You know what I think it is?
What?
You're mad that Hotch and I controlled our micro-expressions at the hospital and you weren't able to manage our deception.
You think this is about my profiling skills – Jennifer listen, the only reason you were manage to able my perception is because I trusted you. I came to your house for ten weeks in a row crying over losing a friend and not once you had the decency to tell me the truth.
I couldn't…
You couldn't or you wouldn't?
No, I couldn't.
What if I started taking Dilaudid again, would you have let me?
You didn't..

You're sure about this?
Spence…
It's too late, alright.

Spencer Reid left the police station and Jennifer Jareau just stared blank in the eyes of her coworkers. Their eyes were filled with shock and concern, even if they were profilers in this moment not one of them was able to completely vanish their current emotions from their faces.
Shock and concern,
Especially concern was an emotion that was directly linked to the man that had just left the office…
Spencer Reid was kind of trouble magnet and this ability led him to Tobias Hankel, who turned out as an unsub in one of their cases, he tortured Reid and drugged him with Dilaudid.

JJ was shocked to hear Reid talk about Dilaudid in the first place, sure she had an idea of addicts and that the desire for their former drug would never really stop, but still she just did not considered the possibility that Spencer would think about the drug after 7 years.
But in the moment he asked her if she would let him taking Dilaudid again, she realized how dumb she was not to think about this possibility, it was a childish imagination that Spencer would be different from any other former addict – JJ swallowed at this thought ,"any former addict" ,
Spencer Reid was quite more than any other person.
He was a genius and even if he experienced things in his life other people would probably call a bad horror movie or an awful nightmare, Reid still seemed so pure and innocent, maybe just because he still wanted to help people after his life being mostly a mess.
Morgan interrupted her thoughts.
- JJ?
She realized her colleagues were staring at her and that Morgan just asked her a question.
"Sorry, what did you say?"
"I asked you if you know what Reid intended to say?" ,all of them knew the answer were obvious and still it did not seem real until JJ closed her eyes for a second and wished she was wrong and this was just a dream – a stupid nightmare.
"I think Reid might be using again…"

Nobody said a word for what seemed like an eternity, it felt like they were in a bubble and the world around them did not exist, but Hotch knew they needed to continue their work in this case it would be selfish to forget about the victims and their families – they all knew it would.
"Okay we need our heads in this case, we will care about Reid and… "- Hotch was not able to finish this sentence and he was thankful that Rossi helped him out of this.
"Hotch is right our priority is to catch this unsub and we should not waste any time."
They all knew this was the right thing to do, but all of them including Rossi and Hotch wanted to search Reid in this moment – people are selfish when it comes to other people they care about and even if they saved people on a daily basis in a situation like this it was pretty difficult to ignore the part of their mind that was selfish and wanted to let this case down and help their friend.

They all started to continue their work.

They were able to catch the unsub and they informed Reid that they would fly right back to Quantico.

Morgan sighed relieved as he saw Reid standing in the airport waiting for them, Morgan caught himself to look for any difference in Reid's appearance, but he looked like he always did, but on the other hand they should have known that a profiler would be able to seem "like he always did" even if he was a wreck on the inside.
They made their way into their jet quietly, no one dared to talk, but Hotch knew they needed to talk about this.

"Reid we should talk about this afternoon."
Spencer knew that he could not avoid this situation after his outburst and he understood that Hotch, as their team leader felt responsible to start the conversation about this topic, but he felt still so angry and betrayed by him, that he was not rational in this moment.
He felt most betrayed by JJ, because she was the one he trusted with his grief but still this was Hotch's fault as well.
He slowly lifted his head from the book page he had stared at for ten minutes what was an eternity for his standard of reading.
"What do you want to talk about?" he knew the answer to this question, he was not stupid, but it was the only sentence that crossed his mind so he just said it out loud.
"I think you all know we care about you and that we will be always there for you, but you need to tell us the truth we can deal with it together and I'm sure as a team and a family we will manage…it - "
Hotch wanted to continue, but Reid interrupted him.
"I am using again, but after you did not calculate that your brainiac would have issues with his friend's fake death and the betrayal of people I considerated as family, I think I will deal with it myself, I'm already working on it and I will visit the meetings of the Beltway Clean Cops as soon as we are in Quantico, so I promise you Agent Hotchner this is none of your business."

The end

this just came to my mind and I felt the need to write this down,
I hope you enjoyed this one shot (: