ever happen. I mean one minute I know it's the end for me and the next I'm waking up in a very unusual office. It had white walls, white seats a white desk. Everyone wore white clothing. It was disturbing just how white and clean everything was. A lady at a desk had greeted me. I had felt so out of place with my black hair that contrasted with this lady's light blonde hair. Everyone else was white, while I was wearing a black t-shirt and dark blue jeans with a hole in the knee. I don't like the pre-ripped jeans, any holes in any of my clothing are from what I do. I was very lost as the woman tried to explain where I was and what I was doing there. Apparently being a wizard in my life had some perks in the after life. Because I had been a wizard with a pure heart (the lady's words, not mine) I got the honor of being a guardian angel. Yes, there had been screaming (from me) and some crying (also from me, but if you tell anyone I'll sock you) and some attempt at explanations (from her) and in the end i got the so called 'honor' Of leaving behind the life I had once had, never allowed to see my little sister or love of my life again. I never even got the chance to tell her how I feel. It kills me to know I'll be sent back to earth and not be able to go straight to them. Apparently they had already assigned me to someone. They told my charge was in a special situation where she would be able to see me. My charge as they told me was suicidal and ready to give up on life. She was the only person that would be able to see me. Yes I said she, because even though they wouldn't give me a name or even an address, they told me it was a girl who's my age. Oh joy. So then I got a three second explanation on how to use the wings that I just realized I even had, before I ended up where I am now. They told me I'm supposed to know who my charge is because they'll be the only one who could see me, and apparently flying through some random ass door that led back to earth was going to bring me straight to where I need to be. I looked around to realize I am in a very familiar room. No not just a familiar room, It was Mitchie's room! I turned to the bed to see her sleeping figure. Mitchie is my charge! I was so happy at the moment I just wanted to wake her up and hug her. Then I looked at the clock. It was 7am monday morning. Why isn't she up and getting ready for school? why hasn't her parents woken her up? I walked over to the bed and sat next to her. I moved the hair out of her face and shook her gently.
"Mitch, get up. You need to get ready for school." I told her. She turned over so that her back was facing me.
"Mitch"
"Mom I thought you said I'd get a break from school. Besides Alex isn't there so what's the point?" She said and i could tell she was crying.
"Mitchie Torres doesn't want to go to school? what has this world come to?" I said jokingly to myself hoping to lighten the mood. I heard her inhale sharply, like she was surprised by something. For a moment it was silent, then I heard her voice, so soft and weak. It was filled with hope and sadness and it broke my heart.
"Alex, i-is that you?" Of course it's me! why wouldn't i- oh. I forgot that I was dead. Of course shes sad! I'd be hurt if she wasn't even though that sounds horrible, but it's true.
"Ya its me" I told her simply. She immediately sat up and turned around. Her eyes were red and extremely puffy. I could tell she had been crying all night. Ok, whoever made my Mitchie cry is so gonna- Oh wait. Gosh you would think this kind of thing would be hard to forget. Mitchie tackled me in a hug and cried into my chest.
"Please don't let this be a dream" I wrapped my arms around her and laid my cheek on her head. She was just a little shorter than me so this position was perfect.
"Don't worry, It's not" I told her. We were like that for a while, until Mitch finally dried her tears.
"Why?" She asked
"why what?"
"Why didn't you tell me?" I sighed.
"I didn't want you to get hurt. If you knew, she would've hurt you too and I could not let that happen."
"No not that" I was confused.
"then what?"
"Why'd you" she paused as tears once again came. "why'd you kill yourself." She said in a whisper so small I'm surprised I heard it.
"Wait what? I didn't kill myself!"

Wazzup. Ok I know I have another story going but this was on my mind. I'll continue the other story first, but I'll update this every now and then.
~SM
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