I'm sorry
By: Kana
SaekiFuji - Promt: 'Still dying with every step I take, but I don't look back.'
Silent tears are falling down and I hate it! I hate hurting my best friend. Yet I can't stay here. I know… Saeki knows. It's not that I don't want too…
A sweet kiss. Our faces close enough for our tears to mix. Bittersweet goodbye.
Damn the adults! Why do I have to leave?
Yet I will be strong. For Saeki, for myself.
I know I will be dying bit by bit with every step that takes me further away from him I came to love. Yet I will not look back.
I know it will hurt us both forever.
(AN: Well, this takes place when both boys are still rather young… Don't ask me an age though… Well, they're not yet in High School… )
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"Wha! Look at that!"
I smile at Eiji's happy yell. I thought he'd love it. After all, he truly is but a kid deep down. A kid, yet the best friend anyone could wish for…
"Yippie!"
He runs around. Climbing and playing.
I have to suppress a sigh. It has been so very long ago since I've last been here…
Looking aside my eyes catch familiar blue orbs. The smile completely vanished from my face.
I will not permit it! My son does not love another boy! He's young. It will be a phase…
But what if it wasn't one?
(AN: Well, you guys remember the playgarden of Rokaku in the anime episodes? That's where they are… )
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"It's still the same, ne?"
I knew he was there. Saeki… It has been too long…
"Up for a match?"
Questioning eyes directed at my face. Yet I refuse to meet his gaze. I don't think I can…
Both our teams are gone. The court is entirely ours again. Like so many years ago…
I missed his answer, but when I see him stand at the other side of the net, I finally smile again.
Let me play, let me forget.
Please, forgive me.
Our tears might have dried, it still kills me inside. Can both of us heal again?
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"Why did you want a match? You know I can never win of you…"
You know that isn't why I asked…
"Did it help?"
I look back up at him. Damn… I didn't even notice he sat himself next to me on the bench…
Slowly I shake my head. It has never helped. It will never help. The only thing I need… You giving me the answer to what I'm trying to forget by playing.
"Will you come back tomorrow? I want revenge…"
You don't even wait for my answer. Your disappearing back. Now I also know what you felt…
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I don't know why I came back.
Because he asked…?
Probably.
Your hand on my shoulder. Warm, well known touch.
Our yes meet. Yours still shine. Or should that be 'again'…?
"It's okay…"
I smile while a tear rolls down. How did you know? It's the answer I needed.
You take my face in your hands. Whispering softly.
"I know, because I love you…"
Your lips brush over mine. My arms around you, pulling you closer. Deepening our kiss. Tongues meet and battle. And tears roll down.
I love you. You love me. I will not let you go again.
The End!