A/N Ok, I have updated this story quite a lot and I plan on continuing this story. I may come to a few parts where I haven't an idea where to go with it like I had done before, so I'm just going to see where I can go with this story for now.
An Unexpected Guest
Here I sit in this new room, my old life was far from over and all memories that resided in that town were now gone. Everything, everyone. There wasn't one person left from the after effects of the gruesome battle we encountered. Sure it was all over, but how was I supposed to pick up the pieces and move on after loosing everyone close to me.
I have sat here and done nothing but relive the past with the objects I was able to recover before the down went down. Dawn's CD she liked to listen to played lightly in the background and some set my mood for the time being. For an annoying little sister, I sure as hell missed her.
Dawn… god I missed her so much. But she was in a better place now…right? It wasn't the first time I was unsure of what to do but I, Buffy Summers, was completely taken aback of what to do now.
Currently I am spending my time in Angel Investigation's hotel room, and I have been here for the past month. Angel took me in with open arms in hopes of helping me get through the pain of loosing everyone and I accepted his offer. I knew there was no where else to go so I took whatever I could.
It hurts being here though, and I know I'm starting to become a worry with everyone here. I barely eat or sleep anymore and I haven't spoken two words since I left my entire life behind. No one asked questions just tried to make it easier, but failed miserably. No one could take away this unbearable pain that housed itself inside of me.
God I missed them all so much. I remembered their painful deaths one by one, but they were in heaven now… safe. I never wanted all of their sweet lives to end but somehow I knew they would be safe finally and away form anymore suffering that came with war.
Lucky for me, I was able to collect a few things before the war took all of my friend's belongings long with my own. A few of the things I was able to save was Dawn's CDs, Spike's favorite lighter, Spike's lucky duster, Mr. Gordo, a bunch of photos of everyone, Xander's solar powered CD player, and quite a lot of other things that had reminded me of the character of each friend. A lot of it all was packed away in boxes because the pain would be just unbearable to look in faces of what I lost that day.
The song "Here With Me" by Dido started playing as I sat there and counted back on all of the memories.
"I
didn't hear you leave, I wonder how am I still here,
I don't want
to move a thing, it might change my memory"
I could feel my hot tears falling from my restless eyes and I never cared to wipe them away.
"Oh I am what I am, I'll do what I want, but I can't hide"
I felt my heart being ripped out and it got to the point where I just couldn't take it anymore. I ran my fingers over Spike's lighter and I looked at my friend's pictures as my heart clenched again.
"I
won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe, until you're resting here
with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot be, until you're
resting here with me"
I had gotten over Spike as a lover, but it didn't stop the feeling that I held inside. I might not have been in love with him, but I did love him. I stood up and started pacing around the room trying to think of what I could do to get rid of her pain.
"I
don't want to call my friends, they might wake me from this dream
And
I can't leave this bed, risk forgetting all that's been"
In on moment I stopped pacing and walked gracefully into my bathroom that connected to my room and looked into the mirror at my reflection. What I saw was horrible. My face had lost its once happy, perky look and was replaced by red puffy eyes, sunken in checks and unsleeping eyes with dark rings.
"Oh I am what I am, I'll do what I want but I can't hide"
I left the bathroom and sat back down on my bed, unable to look into my reflection no longer. The thoughts of all the good and bad times with my friends popped into my mind again and even though I knew I had to be strong and live on for them, I just couldn't bring myself to.
"I
won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe until you're resting here
with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot be, until you're
resting here with me.
I
won't go, I won't sleep, I can't breathe until you're resting here
with me
I won't leave, I can't hide, I cannot be, until you're
resting here with me."
The song had long come to an end and so I sat on the bed waiting for another song to come on… but it never did. All of a sudden my slayer senses went haywire, but after a few seconds I just sat there still because I knew who had suddenly made their appearance in my room.
I just uttered with my dead voice, "Whistler…"