First of all, I never would have guessed life would be so damn complicated. I just started up a Youtube account (alias Marina Stargold) sang original compositions and.. here I am. God, I never knew I'd sing infront of all these people.. shouting my name. I also never knew I could sweat bucket loads of sweat... shit. I might crack my voice now.. well.. here goes.

Everybody said to leave you..

The crowd goes wild with the first line. I smile a bit as my confidence comes back.

But all I could think about is you

They all said to leave you alone

My eyes shift to the front row as I slowly walk up to them and brush my hands on theirs. My life never was this great until my alter ego came along..

Marina Stargold

BoNkaKi

FLASHBACK

I remember I was still, like 16? At that time. Completely obsessed with Britney Spears and I was hoping to land a Big Break on Youtube... hehehe.. like Esmee.. God, loved her, too. I just sang songs. No one knew May Maple. I was just that anonymous girl traveling with the 'Master'. It was my time to shine.

I wrote my first song, 'You Were' dedicated to the same 'Master'. It became a huge success. I never expected it to be, though.

These people I don't even effin' know started to love my work. With one song, I launched Youtube fame and became #1 Most Subscribed Artist, All Time and whatever. And I only had one video!

That encouraged me to write another one. Enter 'Loveless' that made History, too. God... I hated that song... I wasn't really loveless at that time. Fans would ambush me in the streets all "MARINA!!! OMIGOD CAN I HAVE YOUR AUTOGRAPH, PLEASE?!" and my Inbox was always full of songs composed by the same fans.

It was soooo crazy.

Mr. Ted Runner discovered me and signed me up for Runner Records. I had more access to the media and was like, always composing songs...

I was always on TRL... one time I guest-hosted there. And the fans were like..

"MARIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!"

I guest-hosted with Drew... just Drew. The audience was crazy.. Drew had this... major crush on me, they said.

They made us a couple.

Drew was alright.. but his songs were too Jonas Brothers.. eww.. he's 18 and sings like a member of a boyband. Corny.

My third single... I didn't really like it, but.. it sounded nice so I sang it.

It was called 'True and Tested' and it stayed on #1 for like, 3 weeks? Can't remember. It didn't exact;y beat 'You Were' but... forget it.

My rival in the music industry was Misty Waterflower, I think.

Actually I really loved her... more than Britney and Esmee.. I had all her albums.

But I was in her way, so she made this song that threw 'True and Tested' off the #1 spot.

My fandom vanished and turned into envy.

My first concert... seemed to be a success, sold more than Misty's but had less songs.. so I like, composed 100000000000000000000000000000000000000 more and performed it on that day.

My career skyrocketed.

Drew and I secretly saw each other... umm.. how to say this... uhh.. dating?

Kinda.

God...

I can't believe I'm typing all these stuff into this blog which a hundred billion other people can see..

They'll know who I am.. well..

It's boring to be stuck in a recording studio, composing 5 different fucking songs anyway.

Pastime...

I think...

Well.. supposedly this is a blog..

May's blog describing er alter-ego life.. kinda like Hannah Montana... I think.

Well... I'll post another chapter soon. GTG.

BoNkaKi