Revisited.

Edward POV.

I walked numbly through the woods of Forks, I don't know why I'm here, instinct maybe. I was staring blankly ahead of me, when there was a sudden bright light through the masses of trees. I shielded my eyes from the sudden brightness, a hiss forming at the back of my throat, coming out through clenched teeth. A figure stood ahead of me, the light surrounding it. I removed my hand from my face, trying to inspect the figure. I moved forward enough to see it was a young woman. She stepped toward me, coming completely into view, I gasped unintentionally and feel back a few steps. A pair of wide, chocolate brown eyes were staring at me, set in a perfect heart shaped face. I was unable to move, breathe… it was like some kind of trance. A smile, more beautiful that the sun, graced her face. I put one foot in front of the other, moving closer, to touch her, suddenly out of my trance like state.

I was a foot away from her stunning frame, when she put her hand up in a stop motion. I paused, my brows furrowed together in confusion. Her smile faded to a pained expression. She looked to her feet, her hand lowering to her side. She looked up suddenly, looking into my eyes, and all I could see was the obvious pain she was suffering. I longed to comfort her and tell her it will all be okay.

As if reading my thoughts, she whispered, "no Edward, it will not be okay." She closed her eyes, a single tear tracing her smooth cheek, "I cannot forgive you." She turned and walked back towards the light.

I resumed my frozen position, stunned. I dropped to my knees, covering my face with my hands. What have I done?

My eyes snapped open, my breath coming in short gasps. This new ability to dream without warning was starting to really aggravate me. Ever since leaving Bella, my conscience has developed into guilty, painful daydreams, that I was unable to control. I was seated at my grand piano, my fingers lingering on the keys. The lullaby going un-played.

It's been 20 long, regretting years since I left the small town of Forks. 20 years since I had seen that beautiful face, but I still remembered it perfectly, every mark, line, scratch that had graced it then. It was for her own protection, she knew that, I hope. I was dangerous to her, I couldn't live with myself if I physically hurt her. I don't know how I'm living now if she is in as my pain as I.

"Edward?" I heard a familiar voice call from outside my door. A spiky head of black hair poke around the door, before her whole body came to view.

"Hey Alice." I said, putting a smile on my saddened face.

"Dreaming again?" She sat beside me on the bench, leaning on my shoulder and clutching my hand. Alice was the only person I told about my dreaming, she understood and I trusted her with my life.

I nodded solemnly. She threw her arms around my neck in a vice grip, it would have suffocated any human. I place my arms around her back, nuzzling my face into her shoulder, willing the tears that I knew wouldn't come.

"It will get better, I promise." She mumbled into my hair.

"You've been saying that for the past 20 years, Alice." I said, as I always do when she says that line.

"Give it time, it's difficult, but it will happen." She added, but I knew it wouldn't ever happen. I would never be over Isabella Marie Swan.

"Come downstairs Edward, and sit with us, we're thinking of playing baseball. Take your mind off things?" Alice leaned back to look into my eyes.

I nodded, at this she leapt from my arms at inhuman speed and squealed with delight. I stood, letting her know I was coming before she ran downstairs to the others.

I've been living with the Denali Coven since I left Forks, we are extremely isolated, so the noise we all create when playing baseball was never a problem.

We were always together, everyone was family here. Carlisle and Esme, Emmett and Rosalie, Jasper and Alice, Eleazar and Carmen, Irina, Kate, Tanya and myself. Honestly I think they all stay together all the time for my sake. They all know my story, and the only thing they have in the eyes for me now is pity.

I walked slowly down the stairs, catching Alice's scent as I walked. I came to the bottom of the stairs to hear my family laughing and mucking around. As I walked into the room, they silenced, getting a glare from my part. They try not to single me out, but this is just stupid. I don't need them to be silent and careful around me, I need a lively and happy atmosphere.

I walked to my normal seat and sat down in the uncomfortable silence. After a minute or two, Emmett was the one to break it.

"Come on! I wanna play some Baseball!" He yelled, jumping from his seat and punching the air. Everyone turned to glance at me but I just rolled my eyes. Everyone jumped up and ran out the doors, leaving me to walk at human pace behind them. I liked to play the human part, after spending so much time around them, it was comforting.

I got to the field eventually, and they had already begun, this didn't really bother me, I only planned on watching. They continued like I wasn't there, having much more fun than I. I turned to see Tanya looking at me, as I looked at her, she instantly looked away. This actually made me laugh, and that doesn't happen easily.

Tanya POV.

This is so much fun, I love it when we play baseball. I was waiting to bat, my favourite position. I was cheering Emmett on, who was on my team along with Jasper, Rosalie, Kate and Eleazar.

"Come on Emmett! Get us a home run!" I shouted, Rosalie jumping up and down next to me.

I saw in the corner of my eye, Edward arriving onto the field. He looked so out of place, do unhappy. I hated to see him this way, I already knew he wouldn't be joining in and he would just stand there. I got caught up in my thoughts while staring at him, when he shot his glance at me. I instantly looked back to Emmett, afraid of him getting annoyed at my staring. No matter how depressed he looked, he was still gorgeous.

We continued playing, but a break was called, both teams were drawing by this point. I jogged over to Edward, who was still standing in the same position.

"Hey," I said, bumping his hip with mine. He tried to put a smile on his face, but I could see the pain behind it. "Why don't you join in? It is really fun you know." I smiled up at him in encouragement.

"Yeah, maybe later. I'm having fun watching at the moment." He said, keeping his fake smile on.

"Well, I hope you join in, maybe you could bring us to the win!" I chuckled at the thought of us loosing at all with Emmett and Rosalie on our team.

He laughed too, I haven't heard that laugh in too long, I thought to myself. "Yeah, as if I'd help with Em and Rose on your team." He shook his head at the thought.

"Well, it'd be nice to have speed on our team to I guess." I looked down in disappointment.

"Alright, you've convinced me, I'll play." He smiled, not as fake anymore. I smiled back, dragging him over to our team who were now huddled together, discussing tactics.

"Eddie! Joining us finally!" Emmett yelled, slapping Edward hard on the back. He laughed in response, joining the huddle.

"Alright, Edward, can you hear any of their tactics?" Edward looked off, trying to catch something.

"Nope, they've stopped thinking about it since they knew I was playing, they're getting to good at that." He sounded frustrated.

"Oh, does that matter?! We'll win anyway, and cheating isn't the way!" I said, winking at Kate.

Everyone but Kate shouted "shut up Tanya!" and me, they all love cheating. It's a natural instinct with them.

Esme called us all together, and they second half of the game commenced. We were a lot better with Edward now, he was speeding his way around the bases, getting home runs every time, catching the furthest ball when pitching. We were soaring high, far in the lead.

Edward was running around, his arms in the air like a plane, cheering for our team. I was laughing along with everyone else, when Emmett charger at him jokingly, knocking them both to the floor. It was funny to watch, as Edward threw Emmett off him, he was laughing too much, throwing him on the wrong course and into Jasper. They got into a small fight, but only playing. I think. And they wouldn't hurt each other anyway, everyone was happy to see Edward having fun, so they weren't stopped. They all fell to the floor, spread like a triangle, lying on their sides, shaking with laughter. We were all laughing along with them.

Esme declared us winners. We all ran and jumped the three boys still on the floor, cheering and laughing. The loosing team also joined us, celebrating our victory with us.

We headed back to the house about ten minutes later. Everyone sat down in the living area, talking about the game. I sat with Edward, leaning on his shoulder, making sure I could keep his good mood up. He leant his head on mine while talking with the rest of our family.

I really do feel sorry for him, I never met Bella, but from everyone Alice, Emmett and Jasper told me, she sounded amazing. Rose never spoke about her, so I guessed she wasn't too keen on a human and a vampire. We all sat there for hours, talking about everything that came into our heads. Suddenly Edward tensed up next to me, I looked up at him and he had his eyes closed.

I shook his arm "Edward?!" I called. He didn't move. I looked around, everyone was staring at him now. Alice was the first to come into action. She dragged him off the couch and out of the room. We all looked at the now empty door way in confusion.

I went to go see what was happening, but I was stopped by Jasper. "Leave him, Alice will sort it out, trust me." He smile reassuringly at me.

I settled back into my seat, my mind wandering to Edward in concern. Everyone tried to get back into comfortable confusion, but it wasn't working. Everyone was tense and confused. We all settled for silence.

So, basically, this is after New Moon. There was never an Eclipse, or Breaking Dawn. So forget them for now. Bella is left in Forks, we don't know what has happened to her yet. But you will find out soon ;)