Hey peoples!
I finally got my own site!
I was bumming off my friend mangotango450.
I was formally known as puppy_luv,
But now I changed it to...
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Yay!

I wrote this story when I was mad.
I guess I could blame PMS!
I did the unforgivible thing.
I made Edward the bad guy!
*gasp*
I know. It's horrible.
I about killed myself when I did.
Don't freak out.
In the end, everything is perfect.
Trust me, I couldn't live with myself if I left it like that!
So, read my story and please, please, please don't hate me!

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Chapter 1

Emptiness

I sat quietly listening to the birds outside. I couldn't put it off any longer. I walked over to where Edward was reading. He opened his arms for me. I sat down and started.

"Edward, you still love me, right? You're not tired of me?" I asked too afraid to hear the answer.

His face showed an expression I'd never seen before.

"What are you talking about?"

I closed my eyes and focused on my shield. I removed it so he could see my thoughts. I showed the most recent nights and how he would always be busy with something. Next, I showed his many trips alone. Finally, I ended with us kissing. They felt cold and distant, like he wasn't even there. My shield snapped back into place. His face was blank. No emotion.

I hugged him. "Say something!" I cried.

"What do you want me to say?"

My tearless sobs came. "I don't know! Tell me I'm wrong! Tell me I'm imagining things! Tell me you love me just as much as the day you asked me to marry you! Tell me anything but goodbye."

He wrapped his arms around me, but didn't say anything.

"Please say something." I whispered.

He took a deep breath. "Maybe I need some time alone to think. You know, get away for awhile." he replied slowly.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I wanted so bad to have not heard that!

I looked into his once loving eyes. "If you need to rethink our love for eachother, then you can have all the time in the world. Spend the rest of eternity rethinking our love."

His eyes got big. "What are you saying!"

I closed my eyes. "Get out," I said calmly, "Get out of my house. Get out of my life. Just. Get. Out."

He didn't speak as he walked out forever. I was empty inside. I wanted to feel something. Sadness. Anger. Shock. Anything, but emptiness.

Renesmee came in. "Why did dad leave? Is he going on another trip?"

I hugged her tight to my body. "Yeah. He's taking a trip."

She looked confused at my reaction. "For how long?"

"For forever..."

She shook her head. "Wh-what do you mean? He's not coming back?! What did you do!"

I sat her down. "He left on his own. We-he doesn't love me anymore."

Tears started rolling down her face. "Not dad. You guys were made for eachother. It's not possible. This is some sick joke, isn't it? Well you can stop now!" She ran out after Edward.

I decided I needed a friend. I grabbed my phone and dialed. It rang twice.

"Hello?"

"Jacob? I need you. Can you come over?"

"Bella? What's wrong? Don't go anywhere! I'll be there in a few minutes!"

Click.

I hung up and layed on the bed. I heard a short knock and Jacob ran in.

"Bella! Come here." He gave me a much-needed hug. Ever since he imprinted on Renesmee, he became the brother I always saw him as. Finally, emotions came pouring in. My sobs were quiet.

"Did Edward hurt you? Where is that bastard? I'll kill him."

I buried my face in his shoulder. "Jacob. I...I'm not sure what just happened. I-I-I feel so empty. After 20 years of marriage, it's gone in seconds."

He held me tight. "Bella...name it and I'll do it. You want me track him down and kill him, I'll do it."

He started to move towards the door.

"No. Let him go. I just want you to stay with me. Don't hurt him. Dispite how he feels about me, I still love him with all my heart. I only want him to be happy. If that means it doesn't include me then so be it."

He sounded shocked. "Bella, how can you say that!? He hurt you and you still love him!? You cease to amaze me!"

I tried to laugh, but it came out sounding like a bark.

Jacob stayed with me all night. I felt bad for being so selfish. His eyes would droop every now and then. His stomach growled around 5ish in the morning.

"Go home Jacob. Thank you for staying with me. You have no idea how much I appreciate it."

He looked at me with worried eyes. "Will you be okay? You're not gonna go all suicidal on me, right?"

I smiled. "I'll go see Jasper. He'll fix me."

He hugged me goodbye.

I figured I probably should go over and see him and Alice.

What do you think? Horrible, right? All I ask of you is to trust me. It gets better. Just wait till she meets Mike's son!
Read and review, but hold off on the hate mail till you finish the story.
I have already written the ending, but I'm curious to hear your ideas.
How do you think I make Edward the good guy again without making Bella weak?
Can't wait to hear your opinions!

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