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Summary: A ficcie about nothing, just Nita's thoughts. Drabble. And yes, a lot of these are my opinions. Kind of a personal reflection from Nita's perspective. It's not been beta'd, so be nice.
Dear Diary,
"What would life be like if I were normal?" A common thought that I'm sure runs through every teenage mind at some point. At one point, I was one of those teens. Every day, from the day Joanne marked me as her punching bag, I would sit up late at night, thinking that maybe, if I were normal, things would be different, and in my most unrealistic daydreams, that, maybe we would be friends. I dunno what's happened since then, or when it happened for that matter. I am, however willing to bet that the day I got my manual marked the day that every view I've ever had changed.
Being a wizard for me, is normal. Helping people is part of my daily routine. And of course, by people I mean anything that has any way of communicating with something else. In some ways, I feel like I owe to myself to help. My pre-wizarding days are what I call my "dark ages". I hated middle school, and I hated the way everybody grouped off, for the sole purpose of leaving others out. I hated how that if someone didn't like you, you were marked as a loser by the rest of the person's posse. If you had seen me those days, you wouldn't have recognized me. All I wanted to do was hide. I was the girl that sat in the back corner of the room, hoping that the teacher wouldn't call on me. Not because I didn't know the answer, but because it would draw attention to the fact that I was actually there. No, I like being invisible.
And then came the "Enlightenment". The day I got my manual. The day I met Kit. The day I began to find myself. Kit. My god, just the sound of his name make me smile. He's my best friend, and yet, so much more. He helped me get through mom's death, and never judged me for my emotions. The downside? I shouldn't be falling for him like I am. I mean, What would happen to our wizardry and our partnership if something went wrong? I'm sure I could talk to Tom or Carl about this, but I'm not sure they would understand. Dairine would just laugh, and order me to tell him how I feel. Daddy would probably freak out (for lack of better term).
But what would Kit say? I don't want to scare him off, he's the best friend I've ever had. I don't want to jeopardize that. If I tell him how I feel, he may no longer hug me when one of us is caught up in a distinct emotion. He may no longer pour out his deepest thoughts and emotions like he always has. He may not want to be around me, and I just couldn't deal with that.
So diary, for me this is normal. I'm a wizard. I'm a daughter. A sister. A friend. And honestly, I think I may be in love. Damn.
Nita
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